Devesting Blestroplasty, Sold to Me As a Easy Procdure the Results Have Life Changing Implications

an additional issue I do not think I got across is the width of my eyes has changed and is now much shorter, and my eyes are blunted at the sides. This has probably been one of the worst complications from my surgery. I think the latheral canthus has been detached which I believe is the cause of a majority of my functional issues as well as the aesthetic ones. I am going to wait until at least a year so I know I am fully recovered and then fly over to the US to see several surgeons for consultations to seek face to face advice. I have chosen Dr Steinsapir because he appears to really go into detail on realself and offers what I think is good advice, his surgical photos also look very scientific in terms of using the same lighting and facial expressions something I have found lacking in other surgeons and I like the fact he appears to give a very comprehensive consultation testing for many issues and a total exam of the eye. I am also planning on seeing Guy Massry, I like his CHEL procedure with a cathroplasty it appears to address the length and blunted corners and hopefully the functional ones as well, finally Dr Walrath I like the result of his drill hole cathroplasty procedure which to me looked very similar to the CHEL procedure result.
If anyone has had any surgery with these doctors or had consultations I would love it if you could message me and let me know your thoughts. I am taking my time to get this right even if it takes years! A worse result is not acceptable to me so I need to be cautious and savvy about this.

For as long as I remember I have had some bags and wrinkles under my eyes. While these never upset me to the point I could not function they did bother me as I felt they made me look older and more tried then I actually was. For a few years I had been considering a lower lid blestroplasty to address this and eventually bit the bullet and went to see a surgeon to see If I was a good candidate for it. The surgeon I saw was on Harley street in the UK and examined me for about 30 mins or less, in retrospect not a ideal amount of time for such a serious procedure. He initially recommended the internal blestroplasty approach, behind the eyelid, which he said will remove excess fat, and then some lazer skin resurfacing to address the wrinkles and skin. I made its very clear that I did not want my eyes to look any different I just wanted to look more refreshed and he reassured me that this will be achieved. I booked my procedure for the 26th of January. The first problem I encountered was getting the time for my surgery, they did not tell me despite asking until about a week before the surgery, in retrospect this should of been a red flag, but I thought it was not the surgeons fault who I trusted implicitly, just a admin error. On the day of the surgery my surgeon said after examining the photos he took of me he thinks we should change the approach. He said he believed I had excess skin so a inward approach alone will not give me a satisfactory result. I asked him if the exterior approach presented with it more risk, he told me the only significant risk is scaring but this will be placed so it can not be seen under the eyelid. In retrospect I should of said no, but I was in a venerable position and of course I was paying good money and I wanted the best results possible! So I said yes. I thought a small scar was worth it to get rid of the bags. This proved to be the biggest mistake of my life. Though I was swollen after the surgery and bled a bit I was not worried and was very optimistic. However two weeks later I began to have concerns. The first thing I noticed once the swelling had gone down was how hollow I looked, almost skeletal and quite surgical, I felt I looked older and unnatural in appearance. I then just thought something about my eyes looked wrong, upon inspecting before and after photos, I noticed my eyes looked rounded, no longer had that natural almond shape and I had some mild retraction under both eyes. At this point I got scarred. How could this be! He told me my eyes would stay the same shape! I began searching on realself and soon found the external approach presented with it significantly more risk then the internal one, one article I read said conservatively the risk of malposition is anything from 15-20% which is massive! I could not believe he took that risk with my eyes. On top of the aesthetic issues I have severe functional ones to. These range from dry eyes to extreme tightness. It feels almost as if my eyeballs are dropping down my face and my skin is desperately trying to hold up. When I recently asked my surgeon about this he said this may get better in time, and also said the only malpositon he would be worried about is a ectropion when there eyelid pulls away from the eye. Is he serious! If I had known this was his personal aesthetic I would 100% would have not have tolerated that and he evidently did not listen to me when I said I did not want to have any change to the look of my eyes other then the bags underneath them. I am now nearly two months post surgery and my life has completely changed. I am a shell of who I was. Before the surgery I was in a really good place, probably the best that I had been in years. I looked good, felt good, I am nearing the end of my PHD, was planning a holiday with my best friend, was quirky but full of awkward confidence and laughter. This is now all compromised. I have had to sign of work temporarily due to anxiety and depression, I have little to no desire to do my university work, I do not want to leave the house or see people. It sounds mad but it is like a death, you loose part of yourself, your identity, you natural inner and outward beauty. What is worse to me is that this could have possibly been avoided if he stuck to the original surgery or at least told me honestly how much higher the risk was with the external approach. I am now faced with three options. Wait and try conservative measures, taping, massage, and 5fu shots which I am trying in April once I can afford them and hope that things improve to the point where this is tolerable. If this doesn’t work its either living with these frankly devastating results or seeking revision surgery which looks expensive, much more invasive then I could of ever imagined and the results quite often look unnatural and do not last. I am at a loss at the moment of what to do and how to continue on with my life but I have to no matter what but I plead with people to seriously reconsider having this surgery if they are planning especially if they are young like me (I am only 26)! Ask yourselves can you live with your bags and wrinkles or can you live with what I am going through now? I hope this makes you reconsider and I hope those who are in a similar position to me get the help and support they need believe me I know what you are going through. I will try and update as the months progress and sincerely hope I will be writing a very different post in six months time but I am not optimistic. The one good thing that has come out of this is how much I now know I liked myself before the surgery both outwardly and inwardly, if only I had realised that before, but for many reading this it wont be to late! Learn to love yourself because believe me your far more beautiful then you know and you will miss it once its gone.