55 Y/o - Scared but Excited - Edmonds, WA

November 16th will mark 1 year since my VSG. In so many ways I cannot believe it's been a year already! I have lost almost 60lbs since my first consultation visit and just over 50lbs since my surgery. For me, that equates to a 92% weight loss of my targeted weight loss goal (65#). I've read that people who lose more then 50% of their weight loss goal in the first year, have a higher success rate of keeping it off. I am afraid of re-gain, even though it hasn't happened to me yet.
I have noticed recently that a couple of my pre-surgery habits are creeping back into my daily activities. Grazing and squirreling away food 'in case' I need it. Both of these habits were completely gone immediately following surgery and until recently, I thought they were gone for good. Has anyone else dealt with this?

had my one month post op visit this week (I'm in week 5 with my sleeve). I am doing really good. Total loss 25 lbs - that includes pre-surgery loss. Met with the psych and fitness guys. Got some very simple strengthening exercises for the upper arms. I really want to minimize the arm flapping if I can!
I'm getting used to eating mushy foods and technically can move on to my 'regular' diet now. But I've having a little trouble with what I describe as spasms in my throat when I eat solid foods. Dr. said that should subside in the coming weeks. It can happen I guess when food gets hung up in the esophagus. It's a little bothersome, but nothing to get too worked up about I guess.
All in all, I have no regrets and am feeling really good!

I am almost oneo th out, down 15lbs and feeling good most all of the time. I have had a lot of heartburn the past two weeks. I can't take PPI mess so just using Pepcid and Tums. I think maybe part of the problem is that I'm not getting it not recognizing signals of when I've put enough into my stomach. I realized that last night so today I am going to extra careful and very mindful of how I feel after each bite.
One of the many reasons I decided to have this surgery is to not be so food/hunger/weight focused. I'm sure it's just because I'm still so close to my surgery dare that it seems like I'm spending more time and energy now then I ever did focused on these things. It's driving me nuts today! I'm really sick of it all! Counting ounces of water, remembering to drink protein shakes, etc-etc! And honestly, why do protein drinks have to taste so bad? Whey is the only protein available in a form that adds no texture, taste etc and those of allergic are left to the horrid experiences of soy, hemp and pea powder. Pea Powder? Really? Have you tasted that stuff or Hemp? Any way, I'm venting and being grumbly, sorry. Thank goodness I have a counseling appointment this afternoon. It is out of character for me to be this annoyed. The good news is, that I know it's temporary and soon I will be back to my usual self. For now, I will take a long walk with my dog in the rain and shake this bummer mood. Till later... Have a great day!