5' 4" 115 Lb Breast Augmentation - Draper, UT

I feel so terrible, but I just feel so uncomfortable with my implants. I know my doctor did a great job, and I have no complications, But they are too big for me.
It's been almost 8 weeks since my surgery, and I've felt too big for 90% of the recovery. I actually really liked them around week 3-4 when the swelling was gone, but when the drop and fluff process began, they started to get bigger again. I wish I could go to that higher smaller stage, because I loved how they looked, and where they were placed. Now they are lower and heavier, and I feel more matronly because of the dropping. And I'm sure they will continue to drop since I am only 2 months out at this point. I wonder if I would have been better served with a lift and a smaller implant.
I am trying to figure out what solution is best at this point. I cry so much over them, which sounds so ridiculous. I never thought much about my boobs when they were small, only when I was in a swimsuit- but now I am painfully aware and self conscious of them almost always. This is also stressing out my poor husband, since this was supposed to be a confidence booster, but instead has created a much bigger problem.
I called and left a message at my PS's office to make an appointment to discuss my options. I'm very nervous to talk to him about this, since he did do a great job with what I started out with. I don't want to offend him, but I just know that I am so unhappy with the implants I have now. I also have no idea what to expect cost-wise, which will be the main reason of the appointment.
I would love to downsize, but am worried that this will be complicated and expensive. Because I had slight drooping pre-BA, I feel I will need a lift and possible pocket re-construction to ensure that the smaller implant does not move around. If downsizing would miraculously be not too expensive, I feel going down to 200cc or even less would be my ideal.
The other option is to just explant. It makes me so sad to think of this, since I know I was still not totally happy with my previous small boobs. Not to mention all the money that would be thrown down the drain.... but at least I was weight and pain-free, and happy about how I looked in clothes.
But this would probably be significantly less expensive than a revision, so it may be my only feasible option right now, aside from just living with these.
Ladies, I feel so down right now :(.

Sorry I didn't keep everyone updated. It has been pretty up and down these past 6 weeks.

I had no idea just how emotional this process would be. Even with all my research, and preparing myself to not judge my results too early on, it is another thing to see such a big change on your own body and psychologically adjust to the new image you have. I'm still adjusting to be honest. It's a process :).

The first 2 weeks I could not believe how big and swollen they looked. It really made me depressed and panicked that I had made the worst mistake, and on top of that, they were too high, and odd looking. (Which pretty much everyone is...it's just another thing to see it on yourself). My lower portion of my breast was a little "saggy" looking. I would post pictures, but I didn't take any.

Swelling is a funny thing because when I would feel them at first, I swore most of the bulk felt like the implant, so I immediately felt like there was NO WAY I was going to shrink down to my desired c cup.

It was exactly 2 weeks post op that I really noticed my breasts reducing in size. DRAMATICALLY. In a good way. I was finally liking them. And everyone would tell me that they couldn't even tell a difference in my clothes- which is exactly what I wanted. Subtle results, but to feel more confident in a bikini and naked.

I haven't gotten officially sized, but I'm guessing I am around a c or maybe d depending on the bra.

There are still days where I feel a little too big. Part of this may be because I still have a "heaviness" feeling on and off- especially in the morning. I still feel like I need to be careful how I sleep, or I feel a little uncomfortable. Sometimes I feel like I need to hold them up-worried that they will drop too low. Hoping that this feeling subsides eventually, so I just feel like they are my own breasts, and not foreign things inside of me.

But I think I'm still in the adjusting phase. When I look at photos, they look amazing, so I just have to remind myself that it is a process.

Just want to be real with you ladies! I wish (and I'm sure my husband does too) that it was a smooth sailing ride, but it will be all wonderful, and I'm extremely blessed to have a wonderful surgeon. He really did an amazing job, and has been incredibly accommodating to all my questions and concerns.

Really worried today, my left breast now has a flat spot and when I press on my sternum, it crackles. Also- my implants have moved much closer together. Missing my spacing from right after surgery. Now they seem like they are almost touching. Worried that this is because I have too big/wide of implant for my body size. :( hopefully I'll have more positive updates soon. So far this has been incredibly emotional and rough