31 • 155 lbs • 5' 6" • No Kids • 492 Gel • A-cup to D-Cup •

Although I've always secretly hated my boobs (or lack thereof), I didn't start seriously considering getting a BA until later. I guess I started to entertain the idea around 26+ y/o. It wasn't until I was freed from an abusive relationship [and found myself] that I truly realized that this was (1) something I wanted to do and (2) wasn't ashamed to do it. As someone who suffers from anxiety & depression, I think society's view on plastic surgery controlled my thinking. Not to mention, when you live in a world surrounded by domestic violence -- continuous physical, mental and emotional abuse -- you have no value in yourself. At that point in my life, it wasn't just about hating my small breasts, I hated everything about myself. I was lost. I was broken.

Now, let's fast-forward...
I finally had the help I needed to leave. I left everything behind: my job, my friends, ALL of my belongings...MY LIFE. I came home and moved in with my amazing & supportive parents. I decided -that day- that I could be whoever I wanted to be. I could be the person I deserved to be.

I started working out. Mind you, this was not something I had ever done before. I lost 50 pounds. I stopped smoking and drinking, even socially. Then, I was introduced to *let's call him "James"*. It was through James, my parents, and this new life I built for myself that I found confidence within myself. With this new confidence, however, I realized that I had always been secretly wanting to enhance my breasts. I have an athletic-build. I now run regularly on top of my workouts. I have very broad shoulders. I usually have to buy a size up when sleeves are involved, which makes the garment just hang, causing me to look not only completely flat-chested, but also heavier (since it covers my small waist). I have a very traditional hourglass figure. I have wide hips and a butt. I like to say "I got my mom's looks and my dad's body!" Unfortunately, I also got my mom's [lack of] boobs. Thanks, mom! ;)

So, here we are.

I did it. I had my Breast Augmentation this morning. I've been saving for almost 3 years!!! I have pinched so many pennies along the way to make this become a reality. I'm so proud of this purchase. I'm proud of the person I am -- proud that I have the confidence and strength to say "you know what, other men and women may body shame me for 'having fake boobs', but that's their problem, not mine." I haven't worked this hard the past 5 years to let another person dictate what I will or won't do [to my body]. I have been to hell and back. And today, although I'm in sooooo much freaking pain, it is absolutely worth every second of it!!!!!!

So to all of those that body-shame us...

Stop trying to steal OUR confidence and go and get some for yourself, because clearly you're the ones that need it.

Be proud of your Breast Augmentation, or whatever else you want to do to our body.

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

promise I'll include pics later and give you the juicy details about the procedure when I'm not in as much pain! Just tired of the unnecessary sour-faced reactions from people. Much love. #endrant

Well, I certainly underestimated how uncomfortable my body would be during the initial recovery process. I had invasive foot surgery this past December that kept me sedentary and out of work for an entire month -- THIS recovery process trumps that one [as far as the pain is concerned], ten-fold!

When I sit completely still, all I fell is the pressure; not pain. I feel extreme pain around my boobs (the upper part of my core, especially around the sides of my boobs and under at the incisions sites) whenever I move, even slightly. And forget using your arms for anything!!! I can't even twist off the tops of my water bottles or pill vials! I can barely go to the bathroom by myself. It hurts to pull my pants down. It hurts to wipe. It hurts even more to pull my pants back up. I need help to even get off of the couch or out of the recliner. The amount of pain I feel is too much; I'm talking severe pain. I'm just dying for this completely debilitating pain to go away!!!! It's for the birds!

Some things I've noticed...
Once I'm up and walking around, or even just sitting up (straight up! shoulders back) [and after taking pain medication], I feel loose and good. I've been taking laps around my back yard when I let my dog out and do my arm stretches as well. I find that I'm in the most pain after sleeping -or- when I've been sitting still for a long period of time. It's like every muscle just locks up. I feel like my body is like taffy right now. You have to be mindful of making sure you stay loose and limber. Keep those muscles stretched and those lungs pumping. Walking will do you wonders. You have to walk to avoid getting pneumonia post-surgery.

Oh! Also...I threw up my entire dinner this evening. Because I've been in SO-MUCH-PAIN, my body reacted negatively to my pain meds. I've been very diligent about not taking more than I'm supposed to, but even with the allotted maximum, it was too much and it made me nauseous. So, word to the wise, be careful with your own prescriptions. There's definitely a fine line. And make sure you EAT! I think my stomach wasn't coated enough when I took my meds and once I ate dinner, my insides weren't ready to handle it.

As far as the *girls* go, I love them!!! It makes all of this pain worth-while. I'm so happy with how they look. Yes, they're high right now, and yes, they're super swollen and hard as rocks, buuuuuut, they're beautiful. It feels AMAZING having these womanly curves. I'm really looking forward to when they start dropping and fluffing!!!!

PHOTOS: Here are the first photos of my new boobs post-surgery. I took these photos at about the 24-hour mark. There is slight bruising underneath as well as on the sides. Doc says not too worry. He and his team have been calling me regularly to check on me and answer end questions that may arise. They have been wonderful!

*Note: I will include the "BEFORE" photos in the next post following this one.

If anybody has experienced a lot of pain post-surgery, I would love to hear about it. How long did it last? Do you have any recommendations for getting through this part of the process? I'm all ears!!!

I've included several "BEFORE" photos. Once I get the the braless originals from the doctors office, I'll post those too. Right now, I just found some photos of me in some items that show how small I was before --- I was a 34A. {{{so glad those days are behind me!!}}}