Still Deciding if This is Right for Me - Dover, DE

My story mirrors many of the other stories on here. I am a 35 year old mother of 3. The kids are 9,7, and 5. I am 5'7, 130 lbs. BWD 14 (I think) I nursed all for a little over a year and needless to say, nursing took its toll on my boobs. I never had large breasts, barely a B all my life until I nursed, then they were a D. That just feel too big for me. I want this BA for myself because I am way too self conscious about my breasts. I don't think they have made an appearance in these bedroom in years. And bathing suits tops are always covered with a tank top and are so padded anyway that they drip water hours after I am out of the pool! I look like I am lactating!
Anyhow, I have been to 4 different consultations in the past 2 years. I had my fourth on the 28th of October and I really liked this doctor. The other 3 at the end just threw out cc numbers and that was the end of that. I even scheduled surgery with one and backed out because I came home and realized he didn't understand my goal.
This last doctor didn't want to hear cc numbers or cup sizes at the initial consultation. He wanted me to go home, find pictures and walk around with rice sizes in and see what I felt most comfortable with. Then we will regroup and figure out my desired outcome with what in reality he can accomplish. He didn't try to talk me into going bigger because i would eventually experience boob greed. He told me just because it happens to some women, doesn't set the precedence for all women.

I don't want to go big. I am currently an A cup and desire to be a B cup. If I go any bigger I think I will be just as self conscious as I am now and that is not my goal. All have said cohesive gel silicone will work better for me, but if I want saline, he is fine with that too. I just am very this up top and it may look too fake on my frame. I have wish pics of both saline and silicone and in the 250-300cc range. I can schedule for Dec 11th if I want, so I just wanted opinions from you ladies on are you glad you did this, has it affected your life with your family in any negative ways? My older daughters play competitive softball and we travel weekends (not until late spring/early summer) and I am sometimes the catcher for my older daughter pitching, so throwing a softball is a number 1 must for me after surgery. Thank you in advance and I'm going to try to post a before pic, but excuse the bad quality of it

Ok I think my husband is tired of my flip flopping back and forth. How did you ladies make your final decision? I know there are risks for complications and I know with my little amount of tissue and skin, silicone is probably my best option for a more natural look, which is my number one goal, but how did you ladies choose silicone vs saline? I'm not trying to start a which is better debate,but rather hear your thinking on how YOU made the decision. I value your opinions a lot since many of you are/were in the same boat I am in. I also am trying to wrap my head around spending the money on myself and possibly more so if I need other surgeries which is a high possibility. Thank you ladies. I love reading all of your reviews, even the explant reviews.