I'm 5'9 228 lbs and shaped like spongebob. Two years ago I was 165 lbs. depression and low self esteem has ruined my body. Now at 31 I'm reclaiming myself and wanna start by dropping 45 lbs before my surgery. I want curves and an ass. I want to look in the mirror and know that I can still be beautiful no after a I have went through with the battle of Curves and Fat.