The excitement is just now beginning to share space with nervousness. I am not too dissatisfied with how my tummy looks while standing, in the morning. I wonder if the scar is worth it??? Then I remind myself that there are many more hours in the day and many of them spent not standing straight up that I just refuse to spend any more time looking at it.
I work out 5 days a week, doing pilates on a reformer at home. Have done this since my youngest was 1. (now 6) I am 5'3", 108-111lb, depending on day of week. I just feel like I work too hard to still have this. I finally decided: this is reconstructive surgery- I can look at my saggy skin as a badge of motherhood or a scar as a badge of motherhood. I choose scar.
I had a consult with PS in July. Scheduled TT for Nov. 3. My husband says he's actually excited to take care of me. (Going to force me to give up salt!) My mom will be here to take care of me and kids school schedule, as well. I feel really lucky and know I would be so disappointed by Valentine's day if I don't go through with it.
. SCAR WILL BE TOO HIGH
. SCAR WILL BE TOO UGLY
. MAJOR COMPLICATION
. THE JUDGMENTAL PEOPLE IN MY LIFE WILL FIND OUT I HAD MORE THAN "HERNIA REPAIR SURGERY"
(I don't actually have a hernia!!!)
. NO MORE POOCH THAT DOESN'T MATCH THE REST OF ME (I feel like my pooch is bigger than my nearly non existent toosh!)
. WEAR SPORTS BRAS TO WORK OUT
. NOT BE SELF CONSCIOUS WHEN INTIMATE
. SIT IN BIKINI AT BEACH WITHOUT EMBARRASSMENT
. IMPROVEMENT IN OCCASIONAL BACK TIGHTNESS