Mama of 2, Always Had Boob Envy and Now That I Had Boobies when Nursing I Want Them Back - Denver, CO

I never thought I'd be getting a breast...

I never thought I'd be getting a breast augmentation! Yes I've always had boob envy but have appreciated my small boobs when going braless and wearing cute stuff that big boobs would make impossible. My husband likes my littles. However. I felt so sexy with a fuller rack when nursing. I felt so womanly and feminine and sexy. Clothes looked better, etc. and now that I'm totally done having and nursing my babies I would like to feel that way again. It is imperative that I get a natural look for me. I really want to avoid the obvious implant look. No judgement, I just know that look is not for me and I wouldn't be happy. I want a slope you can ski jump off of and beautiful natural cleavage when they're in a bra. I don't want to have to wear a bra sometimes though. I like the coozies bras (?) and bralettes and shelf bras built into tank tops and I'm not basing my cc's on bra size (because I don't really even wear one right now and all the brands are so different anyway!) just proportionate to my body and my booty which is plentiful. So here we go! I'm so grateful for this website and to those who have shared their journey, education, experiences, photos, recovery stories, everything and I need to give back! Hoping to get a little support a gal needs when going through this sort of thing and maybe help another who is choosing this path. Cheers to boobies!

Me when I was almost done nursing

Posting some pics of when I was nursing and baby slept through the night so I was nice and full. This wasn't my biggest, that happens at the beginning of nursing for me and then they leveled off. But I realized a few months before stopping that I would want a BA so I thought to take some pictures!

I'm obsessed!

I have 3 consultations booked from now until Dec which is so far away. I can't keep obsessing like this! Every night I look at photos, research implants and docs until 2am! What's wrong with me!? I'm about to add another doc to my roster. Is 4 consults too many? I also feel like the last one in Dec going to be my favorite.

Had my first consult...

I went to Dr. Franco-Webb for you Denver readers. Office is lovely, staff is as well. I really liked her and we connected well. She seems to know what she is doing but my number one goal is to look natural and not augmented. I really want to find a surgeon who can tell me they can get me what I want with x, y and z or a, b and c and these are the pros and cons to both. I realize there's probably a big learning curve in the questions I asked in my first consult vs. what I will ask in my last. Because I've inundated myself w so much information I almost feel like I know too much and I get overwhelmed w all my options. There's a lot out there! And I feel like the stigma w shaped implants is that many doctors don't recommend them more because they're not as comfortable placing them (for whatever reason, experience, their more recent availability). Apparently a surgeon needs to create a more specific pocket for them to sit so that they don't rotate. I really don't want to have to worry about them once they're in but I don't want an augmented look like some round implants give. I know body type, chest width, existing tissue, crease location all that weighs in but really it's the cut and placement that can make the biggest difference right? I've heard/read that shaped doesn't make that much of a visual difference. So then I ask myself why would I want to trade a more natural feel (when palpated) for a more natural shape if I can still get a natural shape with round? To me a natural look with no bra is a straight upper pole. That's my goal.

Also I had to postpone my second consult because of vacation and school pick up timing. A bummer but I'll be much more relaxed for the new date in November. It's with Dr. Wolfe, my only male I've chosen to see so far. I feel like it's similar to a Gyno in a way. How would they know unless they have boobs yknow? There are many great male surgeons out there though. Who knows. He's in the same building as my unicorn Dr. Folk. She's not until December. I don't even feel like I'm worthy to see her for a first world vain ass boob job when she does post mastectomy reconstruction, cleft lip and palate for children and all these other wonderful things! Sheesh.

I'll post some pics of the vectra 3 D imaging thing too. It funked up my nips but you get the idea.

2nd consult

I liked this PS much better than my first. I almost don't want to wait until my third. The third is so highly recommended but this PS would even fix a scar I have on my belly since birth for free! That would also make getting my husband on board a little easier I'm thinking. Who knows it may backfire on me but I am really having trouble getting his support. Anyway I'm posting some pics of sizers in clothing. These are 325 cc's. I was leaning towards shaped implants (and 400cc!) but with more education I'm 90% sure I'll go with smooth round given the compromises with shaped. Because there are compromises with all of them. I'm very grateful to my PS today for schooling me on all of them. I had done so much research but I needed true side by side by side comparisons and surgeon point of view on all of them. There's a lot of choice out there! I am adamant about my activity level not being affected by them so the size has dropped a little in mind after realizing that and seeing myself in sizers and in something I'd actually wear. (The first consult I was in some tiny black T shirt I'd never wear and just didn't look like myself. This office had a whole wall unit of gap body white tanks (gap makes the best tanks in case you didn't know ;-p) and all different sizers. It was much more customized. There was very little difference between the shaped and the round on the 3 d imaging. My concern about the round is that they won't feel as natural to palpate and squeeze and any textured implant is a teeeeeeeny tiny bit riskier because of friction. I'm a runner and dancer and as of a few weeks ago a cross fitter so I want to eliminate as much risk of complication as possible. This entry is all over the map sorry it's late and stayed up last night watching the crazy election!!

3rd consult done!

Whoa I was all ready to make a move before waiting for my December consult with my most anticipated surgeon, just biting my nails to get it over with and the day after my 2nd consult, the 3rd office called (Stacey Folk) and got me in a month earlier than my scheduled consult. She was wonderful and a bit excited about my scar revision which I went in there mentioning (the 2nd consult w Wolfe he mentioned it which I was happy about). Anyway I guess it's a pretty rare thing (I was born w a ruptured omphalocele) so she had all different ideas on how to fix it. Now about a week later I'm very torn on who to choose. Folk is about 2.5 k more expensive. But she's like an artist, she'd probably do a great job on my now 2 procedures (ba and scar revision). I think I will get more scar revision before and after pics from both of the surgeons. It's a whole new facet of this process that I have to dig into! But the idea that I could possibly wear a bikini and not feel so weird is kind of cool. Especially when I'm going to have this sweet rack! After all I don't have that many bikini wearing years left!

New developments and a 4th consult

I haven't posted for a while because I found Ideal implants and went into a research frenzy over those. I did as much research as I could before I went to go feel them and that was the final test. I went to Linda Huang in Denver. She had the Ideal in her office. She was very nice but I think she's a little tired. I feel like she's ready to retire or something or maybe she enjoys more challenging work at this point as opposed to implants. Not sure but I'm grateful I could feel them the implants in person. I guess I spent $50 to do that. I'm pretty thorough at whatever cost apparently. But I'm finding that with all implants, there is compromise. It's just a personal decision on what you are willing to compromise and what you're not. Since I'm going on 39, I don't want these super firm perky titties because that won't look natural. I'm lucky enough that mine look pretty young and perky for my age but if they were naturally bigger they wouldn't be so perky and I'm ok with that. I want a natural look and feel. I'm not interested in drawing attention or people being able to tell that I've had implants. So with that said, I'm not going with Ideal because I'm not willing to compromise feel and a natural look on me. Lots of gals on here have said they couldn't tell the difference but I could. Although quite a few look very natural but I don't have much fat and breast tissue to start. Maybe if I were less discerning and in my late twenties/early thirties I'd be all about them, because they're the perfect answer to many drawbacks. But I need moderate plus profile silicone to achieve my goals. That said, my surgeon was very willing to use them and spoke to Robert Hamas, Ideal's founder, etc. but they are new and with anything new you're taking a risk. The co. isn't funded enough to market so that makes me nervous. Also they sit differently, and there's 2 valves that could deflate instead of just one. The idea of going for MRI's more often with silicone is not such a bad thing at my age. Im going with Sientra and Dr. Wolfe that's final. Now I just have to schedule!

Also getting revision for birth scars

So I haven't mentioned this yet but part of the reason why I chose Dr. Wolfe was his approach and his mention of my scars. I was born with a weak umbilical attachment (ruptured omphalocele). I've lived w the scars all my life and by this age it's not like I'm strutting around in crop tops and bikinis and running in a sports bra. Although some hot summer days that'd be nice to do. I have worn bikinis in the past but I don't bother now after kids and I just don't enjoy feeling that self conscious. However, my Dr mentioned that he could easily revise them so they're less pronounced so maybe soon I'll get to see what it's like to have a normal looking belly! So I'm also getting the scar revision as well as the boobies. Just didn't want to freak anyone out w them. :-/ I'm in the process of trying to find a surgery date that works for everyone who will be helping me. I have 2 littles at home and a husband who travels quite a bit. I'm getting so excited!!

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Date is booked!

I can't figure out how to edit my review. When you start one it makes you pick a date but I had to estimate all that. Now it's real!

April 7 2017!

Eek! I'm so excited! I hope I'm well recovered by the time it's pool season. That was my goal. There's a small window of time between end of ski season and bathing suit season around here. I didn't want to interfere w skiing but also wanted to be healed by June-ish. Dropped and fluffed and all that. How am I ever going to get through these next few months?!

Having some fun at home w implants

My dr's office allowed me to borrow smooth round 305 cc's and 355 cc's. My choices are basically 305, 335 or 355 w my chest diameter and the implant I want (Sientra smooth round). I figured they're the extreme ends of my choices based on measurements, my goals, and the implants I want (Sientra smooth round). I'm loving wearing them around the house! Showing my husband (even tho I don't think he cares all that much that I'm even getting a BA but I KNOW he will love them once they're big and juicy!) Showing my very supportive and enthusiastic friends! They've been so great. I'm so lucky. I even worked out w the 305's.

I like how the 305's look the best. The 355's are a little too big for me. Right now I'm 5'5" about 133 with a bootie. I feel like I would get self conscious or frustrated with clothes and fitting them. I wore a big top w 355 and I just looked frumpy. Maybe it's a frumpy top to begin with tho. Only thing is I hear you loose about a size (so maybe 20-30 cc's or so) under the muscle . So if I go with 355 they will look like 325 once placed under the muscle. If I go with 305 I think I'd be wishing I went bigger. I just hope I don't feel that way if I choose 325 because that seems like the logical choice. PA says I'll have the look of how the 305's look now if I choose 325. Buuuuuut I know from being on RS obsessively that boob greed is a real thing. And 20 cc's appearance won't make that much of a difference will it? Decisions. And now, I'm going to go feel guilty for having this as my present dilemma instead of what refugee camp has room for me and my 2 small starving children. We are so lucky we can do this! Thanks for reading my crazy rant!

Boob greed even with the samples!

Well what do you know, I seem to be a victim of the dreaded boob greed after spending a few days with sample implants at home! They're not even in me yet! I'm loving the 355's. Since the next size up in that chart is 12.5 in diameter, I'm assuming those won't fit me so I think my next option be the 375 w 11.7 diameter in a higher profile. (The nice thing about Sientra is that their high profile isn't even that high compared to other makers and that fits into my goals.) I'm always looking at the next size because you loose some appearance of cc's once they're placed sub-muscularly. I wouldn't even mind going to a 405 if I'd look like a 375. Haha I went from being freaked out over 305 to being ok w 405. It's all about the diameter of your chest wall though. I measure exactly 12 centimeters. I'm not sure how far over that I can go...I feel like I want to stick with my actual width to prevent the baseball/grapefruit look. I'm overthinking all this of course and obseeeesssssssiinnngggg. It's pathetic. All I think about is boobs!!! I need to take a break for a little while and just plan on making a decision at my pre-op in March. I've done as much research as I possibly can. Sheesh. It's fun tho. I'm getting so excited to have boobs!

All I think about is boobs!

My date is April 7. I do need some time to prepare because I have 2 kids and a husband but it's hard waiting! I'm excited for my preop March 14. I researched scar care and found some helpful things...I tend to over purchase in order to prepare for things so I'm trying not to do that this time.
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