2 month PO - good eating, exercise, and patience has paid off! - Dartmouth, MA

I am 33 yr old mom of 2 girls, 7 and 3. I have always been a little on the hefty side, I am 5'10. After gaining 60 with my first, I was able to loose 80 lbs and get to my lowest weight ever of 150. Gained another 60 with my second, and luckily got back to my 150 and have maintained that weight for the past 3 years. I feel beautiful and healthy at this weight, but after the 2 pregnancys, nursing, and fluctuations in weight, tummy and boobs not so pretty! I have joked around for years about having this done, wasn't sure if we would have a 3rd child. But having decided that we are happy with the 2 I realize why should I put this off? I want to feel pretty and confident without being fully clothed!! My husband is completely AGAINST it. He is very anti anything medical/surgical esp that it is unnecessay. He is very fit, works out 7 days a week and has an amazing body. I do the best I can with what I have, but as you all know sometimes that is just not enough! With him being against it I am feeling even more nervous about the decision I am making! He won't even talk to me about it...says he wants nothing to do with it.. He had always been a wonderful husband and my best friend(been married for 10 yrs) so it is really hard thinkining that I am going to go through with this without his support. I do have my mom though, she is all for it and will be here to help me after. I am having a full TT, and breast aug. I am so excited about having a flat tummy!! Even as a teen I was always a little overweight so this will be a first for me!! This site is amazing! It is so wonderfull to read other womens journeys! I am schedualed for the 29th...can't get here soon enough! I just want to be on the other side of the journey recovering.. I want to know that I made it through no complications, and healthy! I worry being a mom of 2 small children...I don't know if my nerves will hold up until then! Everytime I start to think about it, I get butterflies in my tummy, and sweaty palms! I go next week to figure out size. I barely fit into a B cup now...I know it sounds crazy but I like being somewhat small, I feel so much thinner, but I want nice perky breasts..maybe a small C? I have this fear of coming out with mega guns! I haven't taken photos yet, feel funny doing it but I will get them up soon!

Less then 2 weeks to go! Just really want to get this over. Having mixed emotions. Sometimes I am feeling so excited, other times I think I am crazy for doing this!!! I just want to be done and home again in my recliner!!

Hubby is starting to be slightly more supportive. Even though he won't admit it I think he might be a little excited of my prospective new body. He would never come out and say it though...

I have been putting off taking the before pics but considering I am 1 week from surgery I better get that done! I really want to be able to look back and compare!

Went again with my mom this time to try on differnt sizes. My mom was very concerned with me going to big...brought a few different types of shirts with me. One side is an A, other a B. So it did take a while to get the sizes right, but ended up with 325cc and 425cc. The numbers scared me at first, but with my mom there telling me the honest truth (she most definatly lets me know her opinion) she thought they were fine. So that puts me a a good C. Going with silicone.

Had a surprisingly nice chat with my boss yesterday about my upcoming surgery. I work for a very "old school" doctor, and I only told him I needed some time off for personal reasons. I knew it was killing him not knowing what was going on, and I figured I better let him know what I was having done just in case I am not myself when I return. I didn't tell him about the breasts (that he doesn't need to know!!) but I did tell him about the TT. He was VERY supportive which I did not expect. He even told me that his wife at one point was considering getting it done, but didn't and to this day wishes she had. We talked about the unsupportive husband and the issues regarding him. So it was just nice to have support from someone else besides my mom and of course other RealSelfer's!! I haven't really told any other friends...maybe I will in the future but I just don't want all the husbands knowing and looking at me differntly, especially since my husband is not completely on board with my decision. I think one of his fears is others "checking me out!"

Anywho...will post pics later today!!