Year + post Mona Lisa Touch update

I read many reviews on real self before forking over the huge cost to do it. My poor vagina has been like driftwood for months after its gradual descent into post menapause hell. The stress of both my partner wanting intimacy and me being terrified of intimacy has been a constant anxiety provoking issue for me. I have loved intimacy for all my adult years and this last 6 months to a year its been hell.
I want to describe honestly what my experince has been so far because i have not read this in reviews. I am hoping im not the one woman in the world mlt doesnt work for.
In the procedure room the doc smears numbing cream on your vagina. Burned like hell. They really get into the folds and eurtheria. I hate anything on my eurtheria.
The burning began to subside and then it was just numbness like my vagina went to the dentist to get a tooth pulled and got novacain.
Then comes the laser. All reveiws say " mild discomfort ' or ' cant really feel anything'. These people were on crack.
The laser hurt like a mother. I was gasping for breath and crying out and gripping the sides of the table. It felt like when you step on an electric fence and your foot was wet because you just got out of the pool. To me--was very painful. She ran the wand up near my cervix and i could feel that. There was some sharp pain i could not distinguish where it was shooting from. She did the outside and damn if she not scrub that thing all over my eurtheria. It was excrutianting.
When it was over i felt in shock. Vaginally traumazied. I asked the nurse if my reaction was normal because no where have i read that this is a really intense painful procedure while being done. She said yes your reaction is normal. So somebodys fibbin.
As i walked out i did so carefully. I could not walk normally it was very slow and stiff to the car. I kept thinking: i put myself thru this for love, because im in a LTR. If i was not in one i would easily become a cat lady and my vagina would not be on fire.
I hobbled out to my car and it felt like there was a catheter stuck in my euetheria. There was pressure like youd get from a catheter and burning like the kind of burning youd have if you had a yeast infection in hell. Alot of burning.
Getting in the car was a production. It required turning sideways and scootching onto the seat and carefully lifting each leg onto the floor.
Now that i was sitting, any movement to drive was another torch blast of inferno on my vagina. Turning my head to change lanes, pressing gas and brake etc all sent messages to my vagina. And now sitting the sensation of a plastic catheder up my eurtheria was unmistakable.
I drove to target. I got pudding and a ok magazine. Who does not feel better w a pudding and a ok magazine? As i walked in target it dawned on my that my vagina was in a York peppermint patty commercial where it suddenly experiences a cool pepperminty sensation and artic blast without warning.
I ate two pudding cups in the car read an ok magazine and thought wth am i doing. I realized sitting and squishing my vajay all together was the only thing that releived the catheter sensation. I drove home and crawled in bed. I slept for 3 hours.
It was delicate walking the rest of the day and getting in and out of chairs. The next day i felt itchy and irritated and felt like i might be getting a bv. By day two i still had the york peppermint patty sensation of a cool artic blast whipping around my vagina. While also burning and itching like a athletes foot commercial. I sort of checked out the merchandise gently w my fingers and the skin of my lips felt tough and thicker. I am realllly hoping this is from her sandblasting the outside of me and this elephant hide its turned into will soften and smooth back to its original before.
My eurthea is still a bit beat up and irritated to the touch. Day 3 and im not feeling anything there but lack of sensation A little numbness and thickened skin.
I am really really really hoping my vagina bounces back from this procedure and i can experience the positives of the MLT.
I will check back on here and update when i turn a corner. At this point i am further away from sex than i was before i went in.
I did not write this to scare you but to offer my personal more intense than you are reading review. Its like a c section when they say: oh this might be a teeny weeny tiny whisp of pressure when we slice you open and wrestle a 10 pound human from the vice grip of your pelvic cradle. Its like that--far more real detail than what they tell you. It is a laser. And its inserted into your vagina. And it resurfaces. In construction they call this sandblasting and that what it feels like. So go forth and get your beautiful vaginas back but make sure you can take the day off and arent scheduling something stupid like say chappering a group of toddlers to cedar point. Because that would be ridiculous.

My original review was in the days to follow my 1st initial mona Lisa touch procedure. I was 48 and intimacy was not possible. I was so dry that it was just too painful. I had been on bio identical hormone creams and they did little to restore moisture. Libido was zilch too. I felt like i could go on living and not miss sex and this was jeprodizing for my relationship. My doc suggested mona lisa touch and i felt desperate to fix things, i paid up front for 3 sessions. The first session was unbeleivably painful. Ive had a c section. My recovery was painful. Ive had an amniocentosis right before that c section = very painful. Ive had not one but 2 tummy tucks over 8 years which were painful and with long recovery times. I read all real self reviews before the mona lisa but was ill prepared for the pain and sheer torture the procedure caused me. My OBGYN office has 2 pioneering female doctors who do the mono lisa and also do informative videos on it. So its not like i went to a sub par clinic for it. But it burned like hell and i could hardly walk from the building to my car. I could not sit but had to scoot my midsection so it was horizinial to releive the pressure on my external vagina. The md had gone over the entire outside of my vagina and my eurthrria. This made it feel like i had a giant catherter in there. Not just right after mlt but for the next several days, close to a week. The catheter feeling was aweful for me. I did not recover in the several weeks they said most women recover in. It took me a month. I was numb, itchy and had constant feelings of yeast irritation. The mlt did nothing for my libido nor did it bring back much in the way of moisture for me. I still dreaded sex and not only was i still w dryness but i had the recovery pain of mlt on top of it. These issues of no libido and xtreme dryness were the exact reasons i got the MLT. So all the time and painful recovery and i ended up where i started. 4 or 5 months after the mlt i discovered bio identical hormone pellets. These CHANGED MY LIFE. Within 10 days after getting my pellet inserts, I had Libido through the roof. I was moist just walking around, got super wet w my guy and had supreme sensitivity in all my lady parts. My guy loved getting this me back. And for once in years i finally felt like my old self, sensual, sexual and present. I was no longer hiding from intimacy or dreading bedtime or leaping out of bed in the mornings to avoid intimacy.

Personally i never completed my 2 other MLT treatments paid for. I went for my second one about 8 months after the first and the numbing cream they used burned *** insanely ***. The procedure was not able to happen because i had break through bleeding. So i went home without the 2nd mona lisa laser procedure but with the numbing cream only. I was messed up for a while just from that numbing cream 5 days at least. So i wondered if the cream and my bodys response to it made my mlt experience so much worse than other lady's.

In the end i decided it was not worth it to me to go back for the other 2 mlt sessions and put myself through so much grief. I discovered hormone pellets which in the end resolved ALL my issues. Pellets restored my libido my moisture and my sensitivity in a way mlt didnt even scrstch the surface on. They also eliminated all menapausal symptoms. Ive done 3 sets of pellets in the last year and will never go back to the misery of before pellet existance.

In hind sight, I realized that my true issue was adrenals that were not able to make adequate hormones of estrogen, testosterone, and progesterone. This was a eventual consequence of my thyroid condition which gradually exhausts the adrenals, which make all your hormonrs. Supplementing my hormones with bio identical creams didn't work for me. The cells were saturated and just did not deliver adequate hormones to my bloodstream.

I had to do the pellet inserts into my hip so that those hormones would dissolve directly into my blood stream. Once I began getting my 1st dose of bio a dentical hormone pellets, everything clicked into place and I have had absolutely no issues since. Im 49 now and more sensual and sexual in my relationship than i was after mona lisa. Sadly i think MLT may help some women but docs are all too ready to sell it to a woman who is desperate to fix her sexual dysfunction and physical issues. Had i not discovered hormone pellets all my issues of low libido and no moisture and itchiness and atrophy would have continued. Ml may have helped collegan restore inside my vagina but it did nothing for the issues that led me to it.