Married with 3 Kids, 1 Dog and 2 HH's - Columbus, OH

was available to send to insurance with the PS pics taken of me. So, I got denied and lived with these double H's for anothet 4 years. This time, with proper sicumentation and xrays showing arthritis in my back, I got a super quick approval. I have been trying to ease my family into whats going on. But just today, a date was set. My hubby just barely got on board. He supports the decision (hell, I've talked about it for a few years now), but firmly believes if I lose the weight I want, my chest will go down. My thoughts.... Negative. See, I am up 15-20 above my normal weight, but when I lost 25lbs a few years ago (35-40 lbs lighter than today), my chest did not necessarily go down... [RS bleep]. To the naked eye... (my hubby's) maybe a dab, but they are not going nowhere. I am 37 and have been top heavy since high school. I have many concerns and I have anxiety about this. My kids don't take it serious and when I talk to them about it and how I'd love their support, it turns out that for them, it's just the whole concept if having surgery and changing "how I was supposed to be", according to my baby girl... 10 yrs old. I have a lot to say... I am nervous, but for now, I wanted to get my introduction out there. I probably didn't even post this in the right place:-(

So sorry. It looks like my review got cut at the beginning. But to clarify my initial post, I attempted to get approval from my insurance in 2010, but I got denied because I had never complained to my primary physician that I was having back or neck pains etc. Therefore, I had no medical to accompany the surgeons pics that she took of my breast, therefore, I got denied.

So, it has been a few weeks since I posted, but I have been on this site every night reading the stories of all you brave women. This site is my guilty pleasure at night when my hubby goes in to work. I have a date of Nov. 18 and I find myself pondering if I should reschedule. But I then think that if I prolong this, I may get talked out of doing this. Prior to having approval, I was so adamant about having a breast reduction. However, I did expect months of haggling with the insurance, BUT to my surprise, I had an answer in about 9 days and now that it is approved, it all seems surreal... like, I can't believe I am doing this. I am struggling with this and I don't know why. I am new in a higher up position with a company I have been with for over 10 years and my supervisor asked me to lead a training in November. Well guess what, it's on Nov. 18!! Why, why, why!!?? So this now has me pondering if I should reschedule. My boss totally understands and says it is OK, not to worry. But I feel bad. Then I keep trying to make sure if Nov. 18 and 3 more weeks added to that is a good time for me to take off work and do this. Is it too close to the holidays? Do I wait until December... but then can't be as mobile for Christmas shopping for my kiddies... Ugh... my head is everywhere. I think I would be in a much better place if I felt my hubby and kids totally feel what I've gone thru, going thru and really understood how I feel about their lack of happiness and support they display about this. On a good note, I did ask my hubby today if he would like to go to my pre-op with me, and he said yes and he would try not to ruin it with his squeamish antics and questions. But I told him to ask whatever he feels he needs to, just don't make me... and the PS mad LOL. Well, it's late. I will be posting again soon. Hopefully I will be in a better place about this procedure next post. Good night!