350R/325L silicon HP for Symmetry, OH

Like many other women who have written reviews before me, I never had large breasts, but was always happy with the size of my breasts until I had children. My pre-baby breasts were perky, looked great in clothes (I was 120 lbs then too), and the asymmetry was barely noticeable, even by me. But with each child, and the weight I've gained and couldn't lose after each pregnancy, the asymmetry has become more and more apparent, so I've finally decided to do something about it. I would never have considered a BA if it wasn't for the asymmetry, but looking forward to having larger, fuller breasts!

I only had two consultations. A friend of mine's husband works in the industry and recommended Dr Taylor - said she's the best in Columbus. His wife had a BA with her a few years ago with great results. I wanted to talk to a few other surgeons, just to be sure. I only talked with one other (Dr Grahe), and decided Dr. Taylor was the doctor for me. I will tell you, that I never had that "feeling" that most people say they get when talking with surgeons. So many people say, "you'll just know" when you find the right one, but I never got that feeling. But, knowing my pragmatic personality, I think I probably could have talked wth 100 surgeons and never got that feeling, so I ended up just trusting my friend's husband's opinion. She's been performing cosmetic surgery for over 20 years, so she's definitely experienced. The main concern I brought up in each consultation was the asymmetry. I asked how they'd fix the asymmetry, and asked if they'd look the same after surgery (referring to how one breast's crease is lower than the other). Dr Taylor was honest. She said I'll always have "one breast that is the good one", and recommended a 25 cc difference in implant size to correct the asymmetry. Dr Grahe said she'd use the exact same size implant on both breasts, and that they'd look the same after surgery. That really put me off, because you can see in my photos how different they are, so there is no way that they'll look the "same" after surgery with the same size implant in each breast. Honestly, I planned on going on a few more consultations, but I just wasn't sure if I'd get that "feeling" with anyone else, and with the referral of my friends, I just took the plunge with Dr Taylor. Her "after" pictures are really nice, and she's known for giving her patients a natural look, which is exactly what I'm going for.

I never took her "wish pics", although I'm wishing I had. Instead, she asked me what I'm looking for, so I told her that I still wanted to be able to wear the same size clothing (currently a size Small in tops), I didn't want them to be so large they were a distraction at work (I work in a very large fortune 100 company in a position that interacts with senior leadership daily, and I've been a part of conversations in the past where women are passed over for promotions for large breasts they weren't satisfactorily covering up. I do not want challenges in choosing clothing that covers up cleavage, etc), and that I did not want the other moms at the pool staring and gossiping about if my breasts are real or fake. That's it. That is exactly what I told her, and then told her I want to be a full C, and not a D. But to be honestly, I'm not even sure I know what a full C is - it just sounds like it would be a good size. Based on that, she recommended 325 cc in larger breast (left) and 350 in my right/smaller breast. She said any larger than that and people will start to wonder if I've had implants. She does not have sizers for her patients to try on, so I'm really going on trust, which makes me nervous! She says people come to her because of her experience, skill and judgement, and that is why she does not have sizers. Because of this (no wish pics and no sizers), I'm really nervous about the size. One minute I'm worried they're going to be too big, then next minute I'm worried they'll be too small. But, thanks to all of the reviews on this site (of which I've been reading for years!), I know this is normal, so I'm just trying to relax and go with it. Dr Taylor will take several sizes implants in with her, which makes me feel less nervous.

As I mention in my title, I have three kids, ages 8, 6 and 17 mos. I'm nervous about the recovery time. I'm taking a week off work. Surgery is scheduled for Tuesday Jan 12th. Going back to work the following Wednesday. I work at a desk in a professional setting, so I'm hoping this is enough time. But again, based on reading hundreds of reviews over the years, I feel that should be enough time.

This is something I started thinking about after my second child, but I knew we wanted a third child, so held off until now. I've been researching and reading reviews for years, so I feel really prepared as to what to expect, what the recovery is like, etc. I really appreciate RealSelf, because honestly, I think this site gave me the courage to pursue this. Because I was able to read so many reviews, see pictures of results, hear so many women say their only regret is not doing it sooner, has given me the confidence to do this. I've been having doubts the last few days/week, feeling like I'm being selfish for spending so much money on myself, and feeling ungrateful for my overall health and body, but after seeing the "before" pics I just took, I am totally convinced this is the right thing to do -- the asymmetry is just so bothersome to me. And it bothers my in my bra too. I currently wear a 36B in VS bras, but my surgeon measured me as a 38 bra size. My right breast would probably be an A cup, but my left won't fit in an A. So, all day long, i'm constantly aware of how my right breast does not fit in my bra. it drives me nuts.

Oh, and I forgot to mention, I'm getting lipo in my armpit area. This area has been fatty my whole life. I remember being in high school when I was 120 lbs, and very thin, and I had extra fat in that area. It drives me nuts. And now that I'm heavier, the fat is larger and even more annoying. I literally have to tuck it under my bra strap or into my sports bra when I work out. I realize you can't see it very well in my before photos, but believe me, it's bad. Dr Taylor said I'll have a great result with the lipo, and I'm really excited!

Lastly, I haven't told anyone about my surgery except my husband. Haven't told my mom, my friends, my sister, etc. I might tell them after surgery, but I think it depends on my results. If they're really natural, I might not ever tell them and leave them guessing. My sister will disapprove and judge me, and my mom will only worry. And I know my friends will tell others, and I don't really want this information going around town.

I'll keep everyone updated - wish me luck!

Forgot to upload my before photos last night.

A few other things I forgot to mention:

I'm getting Naturelle silicon under the muscle. Dr Taylor is recommending high profile, even though I was wanting a moderate plus profile. I'm very afraid of them looking too round. But, she's recommending HP based on my goal, so just trusting her judgment!!

Just got my older two kids on the bus, husband is dropping our youngest off at daycare. It's here. I'm so nervous. I'm sure this is normal. I'm nervous I'm going to die under general, I'm nervous I'm going to be extremely nauseous after surgery, and nervous that the pain/recovery will be worse than i'm anticipating. Barely slept last night - fell asleep around 1am, woke at 5 to have to pee (because of the almost half gallon of water I drank at 11:55 - dumb me). I'll post after pics soon.