37 Year Old...Cohesive Gel Implants in 2.5 Yrs. Removing June 9th! How Could I Have Been So FOOLISH??? - Cleveland, OH

2 weeks out tomorrow! I feel good! A tad sore because I had capsules out as well, but all in all I feel good! My poor boobs are pretty much non existent, but are starting to perk up a bit. I have not had a chance to upload any pics, my kids are young and been busy and tired and I went out of town to do my surgery so I need to find the time to do that... I am so relieved that garbage is out of my body. I can say I wish I would have researched a bit more before BA, but I didn't. I remember specifically being told to not dig too deep because of the horror stories I would come across and not to believe everything that was on the internet. Well, now I believe most of it to be true and do not believe silicone is safe for all women. Interesting point made was that it may be inert when in a lab in a petri dish but not when it comes in contact with living tissue. There are so many chemicals in them. How can it NOT be harmful to some degree???????

Two and a half years ago after nursing both of my children, I was determined to get my boobs done! Was a very small B pre kids and had close to nothing after breastfeeding. Like so many of you on here, your breasts after kids are sometimes beyond disappointing, however I wish I was one of those people who could have just accepted my body for what it was and been proud of the fact that I had nourished both of my kids. Although the outcome was not exactly ideal, looking back I should have just settled for some padding and called it a day!

About 10 months after my BA and a relocation across the country I started to have some symptoms. Pain in my right arm and leg, followed by other issues that were all episodic and would come and go. The latest was testing for auto immune, which luckily all came back negative, but I do have an elevated ANA reading. Initially like many of you on this forum I never thought about my implants until recently. Started looking some things up and within weeks knew under no circumstances could these stay in my body.

The stories on this site are truly inspiring and personal and I am thankful to have a place to reference and relate to. It really feels great to not feel alone in this, which at time I have. I am trying to let go of the immense regret I have over doing this in the first place, but when you do it you are reassured that this is a great confidence booster and will be one of the best things you'll do for yourself.....I would do anything to go back to October 2010 and as another woman here stated, "punch myself in the face". To all of you, I thank you for sharing your journey and very private and personal stories. It has helped my beyond words.

I am scheduled for explant in 9 days and can't wait to get these out and move on......now when the time comes to tell my daughter to love and accept her body I can do it with experience and truth. It saddens me that I had to do this and the cost of it all could have been spent in a much more productive way.....UGHHH!