Recovery Seems So LONG! - Clearwater, FL

I had my full tummy tuck on 1/17, so i am 8 days postop. I am 5'5, 44, always been chunky, but after 2 kids, now 18 and 20, i was stretch marks from above my bellybutton to my pubic area. I lost 40lbs in 2007, which then made my pouch worse. On one hand i feel like things are going better than expected but on the other, i feel alot of anxiety and a little depression. I am not one to sit around, and its killing me to rest. I've had 2 followup appts and i'm still draining too much to remove the drains. i will say that is the biggest pain now. i loved my doc but this is the one area i feel they were vague, they said drains for a few days. now that i'm reading your blogs, i see it can be way longer. I am sleeping at night for the most part in bed, but that is when i take my pain meds, makes me sleep easier. besides that not taking anything during day, not in pain, just uncomfortable. I did shower day 5 w/ my bf assistance, and it felt great, but seeing myself freaked me out a bit, w/ the drains, brusining and stitches. i can see the difference tho, my belly bulge is gone! and i like my new bely button. I know this will be worth it in the end, just wish i could fast forward time. I am running out of clothes to wear, sticking mostly to pull on/elastic waist skirt or swim cover up. Trying to read, and i do move around the house as much as i can. Next appt friday, will post again then. Willupload photos later as well.