Done with TT, now it's BOOBIES time!

Hey everyone!
About me, 3 kids ages 11, 6, and 2 yrs... all between 7-8 lbs..closed the baby factory as I finally got my boy (2 yr old) and 3 kids is more than enough! I am 5'11", pretty tall for a girl...and prior to children I was pretty slender, except for my tummy has always had a little fat, especially in sides and flanks. Well, after babies that multiplied along with saggy excess skin. So I am I guess skinny everywhere else, except for this monstrous belly and back fat. My body is totally just, discombobulated looking...lol. I am so into fashion and beauty.. but get disappointed when clothes don't fit/look right due to the tire I carry around...sigh. Well, I just hit 30 yrs a month ago, and figured I'm not getting any younger, so I think its about that time I do something about it. Seems as I get older, the gym and diet are not doing much for that area- so my only other alternative, plastic surgery! However, I am a chicken! I am soooo scared! But I want to be able to go through with this, to finally get rid of those insecurities and boost my confidence and live happier. I have always had anxiety issues, since as a child I witnessed my mom get physically abused by my father. Anxiety just stuck with me unfortunately. BUT I don't want that to get in the way of my dream to have a better figure! Not to include my hubby is so against it, and called me superficial because of it... and even stopped talking to me for a few days. This is something "I" want... I am not doing it for anyone other than me. He says things to scare me, like talk of infection, dying during surgery, blood clots, etc...which I know are all possibilities (some rare) but he purposely is trying to freak me out so I don't go through with it. SO basically, I have no support. Help! lol. I went to 2 consultations, and was iffy about one doc... second doc I liked, seemed genuine and truly worried about my wants as well as health. SO, I am waiting to see what dates they have available, as I am looking to do this ASAP (within this month) due to my schedule not allowing in the future (work, etc.). I would appreciate some support/advice/words of wisdom, whatever! I have no one to talk to about this....mom is not supportive either :(

Oh yea, and does $10,800 including all fees sound reasonable for tummy tuck with lipo of upper abdomen, sides, flanks, and back?

So the kind words from you amazing ladies on here gave me the little push I needed to finally schedule my surgery date! August 23rd it is..woo hoo! Put my down payment and all! I can't believe I did it! Pre op is tuesday Aug 14th. Hubby is getting better, still doesn't wanna talk much about it but will be there to help me post op! I just won't bug him about it too much now.. But as you ladies prob know.. its all we can think about! So it sux not being able to talk much about it but glad I have this blog and you guys! Xo be back soon!

Hubby is getting better and more open as the days go by! I am even more ecstatic and the fear is not as extreme. I still try not to pester him as much with it tho, don't wanna push it. But I love being able to come here and vent and see all of your awesome responses! I posted some more pics so you guys can see the whole package and how that monstrous belly does not go with the rest of my body. I went out last night to celebrate my good friend from H.S.'s 30th b-day, and seeing the pic on FB just confirmed again on why I REALLY need to go through with this. I was so embarrassed that my H.S. friends still look hott and there I was looking 5 months prego. The confirmation that yes I need to go through with this is obvious. I CAN'T WAIT!

So I went post op shopping! got the following:

Gauze
Paper Tape
Antibacterial Liquid Soap
Peroxide
Neosporin
Arnica Gel
Mederma
Vitamin E Oil
Vitamin C Capsules
Plastic Mattress Cover
Bedrest Pillow
Small Travel Pillow for neck
Extra Pillows (I can't afford to rent a hospital bed nor have a recliner, so pillows have to do the job)
Funnel
Clips to clip drains to clothing
Throat drops (for discomfort from tube down throat from anesthesia)
Facial wipes
Dry Hair Shampoo
Antibacterial Wet Wipes
Hand Sanitizer
Sponge for my sponge baths
Books

It's setting in! Still can't believe I will soon have a flat tummy!