My nose is overdone and too small for my face

Hi, figured I do some people a service and share my nose 3 years and 3 months later. I still don't like it and went to get a consultation with Dr. Most at Stanford (loved him... super expensive mistake I made- $20K to fix). I included what he'd do to fix it so you can see. Was going to bite the bullet then Covid happened and I lost my job so frivolous spending really wasn't happening! Hoping I can fix it next year though.

But anyways here are 3 pictures of what my nose looks like. You can see the long-term scaring on the one side. Dr. Most said it was pretty bad stitching and he was surprised he stitched on the outside like that. It's irreversible, unfortunately. I did soften my skin bc I'm broken out but other than that the pics aren't touched. My nose turns up and the scaring on the base is noticeable. I still get depressed looking at myself in the mirror, but the show must go on!

If anyone wants to speak with me further, DM me, I'm happy to give updates or just be moral support.

I still don't like my nose because it slopes up which isn't what I wanted or shown to me during the consultation. It's frustrating to pay so much to be very disappointed and to hate seeing yourself in the mirror.

Went in for my 3 month follow up with the same concerns that the tip was overrotated and too much nostril show from the front. This was the first time I waited over an hour to be seen and Dr. Shah was very friendly, apologized for the wait and took his time with me. He keeps telling me to be patient and I mean I'm trying to be patient, but I don't think my nose is going to magically look like the morphs. He injected the tip with a steroid because it was more swollen than the 6 week appt and lasered my scars. He's really nice and I appreciate him not simply dismissing my concerns, but I still feel like my nose is overdone and too small for my face. I pointed out the shadows on the bridge that look like a mild inverted V and told him I still don't like the nostrils. This process has been emotionally draining and I daily hate myself for getting a nose job in the first place. It's taking a toll on my friends and family relationships too.