Explant After Mommy Make over Illness

Good afternoon ladies, I have not been on here in a long time as I am on my own personal journey of healing. I wanted to update the post since I have gotten some emails in regards to my explant. I explanted back in May 2014 so almost 7 months ago. I wish I could happily say all was peachy and I am once again normal and loving life, however, I am still not 100% and I still don't feel normal. Everyday I deal with some symptom or another, whether it is heart palpitations, muscle spasms, muscle pain, weird vibratory feelings, tingling and burning everywhere or just feeling not right, weird head symptoms, you name it I think I have it. I have been searching for answers ever since this nightmare began and so far nothing! I have seen numerous doctors to no avail. I have been trying to eat right and take supplements, exercise everyday to sweat and release stress and I even do meditation and yoga everyday, but still nothing. I am at my wits end and don't know where to proceed from here? I want my life back, I graduated last October with my graduate degree and I haven't even been able to start work. I did try some Celexa for anxiety, for about a week at a very tiny dose and it seemed to amplify my symptoms, especially the burning. I might try something else to see if this is all anxiety, I definitely have developed some health anxiety from this whole ordeal. Anyhoo, I also think maybe it's my female hormones because the symptoms are worse around ovulation and my cycle and now I've developed PMS (crying before my cycle, feeling achy like the flu etc) WTF! So, maybe all this is making my female hormones wacky or vice versa. I just want so badly to feel normal again, like myself. I need to start work for god sakes..Well I will say that I don't regret explanting though because that definitley did make thinks better, it was way worse before. I just wish the explant would have brought my health back to 100% ya know...

Good afternoon ladies so you may have read my other posts about my mommy makeover I had 3 months ago, it has been a hard journey for me to say the least. I started experiencing weird symptoms a couple days after my surgery, muscle tremors, burning and tingling everywhere insomnia brain fog, muscle weakness etc. It seemed like things kept getting worse after numerous doctor visits, no answers, I decided to explant to see if that would help alleviate my symptoms. I have been told that it was all anxiety related, yet without explanting how was I to know. So I am now 7 days post op from explant with capsule removal ( I had my silicone implants in for 9 weeks). I am not back to 100% yet, I do experience some insomnia still and burning, some muscle twitching, but I do feel that some of my symptoms have improved. I can think more clearly now, I feel like I'm more within my body ( if that makes sense), my muscle tremors have decreased and I have been able to get some sleep. I pray everyday that the healing continues and I get back to full health and these weird symptoms become a bad memory! I guess it just takes time for the body to heal so I am trying to be patient, some days do seem better than others. As far as the explant I am so happy to have it over and done with and be back to natural. I feel so much lighter and coughing and breathing seem easier. I had a capsulectomy under general anesthesia as I wanted to make sure everything was removed. I did have some discomfort, more than I anticipated, like muscle soreness, twinges of pain which I still get but I was able to manage with just extra strength Tylenol. I do get back pain and spasms, probably from the breast tightening, it seems worse on the right where the larger implant was. Massage and hot showers help with that a little. I have an ace wrap compressing both breasts to try and reduce swelling, which I think most is draining into my abdomen because it seems more swollen ( my PS said I was right) so that's not fun. I've been having some bad burning in my stomach ( which awoke me last night) not sure if I developed a stomach ulcer from all the stress lately or the extra fluid is irritating things, really hope that dies down it's very uncomfortable. I am just trying to take it easy for the first 2 weeks to try and prevent complications. I have been up and walking around the house and neighborhood and sitting outside a lot to fight boredom. For some reason since all this started 3 months ago I just don't want to be in the house. The boobs look a little sad, they are deflated and saggier, but I also lost 14 lbs from this whole ordeal so I'm happy to have any breast tissue left. I hope that they will fluff as everyone says and just look like they did pre- implant, yet my health is of the up most importance so if I get that back then that's all I care about. Time is the ultimate healer I know, I just wish it was faster ( lol). Right now I'm taking it 1 day at a time and everyday I have where I feel better than I was, is a blessing. Thoughts and prayers for those under a going similar situation and if your thinking of explanting, especially if you have medical symptoms, do it!