34 Years Old, 5'5 125lbs, 250 CC Ideal Implants, 2 Kids, Athletic

Hello! So this is my first post. I have been reading other stories that have helped me along the way. I find that I also want to share my experience in hopes to share others as well. I am a mother of 2 kids under the age of 5. I breastfed both of them well into their 2 year. Before babies, I had small breast but they were at least perky and I was beginning to accept them! However after babies it left my poor boobs deflated and uneven. I am hoping to get more before pictures from my PS to add to this post later on. For now I have posted my before pic with my bra. I picked a very conservative size. I was too worried about getting them too big. I rather be safe and go small and have the ability to "dress them up" if need be. I remind myself that I made this decision for myself. My husband was fine with me the way that I was but it was not about him. I just wanted my perkiness back and to be able to fill a cup again. I was going back and forth between 250, 275, 300cc...and in the end I went with 250cc. I workout 4-days a week and I was too worried about getting them too big and getting in the way and even that it would slow me down when running. So this is why I went small.

So this is after surgery. I was not in too much pain. I was very tired though and bloated. I went under the muscle and I thought I was going to be in more pain but glad that it has been manageable. I took pain medication once when I arrived home from surgery but I don't think I really needed it. I haven't take any since. My mom was there for support. Not many friends or family members are aware that I got implants and I plan to keep it that way. Keep in mind that I wanted to go conservative. I remind myself why I wanted to get this done and how I was not looking to get a dramatic look. So I am not looking for people staring at me because something is different. I want to get this done and not have anyone notice but enough that I can notice. To be honest, I did not not want to go thru a whole new wardrobe as I know this could happen if i had chosen a bigger size. I was not interested in having big boobs and having them bulge out of my bikini top. Knowing me I would be covering it up because I don't like showing too much cleavage anyway. hahaha. I mean the pictures I see of beautiful women with plus size boobs and tiny frame is fine and it looks good but not for me! :) I had accepted my small sized breast a while back before i had kids and I wanted to be able to regain the perkiness I had with some fullness. All I ask if to be able to fill my B cup bra! Is that too much to ask? So I found it interesting that I had my mom in the background telling me, "you should get 300cc". Ummmmm yeah easy for her to say because it is not her body. Maybe I could have gone 300cc, maybe 285, maybe 275cc....but in the moment my gut was telling me 250cc after all the research and staring at boobs and then knowing that every experience is different. I was just too scared to go any bigger!!!!!Right before the surgery I had asked my PS what he thought about the size I choose given my goals and he gave me reassurance that this size would be perfect. He did mention that if I went lower that it would not be enough to see a difference and I am thankful for him clarifying this for me. So the comment my mom made after surgery was "I dont see a big of difference", and "it is not as big as I thought it would be". I had to laugh at that point because still my mom had not understood why truly I wanted to get this done. I had to remind her that it will take months to get final results and that they will change over time. Not sure if this is common for those who want to get implants but it seemed to be that my moms thought....well if you are going to spend all that money, might as well go big. NOOOO!!!! Plus, she forgot how lopsided my breast were due to both my kids favoring my right breast for the most part. One nipple was slightly stretched out and deflated than the other. I am glad I let my mom see me before surgery because when I reminded her what I was working with before. S he was able to see that yes, my breast looked so much better overall. (I am very close with my mom and I did not want to bore my husband with so much boob research so I lean to her as I know I would not be able to do that even with my close friends )
Then I think about the future and the "what if's". I have read many stories about women getting big implants (350cc and up) only to complain about how big they are and having to do an ex plant or downsizing. Seeing the pics of the aftermath of how much the skin stretch after having big implants just makes me even more nervous. Oh! I think what if one day I had to take them out or if I did get tired of them (I dont think that would happen) or if when it came to renew them that I decide I don't want to for whatever reason. Or what if I go too big and risk getting a size that will cause complications or bottom out sooner and need revision, more cost. What if they get in the way of my work outs and I can no longer go hard as I used to. I know there is some trade off but I am not a model and I do not need to show them off. It is just for me to see (and my hubby). It is to make me feel like a women again. I repeat, to be able to fill my bra once again! Not a bigger bra, just my normal bra. In my mind the biggest I would imagine getting is when I had my breastfeeding boobs, that it far as I will go, which was a B cup because before babies I was an A cup. Thanks for reading! Stay tuned for more pics as i progress

Just an FYI my PS did not want me to wear surgical bra after surgery. I was told to go braless for at least a month. Apparently studies show that wearing bandages and/or surgical bras could slow down the rate of breast settling. So braless it is! Of course I use petals. When I put on my work clothes ( I went back to work on the 4th day after surgery) is when it hit me. I wanted to jump of for joy when I saw that I could fill my tops WITHOUT A BRA! Now again my breast are not bulging out of them but it looks like the old me when I had to use padded bras to get the same effect. I will post pictures of what I mean in another post. As you can see I have no bruising! Swelling is still there and I feel it more to the sides of my boobs. Before the surgery I would hate looking at myself in the mirror. It would be a quick glance. Now I find myself staring at my new boobs a lot! I love it but also anxious to see the final result. I did have some back pain the first week and I think it was more because I had to sleep on my back and I am not used to that. The tightness in my chest was getting annoying and I almost felt trapped in my body. I did get a little anxiety because of it and started to panic and second guess myself of why I put my body thru this because I feared it would not go away. Then after reading more about recovery I noticed that tightness in the chest is normal and it goes away and I did start to notice that each day was getting better. A side note: My PS told me before surgery that he has found consistently that women who get smaller implants, 300cc an less, do not have sagging over time. This reinforced my decision to stay small and every thing kept me pointed to the smaller range to be on the safe side.