Journey

end of this month. hoping for a march or early april explant :-D

Lets see, where do I start... I got breast implants as soon as I turned 18. I had always had smaller breasts and ended up getting pregnant very young so what once was now was stretched from breast feeding. I became very obsessed with the idea of implants, bigger breasts. and when i want something i obsess usually until i get it. i still was petite pre-ba, deflated 34b breasts 5"4, 110 lbs ,, my mindset was I just wanted big big boobs, my surgeon tried to warn me and wouldn't let me go bigger than 300 cc (thankfully, how ridiculous would I have looked bigger)... I am pretty small framed and I dont think I was in the right mindset, so decided to get implants, I got saline 300 cc under the muscle. My surgeon was very nice, explained everything in full, never pressured me one way or another. I had a very wonderful experience. his nursing staff was wonderful to me, I felt calm and at ease the entire time. I was anxious as anyone would be about the surgery but as i got into the waiting room which is apart of his actual office i became less nervous, they have a very comforting environment.

I dont regret ever having my breasts done, would always say they were the best thing about me, but over the past year and a half have been huge for me. one thing that has pushed me thou is ive always had horrible anxiety, i can no longer deal with the anxiety and fear from the unknown of problems that could come or arise one day, or post ba down the road, im ready to just be me ,, i also moved, being alone and in a new place has allowed me to have been on a journey of self love, growing up and learning more single mother hood. different religious aspects as well trying to love myself for me. want to be a good example for my child, lastly want to be able to be as active as i am able to be , seems like my breast are in the way, but i have been working on my body and have lost a lot of weight and my breasts protude more than ever, they just no longer fit my body. I feel this is more my fault as my surgeon wanted to go smaller from the get go. regardless my mind, body and soul know this is what is right for me. as I started thinking about getting the removed I found this site. it has, as well as all your ladies stories have, inspired me even more to get these removed!

even though i will have to travel I am going to the same doctor who put them in since he did great the first time. He seemed to be pleased with the results of my initial augmentation but its been awhile unfortunately as i am hours away... I had briefly called his office, the explant and capsule removal was quoted. hoping he isnt too surprised I want them removed. Just know this is what I need to do for me. hoping hes understanding and supportive of my decision because I have done my research and my mind is finally made up!
Will be calling tomorrow to schedule my first consult for sometime at the end of this month, really hoping to have my explant done by the end of march/ early april v latest. otherwise I will be waiting til January 17!!

have to be honest i worry what theyll look like post explant, if they will be saggy or my nipples too big, but I have realistic expectations from what i have researched and prepared to just love me for me!!!