21 Years Old, 2 Year Old Tattoo That Needed to Be Gone! PICOSURE LASER - Burnsville, MN

Went to the dermatologist today for their opinion on the hypo pigmentation on my arm. As I expected her to say, theres not much that can be done. The melanocytes are/were destroyed in the process of getting the tattoo removed. I see all these other tattoos being removed with no present issues and I'm very sad. I'm jealous of all of those out there who are having amazing results. Although the term says the melanocytes/pigment is completely gone and it will not improve I'm going to try sun exposure still. I have heard of people having success with at least trying to put it in the sun and get pigment back so I guess I'll try myself. I partially feel lied to because the people who removed my tattoo told me once treatments were done my pigment would come back once it was put back into the sunshine. Now that a dermatologist has told me otherwise I truly feel like I was taken advantage of. People in my life keep trying to convince me that skin heals and your body evens things out it just takes time but I have a hard time convincing myself that.
The dermatologist said my only other option right now is keeping sunscreen on the darker skin so it's not as obvious or trying Fraxel laser and blending pigmented skin more into the non pigmented skin. I'm going to wait out the summer and see how thing's look in September. Hopefully better.

From previous pictures and my concerns (hypopigmentation/scarring?) I talked to a few individuals on their opinions of my arm. One said I was scarred from the laser being too strong and that it's permenant but I should see a dermatologist. While the other individual said that's the effects of removal and anyone who's ever had a tattoo removed has dealt with this - which I find a little hard to believe due to the pictures I find from varvious clinics. They recommended I stay out of the sun.
It is disheartening because the laser specialist I went to said put it in the sun while the doctor who supervised her told me that was wrong DO NOT do that! I'm quite mad at myself for jumping into this process to be honest I'm depressed and sad what I have done to my skin. NEVER GET A TATTOO.
Hopefully over time my skin will repigment or blend. For now I'm going to head to a dermatologist to get their opinion on the issue as well.

Although my tattoo is almost gone I have been left with a pale ghost image from where the tattoo was/where the laser was used. I think about this all day and constantly look at it and I'm seriously depressed. All day I research on the internet of what to do and others who are dealing with this and I feel like it's a tunnel of emotions. I feel like I've ruined my skin and I don't feel normal. I thought this process was going to give me excellent results and maybe it will in time and my skin will correct itself but right now I am so sad. My skin is not scarred just lighter where my tattoo was. Has anyone experienced this before and has it resolved? I've been so embarrassed of this process I haven't told anyone but my boyfriend and the other day he asked about it and asked if I felt insecure and I said yes. I am embarrassed and I feel lost.