28 Year Old Rhinoplasty

Alright. The worst part of this whole thing is these pockets of clarity that I have where I relax for a second and feel okay. I made this side by side to look at when I'm freaking out internally. I get this thing if I can't check my nose every 30 minutes I imagine it this big crooked mess on my face.. Then I catch my reflection and calm down cause it's not as bad as I build it up to be. Is this absolutely insane? I'm going to include the photo, mind the mark from my glasses... my nose doesn't look too bad in that sort of lighting, you can't really see the collapsed mid vault or whatever it's called, but in front light or any sort of flash it's not cute at all... But in this lighting it's definitely cuter than my old nose. Sigh. This sucks.

So I'm one month out and I feel like my rhinoplasty was under done, in my before photos you can see the asymmetry of the tip.. Bulbous on the left and flat on the right... It's still like that now. As well as that indent on the right side half way up my bridge... It is also there. None of these issues were apparent when the cast was taken off because of swelling. I'm really disappointed but trying to just carry on living. If I need revision it won't be for a year.. Provided I can afford it when the time comes.. I work as a server so I don't often have 10,000$ laying around for plastic surgery. I'm really disheartened, especially because I was so vocal about what I was doing out of excitement... Now I'm just embarrassed . How anti climatic to wait for something your entire life and finally take the jump only to be so so let down. I have my one month post op appointment on Monday.. I'm curious if he's going to brush off my concerns like he did at my 2 week appointment. Everyone says give it time but I doubt my concerns are ones that are resolvable "over time" :( ugh I am so sad about this. I just wanted to have it done and live my life with my new nose

Soo 13 days post op... Will include a photo... I'm still struggling. Some days it looks ok.. Some days the tip looks so ridiculous and swollen... But again early on in the process. The left side of the tip is a lot more swollen than the right side ... Hoping its swelling anyways. I imagine as the numbness subsides and my nose feels like it's a part of me again I'll start to feel normal... patience until then. I've always had insecurity about my crooked nose... But was never an insecure person, this surgery has amplified that insecurity about my nose and compromised any confidence I had otherwise... I don't feel like my self anymore.