Breast Lift, No Implants, 35 Y. O., No Kids, 34 D

As you can see in the pictures my breasts have settled a lot. They feel pretty normal now, soft and natural.They didn't lose much of the general volume, though they lost some, but they lost all of the upper fullness and some firmity I would say. I am conflicted. I did want a super natural look and always admired natural boobs in other women but the few weeks after the surgery kind of gave me a taste of what is like to have your breast all perky and super firm to the touch and also an amazing full cleavage. I hate to say it but there are days when I feel like this is not enough for me. And then I look at the old pictures and where I started and kind of feels unfair to not be happy about my result. Don't get me wrong, it's a good result, from the lift surgery perspective, but I realize now that my expectations were a bit higher? So confused.

Things have been healing well and had no complications other than an annoying hypersensitivity on the bottom-right side of my right breast. This sensitivity it's just at the surface of the skin and it feels like a burning or like a million niddles penetrating the skin but only for like a millisecond at the very touch of the skin. A feather touch is way more annoying than if you would press that area with your finger. I don't know how else to explain in. When you apply more preassure and it passes the surface on the skin it goes away so massaging the area helps it. This feeling comes and goes. Some days it's there, some days it's gone. It is bothering me especially since the skin in that area rubs against the support bra when I move. When I lay down and not making a lot of movement, it's so much better. Anyway, the doctor said it's just temporary.

All this time, since I've had my breast lift surgery, I have been having all kind of nightmares about my results. I dream that they settled way too much and shrinked down to A cup or that they are back to looking like empty socks, or that I have gained 10 kgs and my belly outgrew my boobs, and so on. I guess I'm really nervous about my results and I haven't allowed myself to be happy about it yet because I know this is far from the final result.
So far, all my old bras fit perfectly, size wise. In fact they fit so much better now that they don't have to do so much work in lifting my breasts. The cleavage is nicer and fuller and even the sets that I wasn't wearing anymore because they looked empty at the top, I can wear now and they look filled it and nice. This is important for me since I have way over 100 lingerie sets and I would have hated to throw them away and buy new ones. So, money well spent :))

The scars are fading way slower than I thought. In the first weeks, the difference from one day to another was bigger and now it seems the process and has slowed down and the changes are so subtle from week to week.
One esential change that I have noticed is that I'm losing that fuller top look specific to implants and they are starting to fall into place so to speak. They don't fill in the support bra anymore (I have been wearing the exact same support bra since day one PO) and they are more mobile. When I lie down or stand up I feel them moving in my bra, not a lot, but like they're not stuck in position anymore. Also they have lost a lot of the firmness. They are a lot softer, less swollen.
The size difference between them it's still there. There is still a lot of rippling around the nipples that I hope it will fade with time. Some areas, I can feel and see through the skin, the internal stiches being pushed to the surface but none has poked out.
I have started scar therapy at 4 weeks. My surgeon told me to use Prosil 2 times a day. Though I have bought it, I'm really annoyed that it doesn't say anywhere what incredients it contains. Not on the tube, not on the paper box it comes in, not on the label, not on the internet. People online say it's silicone based but that's more like a guess since there is no official description from the manufacturer. However I did use it twice a day as my surgeon said and on top of that I have also massaged my scars with coconut oil in the morning and with vitamin E gel capsules everynight.
I don't know why my surgeon hasn't told me about the silicone tapes. Maybe because they are not available in Ro? I have looked around everywhere to buy Mepiform or other such silicone tapes but I didn't find them. I have ordered some on amazon and 2 weeks later and they are not here yet.
I have attached a couple of pictures from 4 weeks and a few more at 5 weeks.
I will attach new pics at 6 weeks. That's when I will be clear of all restrictions and I'll get a better idea of the final result.

Incisions are healing well, all scabs are off now and bruising is pretty much gone. There is still no pain. They have settled some more and feel softer but they still don't feel normal soft. The left one is still a bit bigger.
One of the things I like most about my surgery is how little the under boob incision is. From all the pictures I've seen on here, most girls got a vey long horizontal incision that is visible from the side.

Though I'm back to my normal routines, I'm taking it slow, working very little and from home.
My doctor forbiden me to even take walks until 6 weeks mark so I'm being good.
I'll update more in a week or so.