27, 5'3, 125 Lbs. Feeling great and like it may just have been worth it! Brookline, MA

Hi all. I had a BA done 3 days ago on 2/24/2015. I surprised myself in getting a BA cause I never considered it an option, mostly due to money and because it wasn't natural. I went to school for environmental studies and learned to value things in their natural state including myself, but being small chested was one thing I couldn't shake. I begin looking into BAs over a year ago, Researched everyday, 2 consultations, worried about size, etc. Despite my concerns and doubts, the visualization and excitement of not needing to wear any underwire bra (they were bruising my ribs no matter how many times I was fitted), pushed my decision to just go ahead with the BA. I understood all the risks involved before going ahead with the procedure. Understanding this isn't a 1 time deal at 27, and will likely need at least 1 or 2 additional surgeries throughout my lifetime and that's if all goes well. But now, 3 days later, I'm hit with a bit of an identity crisis. Who am I? I feel like a phony, I'm worried about people knowing and what they'll say about me, especially my family and certain friends. I have fallen into a pretty deep depression the last couple days focused around all that's happened and I'm worried that this wasn't worth it. Then I think about the money I spent, and how I want to go back to school and to me, that's more important than having bigger breasts. Now I'll have even less $ to go to school with than if I didn't do this procedure. I'm wondering if I made the decision with a clear head or if I have a clear head now. I'm trying to keep in mind that I'm likely coming off the meds and that's contributing to my mood, in addition to the discomfort, and sleep deprivation, being cooped up in the house, and lack of a bowel movement (sorry TMI). But I'm reaching out now because I wondering if anyone else felt this way after their BA. I feel like I should be excited but instead, I feel like I lost a little of myself. I'm worried that this will affect my relationship with some people in my life. Feeling doubtful and blue. Any guidance or reassurance you can give is greatly appreciated.

Also, I should note. I'm 5'3, 125lbs, and I got 265cc moderate profile silicone implants under the muscle with an inframmary incision. I wanted a small increase in size to look like I'm just wearing a padded bra. I started at a 32a. I'll post a post op photo later today/tomorrow.

What a crazy few weeks. Between and unexpectedly sick parent (expected to make a full recovery, thank goodness), several long car rides, a hectic work schedule, and other jazz, I'm feeling great. Shortly after my last post I began feeling better emotionally. I think coming off the pain meds in addition to the stress I was feeling from being away from my family made me very upset. I'm glad those days are over!

Overall my recovery has been very smooth. I only took the narcotics for 2 days, then switched to Tylenol, and eventually IBprofen which I continued for a week or so to help with the swelling. Started sleeping in my side after about a week and a half. Still isn't very comfortable to sleep on my tummy but I feel like I'll be good to in a week or so. My pecs don't hurt anymore really and my boobs have gotten much softer and less torpedo-like. The only issue now is that I've developed vertical lines that extend from underneath my breast down above my ribs. I've read this is something called mendor's disease and is very common. I've been taking Naproxen sodium as needed and applying a hot compress once or twice a day. Seems to be helping and it's been much less painful.

Anyway, I'm very pleased and glad I went through with everything! Thanks to everyone on here for your much needed support!

Hi All - sorry i haven't been posting. It's been 6 months since my surgery and I'm so happy with my decision to do so, as well as the results. I really haven't looked back since the first week was over. I feel very comfortable with my body and although it doesn't fix all things (of course), it's a worry and insecurity I no longer have. Very happy I did this for myself.