Mommy Makeover....Never Knew I Would Actually Be Doing This! - Bristol, UK

Well I am a mother of 2 girls aged 2 and almost 5. I have always had small breasts although they have fluctuated over the years due to the contraceptive pill and pregnancy. I had always wanted a boob job but never thought I would be able to afford it. After my first child I had a few small stretch marks on my tummy that I felt really upset by. I was so sure I wouldn't get them as my mother doesn't have any. After my second child not only was all of my tummy covered in large deep stretch marks but the skin was all loose and papery. It really upset me and had really limited what I wear. I invested in control vests which sort of stopped the skin spilling over the top of any waist band I wore. I was still left looking 4 months pregnant a lot of the time. I saw a PS in May to enquire about a boob job and hesitantly asked if anything could be done to remove the loose skin. The next thing I am walking out and considering both procedures! I have been able to borrow most of the money and now its a reality. My feelings go up and down by the day. I haven't told many people as now I have made the decision I don't want to discuss it further. I have so many concerns,although I mostly just want to get on with it now and am keeping positive about an easy smooth recovery. This time next year I will be able to wear a bikini on the beach! All of my lovely summer dresses! Pretty underwear! I cant wait to feel happy in my body again.

Well what a roller coaster! Unfortunately I reacted badly to my painkillers and spent a lot of the first night vomiting, even with anti sickness mess. This resulted in a loss of blood ( internally as a hematoma ). I just wasn't recovering so after a blood test I had a blood transfusion to increase my iron levels this did help but my tummy began to slowly swell the following day. This is when the hematoma was discovered and later that evening I had to go back into surgery to be opened up, cleaned out and re stitched. The worst part was the anxiety and coming round from the general anaesthetic, which I really did not like either time. I felt so disoriented and tired in a really groggy way. From a deep sleep I felt pulled into reality ina very abrupt way.

Emotionally it has been hard. So many tears, although at first it hurt so much to cry I had to fight the tears away each time they came. It's very up and down and even though I have more energy now by around 2 pm I am shattered. At least my 2 year old naps and my 5 year old is very happy to sit on the sofa with me and watch a movie.

I saw my ps 2 days ago and he has asked me to bath every day and once I have pated dry the wounds to rub E45 in and leave them for 20 minutes before covering with micropor tape. It felt so good to have a soak and be out of my garment and bra for a while! My scar in very thin which is great but is so wide and comes right up to my waist. I do have a short torso. My breasts look very stuck on and I am really hoping that when the swelling reduces they look a little more natural.

It's been a really hard journey. I have days when I really wonder weather I did the right thing... But it's done now. I am positive about the future though and am pretty sure that in 6 months to a year I will feel good about my choices. So pleased to have had such a wonderful ps. So caring and kind and explaining everything to me every step of the way.