Looking to Get my Nose Done During Summer Holidays - Brisbane, Australia

So it's the middle of the year where I'm on holidays, and it's tax return time and I'm a month away from getting my a bursary. I'm not 100% sure how much I will be getting back from my two jobs but I already know that from one I will be getting approximately $1500 and I will be getting $2500 from my bursary, and I am quite certain that I will be getting a lot more than just $1000 from my other job. So that's already almost or possible over $6000 including income etc, excluding another bursary that I may be using to pay something else important off. That's over halfway to being able to pay for my surgery straight up! The biggest problem that I have though is being able to keep on saving. I am the worst saver in history. I am weighing up my options on whether I should try and get out another medical loan again, or what other ways I can go about saving up. I have been told that you can make an account with your bank that you can put money in but can't take money out until a certain date or possibly until you reach a certain amount. So I am considering that. The only problem is that you can technically still get money out, but is costs a fee to get it out. If anyone is able to help me out on a good way of going about this let me know! I really want to try and get this done at the end of this year if I can save up the money for it! Hoping for a miracle! haha

Here are a couple more recent pics. I do contour my nose with makeup to try and make the tip look smaller and always seem to try and tense my nose a certain way to make it thinner in picture tbh. But yeah, not much you can do about having different sized nostrils and the crookedness and that it will always be bigger than what I'd like without getting it fixed surgically.

So I'm having a really down day today and am really upset. Although it was about a week or so ago that my Mac Credit application did not get accepted, I've only just really started to think about it and struggle with having to try and think of any alternatives. As I've said in the past, I've been wanting to get this done for soooo long and I really get upset about it a lot. It sucks because I have not got a loan out or bad credit or anything, and I work two jobs, yet still somehow can't get accepted for mac credit. I asked for $15000 to cover the cost of the surgeon fee, hospital fee, anaesthetic fee, any food and necessities cost, cover of my rent and bills over the time that I'd be in Sydney and the likes. I just don't understand how I didn't get it accepted. I feel like I'll never be able to get my nose fixed now which really bites considering I've been wanting to get it fixed for so long and seems to get more and more insecure about it. The biggest problem I have is that the way that I feel on the inside isn't what I see on the outside. What I see on the outside seems like a stranger, and it literally is just because of this one insecurity that has plagued me for so long. I'm not going to lie, it has really affected my life in the terms that I don't feel like going out and socialising as much as I used to cause I don't feel comfortable with myself. And it's nothing to do with my body or anything like that because I love my body and everything, apart from my nose. It's amazing how one small thing can make you feel so insecure about yourself. And I've been trying to save up but I've just been getting hit with bills and random things keep popping up that I need to pay for which ends up getting taken out of all my savings. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know, or even just some positive videos or something cause I'm really bummed right now :( Hopefully I'll be able to pick myself up again in the morning with a more positive mindset. Here are some pics I like of myself, but my nose still annoys me in :( wahhh