37yo, 5ft 6in & 130lbs, 3 Young Children, 365cc Silicone Textured Implants - Brisbane, AU

I am a 37yo Australian mum to 3 young children - 8yo, 3yo and 19 months. My breasts are deflated after pregnancies and breastfeeding. My breasts were so lovely and big and squishy when I was breastfeeding but since my youngest weaned at 12 months, my breasts depress me. I wont wear a swimsuit and hide them. Before children I was a B cup. I am currently a 34A looking to get a full C or small D cup. My surgery is Thursday (2 days away!!!) and I am super nervous and just want it over and done with. I still haven't decided upon 365cc or 385cc. I am going over the muscle and inframammary fold. I am having the surgery in his office/day centre under IV sedation. Although I would pick IV sedation over a general anesthetic, I am freaking out BIG TIME that I may wake up during the operation - which about 10% of patients do. He says I may even feel the local anesthetic nerve blockers going in. I guess the main thing I am worried about is waking and feeling pain. I am not so concerned about waking and just feeling a tiny bit of movement or hearing the Dr talking to a nurse etc. It's waking in pain and not being able to tell them that freaks me out. General anesthetic isn't an option for me because I do not cope afterwards with the wooziness and vomiting. Anyway, I will try to post a before pic today. Thanks for reading. It helps to write all of my feelings down to cope with the nerves. [RS bleep]

Before children I had nice b cup boobies. This photo is with no bra.

I have arrived for my BA and I am happy to report that I slept quite well last night. On Monday I was almost vomiting with nerves but as much as I am nervous today, I'm ok. The nurse say me down and we went thru the paperwork and consent forms. She took my BP and gave me two Valium. I really liked her. She put me at ease but was also really honest, which I respect. She is also an ER nurse so that put my mind at ease in case something went wrong.

Then my surgeon came in and marked me up. He was so much more sweet and caring today and acknowledged how nervous I was. I decided upon 365cc and he agreed it was a great choice. I reiterated my fears and he said that I must trust him that I will be totally okay and went back over how they monitor me to make sure I am comfy.
The nurse came back in to take my belongings while I popped into the loo for one last wee. I was quite woozy and relaxed from the Valium by this point.

I entered the OT and they had a nice comfy OT bed for me and gave me a blanket and another nurse introduced herself. She was so sweet too. They then popped my IV in, which was the only painful bit. My arms had to be gently fixed to my sides incase I bumped my surgeon.
They talked me thru each step as requested. First they put in a painkiller, then the sleepy stuff, then some more Valium. I felt the local going in as the surgeon blocked the nerves at each point but he told he before he was about to do the next one. It was all very respectful. The local anaesthetic reall wasn't painful - just like a tiny prick in several places around the breast.

By the time he had finished giving me the local I was basically only waking and feeling no pain as I could just feel sensations. It was not scary or creepy. I kept talking quite a bit asking if they were doing this or that now. I talked so much the nurse had to tell me to just go back to sleep so the surgeon could concentrate as he was enjoying answering me. ???? it was so easy just to fall back asleep when I wanted to. I felt quite in control of the experience, it ended up being perfect to be honest. Waking up during the OP was my pre-surgery fear but it ended up being super cool.

I woke up so easily and in no pain and the nurse helped me to dress and into a comfy chair for cheese, crackers and a glass of water and a coffee.

The nurse came in every few mins to check on me and so did the surgeon. I went to the toilet unprompted and then I asked if I could ring my husband - which is what they usually do for you. He was shocked at my clarity.

I left the OT at 12:30 and my husband, baby and I were walking out there front door at 1:00pm.

I have started getting some pain at the top corners of my chest near my shoulders since about 2:30pm so have just taken pain meds. It just feels like I have done too many push ups. It is more sore to reach, push, pull down undies or pull them up. But I am pretty stoked. Now the next challenge is to keep my kids off me for 3 to 5 days as they are very loving with me physically but hubby is home from work for a week so he's my loving carer. Thanks for reading. Love to you all about to get new boobies or who are also recovering with me ????