Full lift and BA - 11 days PO and not sure if I made the right decision.

So the first week and half were absolute torture. The pain and the rash/itchiness was unbearable. Thank GOODNESS things have gotten better. After a shot of cortisone and 5 days of prednisone I started to feel normal. Almost 3 weeks PO now. Still feeling a lot of tightness and pressure, but it’s not unbearable. I’m still unable yo life my arms up high or lift anything heavy, but I’m driving, working full time and getting on with my daily life. I’ll update with pics soon.

Now let me start off by saying... I am not a emotional person, usually. This procedure, the recovery, the itching, the way the incisions look, all the meds, etc. have made me an emotional wreck.
At my doctors today I told him I was by concerned the way my wounds were healing and asked “is this normal”. He said “no, the way you are healing is not normal. You are like that 1% that has a super difficult time. You just have to be patient.” Well that didn’t make me feel reassured at all.
Then he asked if I had been massaging my breasts. I told him yes. He told me to show him how and when I did he said I was doing wrong. He then proceeded to put his thumb under my armpit and pointer finger over the breast and squeezed so hard that I jumped. He then proceeded to kind of roll his eyes make a snide remark about how sensitive I am.
At this point I felt like [RS bleep] and just broke down crying. He said “why are you crying? That is not going to help the situation.”
It became very apparent today that I chose the wrong doctor. No bedside manner and no compassion when it come to women’s emotions. I left there with no answers and no confidence - feeling worse than when I arrived. I’m blaming myself for not doing more due diligence on my search for the right doctor.

I’m 41 with two teenagers. Last year I put in a lot of work to lose 30 lbs. I was super happy with my weight loss results, but want happy with the way my breasts looked. They were low and super saggy. I contemplated for a long time before making the decision to do a full lift and small implant.
I’m now 11 days post op and at this point I’m not sure if I made the right decision. The pain from recovering the first week was very intense, but the worst part has been the itching and irritation I’ve experienced from the waist up. Starting on day 2 I felt itching under my arms, then it spread to my stomach then my breasts. My breast became extremely red and ripply. Since then I haven’t stopped itching. Doc thought the incision tape may be the culprit so he removed it last week, gave me a shot of cortisone and 5 days of prednisone. The itching has subsided somewhat but not completely so I’m constantly agitated all day long.
I’m addition, my incisions look like they are healing horribly to me. And the rippling around my nipples remains. I can’t even look at them without wanting to cry. My nipples don’t look like my nipples anymore. It’s been a very emotional recovery for me. If I had the opportunity to turn back time I don’t think I would have went through with it. I praying that everything will heal normally but for now, I’m worried.