Such a bad choice

It been about 4 years since my initial surgery. I am so upset that I ever even started this process. I have paid so much money to just be [RS bleep] on. I had pocket issues and had that fixed that surgery caused a hematoma and I had to have emergency surgery to have that fixed. That surgery then caused capsular contracture. At that point I cold hardly move my left arm so I asked for the implants to be removed. I moved to another state but my left boob was so sore. (All my issues have been with the left side). A month after surgery the infection that had been growing deep in my breast finally came to the surface. It took 4 months 3 er visits 2 surgeries and a 5 day hospital stay to finally get this infection cleared. I have just been laying low the past few years getting my body back into shape. I finally went today to a reconstructive surgeon in Scottsdale az to see about fixing my boobs. I was so upset to come to the realization that I will never have normal looking breast now. From all the surgeries my left side breast is way small than the other. It's just so disheartening how making one wrong choice can effect the rest of our life. So I would say definitely do as much research as possible. I am not blaming this on the surgeon as [RS bleep] happens right but I guess I just got the crap end of the stick. The dates and dollar amount are all off on the top of this post cause I have had so many and I don't even know how much I have spent at this point. I'm not looking for anything from The surgeon or his office. I have listed this before and deleted it cause I'm not doing this to bash and go back and forth with the doctor office. It's just my story and I want to share it with maybe some other people that will understand and maybe find someone who has been through what I have and can understand me.