Went to Smaller Implant Size, Still Not Happy - Ohio

In 2007 I had 340 cc silicone implants under the muscle put in. I was so excited because I've always been self conscious and thought my B size were too small. From the very moment I saw my new size D breasts I was disappointed because I only wanted a slight increase of my natural B breasts and asked my PS for a C cup. I was so scared of having the surgery to begin with, I really didn't think it would be an option to remove them or make them smaller so I lived with the huge implants for six years. After the decline of my health I decided to have a revision, and had 240ccs put in in August 2013 (pics are after this surgery). After I woke up from the revision my PS informed me that I had a rupture in my right breast. My PS cleaned the silicone from my breast and removed the capsule and put my smaller implants in. After realizing that these implants can rupture and that I may need more surgeries throughout my life, I decided to have the 240cc silicone implants removed. I have always been very active and I feel the implants are a hindrance to my comfort levels. I always feel them. I'm afraid of rupturing them when I'm doing a workout that requires upper body. I know that exercise doesn't cause rupturing, but it doesn't feel good in my chest area. I just seem to be weaker and I really just want to get back to my natural self. I'm so sad that I put my body and spirit through this pain. I wish I would've found this website earlier, I may have just explanted the implants in August. After reading posts and seeing pictures on this site, I learned that our bodies can bounce back. I certainly didn't know many women have them removed all the time and supported each other through this site. I thought that after removal everything was flat and saggy, and that scared me too. The many stories I've read and the many brave women here, have given me the strength and courage to have these unnatural balls in my chest removed. I wish I had natural larger breasts, but all I want now is comfort. I would love to run again, but haven't because of the discomfort it puts on my chest muscles. I want to feel comfortable in clothes. I've been hiding these and feel matronly and fat. I just want a chance to rediscover myself in a more natural way and learn to love 'Me', the way God made me. This has been an eye opening journey and can't wait to live again on the other side of all this. Ladies, be strong and listen to your hearts and head, and trust your gut. This is YOUR body, and only YOU know what's best for yourself. My PS will be removing my implants completely on Feb 5th under local anesthesia! Also the implant company reimbursed me $4,400.00.

For the last 6 years I've had big breasts. I'm so nervous about having them removed. The pain in recovery, the shock of little breasts, scarring. I'm kinda embarrassed to be around people I know and they may wonder (wheres her boobs?) Thank goodness for pushup padded bras. I just hope I can feel good again. I wish these implants lasted longer. I wish they felt more natural in my body. I wander how and why so many women love their implants and feel fantastic about their augmentations. I wish it would've worked for me. Oh well. I'm not changing my mind about removal, just a little sad tonight.

I cant wait to feel natural again. My chest is always tight and achy and a little sore. Im so nervous and anxious about removal. I cant believe I put myself through all this. I was young and perky and shoulve been on top of the world. Shoulve loved myself. I hope I can forgive myself and accept myself and thrive in my own skin. Evan though I wont be the same person I was before all of this, im so grateful for the mercy of God and the chance to start again.