Ready for a new chapter

I wanted to wait at least a week from surgery day to give an update but I am feeling so good I figure I let ya’ll know. Took a shower last night and washed my hair and it felt great. Then as instructed removed the gauze over incision area. Everything looked great!! I think my boobs look great for only 3 days post explant. Yes they are flat in the upper pole but that’s ok. I put a sports bra on today with a tank and I am soo happy on how I look. I just need to give it time for the fluffing to occur. I think its gonna be great in the long run. Nothing a push up bra can’t fix. Lol

So my surgery was at 9am. Right now it is 8pm and I am not feeling too bad. Dr said surgery went. He was able to remove all of the capsule no problem. No bleeding so no drains!! Yippee!!! I just looked at them and to be honest with y’all I thought they were going to look worse. They actually don’t look too bad. I’ll attach some pictures now.

So, how do I start this review?! Well let me just start by saying that I have scheduled my explant surgery for tomorrow. I was originally scheduled for November 3rd but when I went in for my preop appointment today, someone had just canceled for tomorrow so I took it. Sooo scared but excited! Now why am I getting my implants removed?It has been a very difficult decision for me because my PS did an amazing job. My boobs look great! But truthfully there are a few reasons why I want them out. First, they have become very uncomfortable. It is difficult for me to sleep because I find them to be in the way. I can never sleep on my stomach. I also feel top heavy, a look I never wanted. I have difficulty wearing certain tops and dresses. I either look fat (which I am not because I only weigh 118) or I look matronly.They have also been very painful lately. I get stabbing, shooting pains almost every day. I also have been trying to work out more but find it difficult with these balls attached to my chest. And lastly I just have become more aware of the fact that implants are toxic bags. Why did I put these inside my body in the first place? Yes, I have always had low self-esteem. And after breast-feeding they got a bit saggy.But I think I could’ve mustered through that. In reality it only boosted my self-esteem for a little while and then I was back to feeling the same way I was before. Actually now I cover them up because I don’t like the way I look with them. They are huge! Unproportionate in my opinion. Also I don’t want to be enslaved to having surgery every 10-15 years for the rest of my life. And lastly for the last 6 months I have had unexplained back muscular pain that has been crippling at times.I have been to all kinds of Drs to figure it out and all my tests come back normal. Do I think I have BII? No, I don’t think so but I rather just get these things out of me anyway just in case. So those are my reasons. Now what I am facing is fear and nervousness! Fear of how they will look afterwards.Yes, they were a little saggy before I got implants but they were not that bad. I could have lived with them that way. My PS says that I have enough breast tissue where I might not look too bad or need a lift after I explant. He suggests I take the implants out, wait a year and then decide if I want a lift. I think I am ok with doing just that. I really do not want all the scarring from a lift unless I just can’t live with the sagginess but I want to give my body a chance and see what it does on its own.The other thing I was worried about is leaving my capsules in or not. My doctor says he would feel comfortable leaving them in because they are very thin but that he would remove them if I really wanted to. He says it is up to me. Like I said before, I don’t think I have BII so I would not care leaving them in. But we decided today that he would remove as much of the capsules as he can without needing to scrape me too much. Basically he will get out as much as he can. I told him that I was ok with that.Anyway if you want to see my previous reviews on RealSelf you can look them up. I will be posting pictures soon!! Best wishes to everyone else going through this journey!