54 Implant removal Capsular Contracture Infection 2 years Post op breast cancer

A week and a half post op 2nd surgery explant from breast reconstruction. First surgery 3/9/17 I was EXTREMELY depressed!! 2nd surgery due to stitches and area tearing open I was EXTREMELY irritable!! Right now I am trying very hard to accept that I will never have another implant and forever lopsided. I am very small breasted so I can not imagine if f I was large and lopsided! Still struggling with anxiety but praying and believing that peace will come in time.

After seeing doctor yesterday he decided it would be best to have surgery. At hospital he will go in and clean out area and stitch me up again. Hopefully prayerfully it will hold and I will heal faster!? I am not like those that chose to have an implant for looks it was simply I thought the less invasive way for breast reconstruction. I will never have an implant again. I think anyone who has gone through what I have should wait at least two years before doing anything after mastectomy. Just my thoughts. Maybe if I had known the implant risks for breast reconstruction I would have chosen the other but I don't know? I will never know because I am so done with all the wasted surgeries and wasted recovery and emotional energy it has drained from me. Never say never but it will be a long time before I consider anything and pretty sure I will just live with one breast for the rest of my life God willing

They are not going to do anything! He said it will eventually heal and its better not to mess with it because it could get infection. Wound care is how I am classified! So now due to radiation could take 6 more weeks to heal???????? I will see him tomorrow in Cartersville to confirm. Beyond depressed. I feel like I can't do anything physical at all or it will tear open more or get infected. I don't know how I am going to adjust to 6 more weeks healing! Already over 3 since explant. Over 2 1/2 years of my life wasted in surgery (4 in hospital counting explant and 1 in office) Not counting almost 4 years ago Mastectomy which was horrible pain and recovery and radiation and drugs???? I would tell any one considering breast implant especially after mastectomy and radiation to NOT do it!! Period. Anyone else I would say research it! KNOW the RISKS!