400 Cc Silicone Round - I Want to Explant!!

I got my implants 4 month ago, after two years of thinking about it. Once I made the decision it went very quick. At only two months after tbe surgery I started to panic. I was feeling huge, unnatural and completly alienated in my new body. I had not predicted it at all, I had only read and heard first hand positive experiences. I should have researched stories of women who ecplanted, now that I have done it I so identify with some of those stories. My whole system loathes the foreign body in me, my breasts are tense, sore, they feel. like stones lying on my chest. I dont like my busty look in the mirror, I dont like the feeling from the inside even when I close my eyes and keep still. Although they by now have the movement thet should have, they feel unnanturaly firm to me beneath my own scarce. tissue. And I am in distress every time they move inside me, like when I pull a heavy door or I am swimming. Many people, including my partner, do not understand any of it, they say the result is esthetically pleasing, and that I have a psycological. problem I should resolve with therapy and medication. My psycologist does not think so, she thinks I did breast augmentation for the wrong reasons, not from a real intrinsic desire, but because I was not self confident enough and wanted to beutify myself to better please the outside world. She supports my explant decision. My surgeon thinks it is not a good option and that I should switch to smaller implants, because it does not make sense to go back to where I was but with scars and possibly some loose skin. I am researching explant options because I just can't imagine living with those silicone bags forever.

I explanted on August 27th, five month and a half after putting them in. I am devastated. Not because I explanted, but because I put them in in the first place. I so wish I would have known how artificial. thwy will look, how uncomfortable they will be, and how ruined my body will. be after having them in. I am currently in deep depression, mourning my old self, and needing medical help.