Awful Experience

I'm writing this long review in the hope it will help someone, so my experience can serve as a blessing for others. I was interested in fat transfer to the breasts and muscle repair to address some damage, as a more natural solution to breast implants. I was 39, healthy, a massage therapist and outdoor enthusiast, the rest of my body was very petite and in perfect shape and had not changed in over 20 years, so I told Dr. Stanwix I was not interested in surgery if the fat harvesting would cause any damage to the rest of my body. He assured me he was the best in his field, that he does this daily and deformities don't happen in his hands, I would look exactly the same afterwards and that he would take just a little bit everywhere. I had no reason to distrust him, his reviews seemed amazing at the time, and I had seen at least a hundred reviews and pictures of women who underwent the same procedure by other doctors and I had never seen disfigurement that I was about to experience. I scheduled surgery, and the day prior I asked him again - twice - if the rest of my body would truly be unharmed and that I didn't want to go ahead if there was a risk of losing my shape and deformities. Again I was assured I was in the best and most skilled hands. I now realize my gut told me not to go ahead, but I trusted his words and figured I was just nervous. The pain afterwards was beyond excruciating, he took double the amount of fat we agreed on, including from places never discussed, from my knees all the way up to my flanks. After several weeks I emailed him with concerns about what looked to me like severe deformities, and as a response I received a copy of the operative report, which I didn't even know existed so I was surprised - and even more so after reading it; it was filled with lies. The whole first page was dedicated to - what I assume - protecting himself. It stated he had informed/warned me several times for the likely risks of deformities due to my petite size, but that I wanted to go ahead regardless. I couldn't believe it...it felt like someone kicked me in the stomach, this was the exact opposite of the truth. At that moment I knew I was in trouble and many sleepless nights followed. I visited several doctors for a second opinion, they all agreed my body was quite damaged. When I had the courage to speak up and write Dr. Stanwix about the dishonest report and the pain and physical damage, his response was silence. My emails were left unanswered, and I was on my own, it's an awful feeling. I'm devastated, it's been 16 months now and I have not had a day without pain. My back, my hips, my glutes, legs, all damaged. I don't look anything like I used to before; I have dents, ripples and lost my shape. I lost most of the fat in the breast tissue over the first 10 months, I'm left with lumps and pain there too, I wake up every day with a feeling of anxiety, worry and dread, if I sleep at all. For the first time in my life I've struggled with suicidal thoughts, I'm only sharing to let you know how devastating it can be to go through something like this, in the hope I can protect you. He destroyed my life, what was supposed to be a gift to myself after losing and grieving the death of the love of my life two years prior, ended up in a nightmare, I'm truly heartbroken. I've never felt this frustrated and hopeless in my life, his actions have been cruel, uncaring and devastating. I'm a shy, trusting, forgiving person, had he shown any concern, a willingness to take me seriously and to help it would have made things a little better. At this point I have no other choice but to sell my car and get a loan to get help for the pain. My body is damaged beyond repair but hopefully some things can be slightly improved. I suggested if he would be willing to refund the money for surgery to a doctor of my choice, at least it would get me halfway since repair surgery is extremely difficult and time consuming, hence costly. But of course he didn't respond. Please take my review seriously, if I can protect others from being harmed at least something good came from all of this. I pray for his future patients daily, as well as for Dr. Stanwix, in the hope he will choose to live a life of integrity, honesty and true care for his patients. Words are meaningless without appropriate action, don't fall for good bedside manners. There are some amazing and truly caring doctors out there, unfortunately he's not one of them. Mistakes are human (these were easily preventable), not owning up to them and hiding behind silence and false reports to cover your tracks is inhumane, nobody deserves to be treated this way.