Silicone cohesive gel under muscle, 36 yo 1 child

I found Dr. Richards from a friend and am so excited to have him as my surgeon. He is competent and does great work, and his pricing is competitive. Misty in his office is very knowledgeable and helpful and I have had a great experience with the thus far. I am scheduled for surgery on May 11 and I am just ready for the time to be here already!!! My pre-op appt was back on April 18 so I’ve been tapping my foot over here for a long while already!

I’ve always been self conscious about the shape of my breast and after having my son I really had a deflated kind of look going on. I had him young and he’s a teen now so some of the sagging and deflation has actually improved a little bit, that or I’m used to it. I don’t fit into most bras because of my lack of upper pole volume and swimsuit shopping is so depressing- many of you can relate. I also really want to achieve some body balance- I have a sizeable butt and small upper body.

I have wanted to do this for years, but didn’t because the time was never right, and I was also caught up on some things. 1- feeling guilty spending this amount of money on myself. 2- why can’t I just be happy with myself how I am? I SHOULD feel differently and not compare myself to others and blah blah blah. Well, life is short. I am ready to make this change because I want to and because I can and am not going to keep feeling guilty or bad about one thing or another. Dammit. :)

I am a bit nervous about the surgery and post op pain. I super scared of complications and the risk to my health, and the idea of having to shell out more money to fix them later because that’s more that I’m tempted to feel guilty or stupid about spending. (Fighting the good fight with myself here as you can see).

I am so thankful for the many reviews and details from the journeys of other brave ladies before me and want to share my experience in hopes of helping someone else!

I am going to post more info and some pics later.

At my pre-op appointment, we settled on 375 CC mod profile cohesive silicone. I can’t really go too much larger in CCs because I am narrow and since I have such limited upper pole tissue, I don’t want a shelf to appear with a higher projection. (I’m trying to keep it somewhat natural) I have been looking at so many pics on here (anyone look at so many late at night and when you close your eyes you see boobs? Lol), and I want to make sure that I get the right size implant to achieve a result that I’ll be happy with. I’m scared to go too big, I’d really like to be at a full D when things settle, and to still be at a D when I lose some of the extra weight that I’m carrying around right now. I also really want to be larger than a C, even after I lose a couple lbs which has historically snagged about an inch from my breast projection before losing much elsewhere. I can handle being a DD in some manufacturers because right now I wear a 32-C in VS, but I’m really a B when it comes to overall breast volume in most bra cups outside of my super padded VS push ups. I sent wish pics in yesterday to ask if I am on the right track with me current selection. But then last night, I was thinking that my earlier self was having boob greed and I need to reconsider, lol. I’m posting some wish boob pics and before pics, I’ll figure it out.

I’ve been making sure that everything is prepped and ready. I got my Brilliant Contours bras for post-op, all my meds, supplements, a button up shirt and button up top pj set, pillows, etc. I discussed some other implant options with my doctors office and will let you all know where I end up after surgery!

I’ve been fortunate to have nice enough weather to use the pool for the first time yesterday, I was opening to have some pool time before I’m not able to get in. I’ve read 4-6 weeks depending on how the incisions heal. My bathing suit is thrashed which makes me more excited to buy new ones soon. The idea of being able to fit into different things without needing thick push up padding is pretty awesome. No more getting out of the water and squeezing a gallon of water out of my bathing suit tops haha. More important- no sadness in the dressing room! ????????

I’m pretty nervous and am scared that I will have trouble coming back to work. I’m scheduled for Friday and am going back to work on Wednesday. I am at a desk and in a computer all day but I’m hoping that my mind will be clear as my job requires serious focus and attention to detail. I suppose a lot of that depends on my meds.

If you ladies have any last minute tips or advice, please comment!