450 cc dual plane motiva 50ys 137lbs 5'3"

I am not sure what happened in the surgical room the 2nd time around - I kinda wish I had filmed it. My surgeon is one of the best in the city and was highly recommended by friends. I'm not sure if maybe he had some new people in training with him or something. When I woke up from my second surgery, there was red all over the pillow, blanket and most of my upper body. I must have looked alarmed when the nurse helped me to sit up and get dressed. When I noticed so much red staining everywhere - because it really looked like a crime scene - the nurse assured me right away it was just disinfectant. It looked like someone dropped the whole bottle of disinfectant on me. No one ever did explain what happened and I guess I kinda forgot about it until i look back at the photos now. I have pics from the day after surgery as the Dr. requests clients email him pics and does a phone meeting. A little piece of me was worried about it settling too low because it felt like it was positioned properly after the surgery. In the 6th week it dropped. It looks different and because it is more round at the bottom than the left side, if I wear anything without support and adjustable straps - clothing seems to twist a bit to that direction. So basically the procedure again is "botched" again - in my opinion. At this point, I feel like we have gone from an implant sitting up way too high to basically just dropping it into the lower breast pocket. My left implant is still sitting great and fills out both the upper pole and lower pocket . The right implant now basically misses the upper pole and sits mainly in the lower breast pocket.

I brought up my concerns with the surgeon at my 8 week phone check in with him. He has you send pics front and both sides before the meeting so he is able to give an assessment. He told me that breasts are never going to be twins and he thought things were looking pretty good. I understand not having things identical but am I wrong in thinking the implants should at least sit in a similar position? During our 8 week meeting it felt as though he was telling me I was overeacting and this time everything is pretty much normal and standard. I'm not a surgeon and maybe I'm totally wrong. He had his admin send me pics from my initial pre-surgery visit to show that my right breast normally sat a little lower already. Maybe Im wrong and this IS normal??

More surgery is terrifying. I am super frustrated because the right implant placement doesn't feel right to me. I don't know how to handle the situation. I generally do not complain about things, it makes me so uncomfortable. I rarely return a purchase Ive made or complain about a restraunt order that might not be quite right. I avoid conflict as much as possible. Im scared to go back to the surgeon and complain again. I think that bringing the implant back up to sit properly like the other side will be alot more work at this point. After 2 unsuccesful rounds, I'm scared it will just get worse somehow. I dont have thousands of dollars to go elsewhere to get it fixed. This procedure took a long time for me to save for and psych myself up for; I hate needles and surgery is scary. The revision surgery was stressful. I admit I was scared and cried beforehand even though I'm past grown and know 99% of the time it will be ok. For almost 30 years I thought about getting my breasts done - I didnt expect it to be such a journey. The main reasons I chose my surgeon in the end was his reputation for great work and being close to home in case something went wrong.

I never expected perky or young looking breasts - I understood that the sag I have wasnt going to disappear and I am OK with that. I couldn't get myself to be comfortable with a lift and having my breasts cut apart - in an ideal world I would have had the money and bravery for a full mommy makeover. Both the idea of being so cut apart and having to heal from that, along with the cost of it all wasnt going to work for me. I really just wanted my breasts to be more full, nursing kids really stretches and flattens them generally. At least I know it did for me. If only the right implant sat in the same way as the left....I would be over the moon.

Any suggestions or advice on how I should handle this - I would appreciated.

Just adding pics of the position of the implant on the right that didn't drop into place. Basically the implant sat here for almost a year. This is a 7 month post op shot. I considered adding a few more images from other months but literally they look the same.

So I had an issue with the right implant not falling into place. I was told to wear a band around the 8 week mark. I wore a band for about 6 months - ALL the time!! It was so uncomfortable especially as the left implant was great so I had to twist the band so it pressed down on the right side but went under the left implant. I hated it but I hate needles and surgery so I was really hoping the band would help. It did not. I also never really felt heard by my Dr. - it felt as though he didn't believe me that I was doing what he told me. Finally after 10 months he agreed that the implant wasn't going to move and we scheduled a revision. So a few weeks shy of a year after my initial surgery I went in to have the right side brought back down.