350cc smooth HSC+ HP Sientra under muscle

The anxiety and obsessively researching is growing by the minute. I have surgery scheduled in 3 days. I'm a mom of four and breastfed some, but never really got the hang of it. My boobs have remained perky but have lost some fullness. I've always had an OK rack, but I do have an athletic square shape up top and always wanted to have a more voluptuous top half matching my larger bootie. I've been to several consultations over the years, but always chickened out when it came to scheduling the procedure. Probably because I wasn't confident with previous surgeons. My husband is a butt man and constantly tells me that he loves my body as is, but he is supportive after listening to his sister tell him “it changes the way a girl feels, she's more confident feeling sexier”. I also know he has a thing for boobs too after stumbling on his porn preferences, lol. Either way, I'm doing this for me and my confidence alone. Of course, he does get to benefit from this early Christmas present to me as well. I'm using Dr. Robin Hamlin. I've been to a few different surgeons and have felt most at ease with her. She's sooo down to earth and makes me feel incredibly comfortable. I'm going with round, non-textured silicone under the muscle, but told her to do her magic and determine the size she'll be using, while trying to replicate my wish pics. I've been on RS for a few months now and am so grateful to read all you lovely ladies reviews and advice. Likewise, I love how supportive everyone is here. So, I will do the same by posting my recovery and updates in hopes that it might help another. I'll post before surgery pics when I can share it with hopefully "vavoom!!" after pics.

Did anybody else pick fights with there husband the day of and night before? I'm so freakn anxious that I'm making a mistake and it's going to go terrible that I keep picking at him. I'm trying so hard to stop but I don't know what my problem is.

I’m finally out of the daze enough to give an update. First off, I have to say to all you ladies that say “it wasn’t too painful at first”, you all are rock stars. I always thought I can handle pain relatively well but when I woke up, I was literally sobbing/crying asking for alllll medicines. I think my exact words were “please put me back to sleep”. It felt like my breast were in a Vice grip, with my nipples being squeezed and twisted as if they were gonna snap right off my body. The nurse gave me two oral pills, I think dilaudid, and an anti-nausea transdermal. Then they called my husband back and told him that I couldn’t have any more pain medication until 4:30 (3 hours away) because they’ve maxed out what I could handle. By the time we got home and my husband tucked me into bed, the dilaudid kicked in, and I slept soundly for a few hours. After waking up, the pain was manageable. No more Vice grips. Thank goodness!!! I have the ace bandage wrapped around me, so I haven’t seen them yet. I got 350 cc HSC+smooth silicone underneath muscle. I see that she did high profile, and I’m really scared that I’m not going to have that natural drop like I explained to her and that are on my wish pics. I don’t want any roundness on top (personal preference). Please, somebody tell me that I’m overreacting about that. Is it possible to have drop with high profile??? The pictures are of today pre-op and now. Also they didn’t remove my chest dermals and I had no complications with them in, so that’s cool.