Natrelle Saline 190/260cc, 5’3”, 106 lb, 38

Went to first follow up appointment today and got a compression bra which I’m supposed to wear 24/7 for a year! I am at 32C while I was a 32A/B before. It feels good to be supported and held in, but the band also presses on the stitches especially on the right. Removed the dressings and covered the incisions with steri strips.
After a lifetime of being tiny and liking it, it’s strange to look at myself and see big breasts. I feel huge. I had read that if you’re used to being very small, bigger breasts can make you feel fat. I do. I know the swelling will continue to go down over the next weeks and months, but I wish small breasts were my husbands’ preference. I liked the way I was. I don’t regret this. I feel like I had to do it so that I wouldn’t keep wondering and second guessing my decision, but still. I feel like I’ve been thinking about, reading about, researching, and talking about breasts for more than two years. I’m ready to just get on with life. However, this is such a great place to read about others’ experiences, ask questions and get support, which is why I wanted to share.

Today is day 3 post op. My pain is better, but I’m taking painkillers regularly. At night, I get stiffer and more sore. I’m sleeping sitting up in bed. I still feel huge and my chest is very tight. Size-wise, I didn’t realize I was so asymmetrical before - projected at 85cc difference - hence the 190cc and 260cc implants. I hope they even out more. Now the larger implant looks too big, I think.

After thinking about, researching, consulting with four surgeons, and backing out of one scheduled surgery last fall, I had a breast augmentation yesterday.
I was so anxious and fearful, crying all morning, I called the surgeon’s office and tried to back out. The patient coordinator told me i should go to the Surgical centre to check in, where I’d have time to talk to the surgeon to make my final decision. I arrived at 11 am, went back and forth for 1.5 hours - afraid of not waking up from the general anaesthetic, the pain and recovery, of having something foreign in my body, the potential for complications, more surgeries, revisions, mold developing in the implant, not being able to pick up my dog, or drive for two weeks, or be back to my regular activity for 6 months - before finally before deciding I’d always wonder if I didn’t go through with it.
I never thought about getting a breast augmentation until men in my life suggested it, which was my biggest concern. I felt like I wasn’t doing this for me, but for a man. But for the past two years, I haven’t stopped wondering if I’d feel sexier or more confident, if my husband would find me more attractive, if our sex life would improve...
So, I’m day one post op. I was in SO MUCH PAIN yesterday and last night. I couldn’t get out of bed or sit up. My chest aches and feels so tight. The incisions hurt and feel like my abs are going to tear away from my chest.
If I had expected that pain, I probably wouldn’t have gone through with it. The pain medication is helping today. Icing is helping.
I have peeked a little under the bandage. I feel huge and swollen. My surgeon says if after 4 weeks I still feel like I made a mistake, we can take them out.
If anyone is interested in pictures and my journey, please let me know and I’ll keep posting.