Worried About my Outcome

So after seeing about 4 other Doctors for second opinions & getting prices for revision surgery I finally decided on who I was going to trust and just recently, April 8th I had my revision surgery done.
It was just about 10 months & honestly after 3 months there really no significant changes & I still hated them so I knew they were not going to change at that point. During my other other consults I also found out that my breast were tuberous & more needed to be done during surgery to have better results. I did address all my concerns with my first dr. He didn’t do anything to fix me. I would have paid more if I needed to, but he literally just cut me open way bigger than he needed to & put in the implants & stitched me back up. It’s like he didn’t care if I got good results or not, I didn’t just want bigger boobs, I wanted them
Corrected! That’s what I get for going to someone that is NOT a board certified plastic surgeon & doesn’t even operate in a hospital. I’m to blame too thinking I made the right choice. :(
Thankfully the recovery on this surgery wasn’t nearly as bad! The muscle was already cut the first time so I didn’t have as much pain. There isn’t a lot of swelling either, mainly on my sides, underneath my arms. We went with a 325cc moderate plus silicone mentor memory gel on both sides. This is the one thing I’m disappointed in. My left is a lot smaller so we discussed this quite a bit. I wanted to put a larger size in the left. He took more than one size implant to the operating room with him & he did say he would see what would work best. For some reason again it wasn’t done. I didn’t expect perfect, I know they weren’t going to match exactly, but the difference is not just a little, it a lot and it’s very noticeable :(
So I’m not ready to post pictures yet. My right is a lot bigger & I’m back where I started. He did remove breast tissue inside, around the breast which will help and he said I’ll notice a difference once they settle. They are not as far apart anymore which I’m happy about, and he did fix my scars. He used the same ones but, revised them and restitched me so much better. So there are some positives, but I hate the healing process because it takes an emotional toll on me.
Just before I posted this I saw another girls profile & she had the same bra as me size prior to surgery and we are close to the same weight, I’m just taller in height. She got exactly what I wanted, 350cc silicone moderate plus in the left & the right was 325cc. I thought that was ironic, luckily it worked out for her and they looked great afterwards. I still don’t understand why it couldn’t be done for me! This morning was my post op & I asked him and I even said if 350cc was too big for the left than maybe I should have put the 325cc in the left and a 300cc in the right? Is wanting them the same size asking for too much??? I’ve spent so much now, but I have no choice any more but to accept whatever results I get a few months.

It was officially 3 months yesterday since my surgery & sadly I’m still not happy :(
I had to cancel my appointment this week, but I still need to reschedule. There has been changes, but not enough to convince me that in a few more months that I’m going to love them. My left breast is still a lot smaller. My nipples came up a little, but they are still low. Now on my right one, it’s facing more to the right as well. I’m still massaging them, and I don’t feel like they are dropping anymore. I’ve been sleeping on my back mostly & occasionally roll on my sides. I’m not a stomach sleeper. I still have a very sharp pain right in middle of my chest & depending on what I am doing it feels like I am tearing muscle in my chest. It can really hurt some times. I am still not lifting heavy weights & I used do when I worked out. I actually went to get second opinions from other Doctors that offered free consults. Even though it’s too soon to get a revision done I have a good feeling I’ll be getting one in Dec. I want to get it over with this year! Both Doctors said they are too far apart, I should have gone with a moderate profile instead and a wider implant. My right one placed too far over. Also, he should have put a different size in my left one to make them even. Both Dr’s gave me ridiculous prices for revision surgery that I will no way be able to afford. So when I go back to my Dr. I really hope he will work something out with me. Here’s the thing though, should I trust him? I’m scared! I thought I was going to the right Doctor & based off of what the other Doctors were telling me I was misled on so many things. Just look at my scars! I’ve seen so many pictures where after one month their scars looked better than mine! I have bought 2 tubes of Mederma already, neosporin for scars, and silicone scar tape. I have been using them all along with vitamin e lotion & coco butter lotion. I feel like the right scar is starting to form a keloid scar. Anyway, I have only bought two bras and haven’t enjoyed having these yet. The only good thing is no one can tell their defective in a bra of bathing suit lol. Sorry wish I could say something positive, but this has taken such an emotional toll on me. I hate looking at them :(
I look at all these other girls that got great results & I just wish that couldn’t just have happened for me?!!!

This is my before picture. Breasts were not that way & nipples were centered. I did get a second opinion yesterday. I did a virtual consult & the Dr. said they will drop but, not another 4 inches. He thinks they are high, but it’s definitely not because my implant size is too big. He said give it 3 months if they don’t correct by then I will need a revision :(