Goodbye, asymmetric tuberous breasts!

My breasts were never cute, pretty, sexy, fun to have, or a source of pride. I've been ashamed of them since I was 12 years old. It took me years to rack up the courage to tell my mom I needed to see a doctor, and that bro of a doctors just said "Oh, they'll even out." Clearly he didn't know what he was talking about. I have a 2-3 cup size difference, with one smaller perky "normal" looking breast, and one bigger, floppy triangular breast with a nipple the same size as the other breast that has always pointed down.
So I never had a high school boyfriend or a high school make out session. I wore a bra constantly, though it didn't help much until I got a job when I was 16 and bought my own bras because my mom wouldn't buy me padded ones. I've been ashamed and insecure my whole life. I never had hookups or sex through college, until I finally fell for a guy that wasn't nearly as impressed by me when he saw me naked. That's pretty much been the theme of my entire adult life. I never have cleavage, I look terrible in bathing suits, and I've never had a serious relationship. I've been told to put my shirt on and laughed at and pushed away by sexual partners. Obviously, I don't send sexy pictures or [RS bleep]. I hate my breasts.I've visited several plastic surgeons in the past who've told me basically don't basically amounts to don't expect much, and anything is better than what you have, however in the past few years I've found more and more doctors who acknowledge that correcting breast asymmetry and tuberous breasts isn't as simple and shoving in 2 different sized implants. I still see some (to me) horrible results out there, but I've seen more and more that don't just look like bigger versions of the same problem; some women now have beautiful and normal looking breasts! So that's what I'm hoping I can find. Either way, I've decided I don't want to live like this anymore, it's time to pull the trigger and get something done. So that's my story, and I'm going to start my consultations now.

I’m beyond excited, though I must confess, I’m a little nervous too. It’s all finally becoming real. I feel really good about the doctor that I’m seeing on Monday, and as long as I get a good vibe, it’s a go! I will fly out to see Dr. D early Monday am, and then a girl friend (who’s coming with me for support) and I will take a long layover in Chicago to visit another friend and celebrate me finally getting the breasts I hoped for when I was a young girl all the way up until now. I’ve been doubting myself a bit. I’ve looked in the mirror and thought “Girl, they aren’t that bad!” But you know, they’ve been bad enough for long enough! I’ve also worried that I’d fall for a guy who would have mean things to say about me because I’ll be “fake” now. But that’s [RS bleep]. If a man chooses to reject me without knowing what I’ve dealt with for the past 20+ years, then screw him. Ultimately though, I think that men just want to be with someone sexy. I say that because I’ve been “pretty” and “a good person” for a while now, but I’ve been ditched and overlooked for girls who had more sex appeal. I’m still going to be the same person, I’ll just have more confidence, more symmetry, and more sex appeal. The right person will love me just as I’ll love myself. Anyway, I just wanted to update that things are moving along nicely, and I’ll update after I have my consultation (and set my surgery date! )

Time has really been flying by. I can't believe that in just under two weeks from now, I will finally, FINALLY have had surgery to correct this crazy problem that has been worrying me since I was 12 years old! I just realized that the review of my consultation with Dr. DeLuca in Albany, NY never posted! So let me catch y'all up on that experience- this is a copy-paste from way back in 2018 when I had my consultation.

I could barely sleep last night, I’ve been feeling so anxious, a crazy mix of nervous and excited and scared. The staff was all very nice, especially Patti who I could chat with forever. Dr. DeLuca was very approachable, and seemed very realistic about what he hoped to accomplish and what I could expect. I must’ve asked him a hundred different ways a thousand different times “But will they look even? Are you sure? Will I finally be normal?” I do have self confidence, even though I've written a lot of emo stuff here, so I hate that I still feel like I'm not enough, and I’m so ready to look pretty and symmetric! I’m a little afraid that the silicone sizers won’t create as much symmetry as saline would, but he says they feel better, last longer, and all in all are the better choice. He said he’s planning on a dual plane lift, with the dreaded vertical scar on my right breast, and just high profile implant on one side, possibly medium profile on the other. He’s also aiming for about 450ccs on my left and maybe 375 on the right, but we might go bigger. I’m planning to come back early next year to finally FINALLY have my breast implants.


So that's where I left off. Since then I've had a couple of freak outs- one about potentially using two different profile implants for my breast, and a second one just this past weekend because one of my friends kept telling me that it sounded like my implants would be to small. After seeing implants on a lot of petite girls it did make me worry. I'm just shy of 6ft and I have broad shoulders and a bit of chub on me. I'd been combing through real self like mad and got it in my head that I need like 600- 800ccs, which was not part of the plan. To be honest I started feeling sick to my stomach just thinking about having the surgery. I go back and forth from fearing that I'll have these huge bazooka boobs that prevent me from being able to jump rope comfortably and cross my arms, or small breasts that just look average at best, like a regular unsexy girl. I have dreamed of regular breasts for YEARS, but now that I can choose the breasts that I have, and I'm spending 10 grand on them, damnit I want sexy breasts! I want to look at them every day and say "Damn, girl! You're a 10!" Hahaha...
Anyway, Dr. DeLuca doesn't think my skin can hold implants that large, and I don't want to argue about it because I know he knows best from a medical perspective, I just hope they'll be my dream come true. Everyone he's done before that I've seen has beautiful breasts, so I have decided that I'm going to trust my doctor, which is what my friends who have actually had breast surgery- one a reduction and another implants- have said. Well, I'll update later as I prepare more for surgery.