my story - please love yourself

Hey everyone! I haven’t been on here for a while but I wanted to come back and see if you ladies had any advise. If you read my past posts, I was absolutely upset with my implants. Not exactly physically but mentally. I do want to update and say - I’m now 80 percent happy with them, they look amazing - I actually wish I would had went bigger :). But I know I will never 100 percent be happy with them. I know they are there 24/7, I can feel them and I’m just not comfortable. So I am wanting to do a fat transfer. I talked to a PS about it and she said it will take atleast 3 treatments to get me where I want to be, which is fine. But I like to workout so i am scared it will all be a waste. Should I keep the implants? Should I do fat transfer? Idk what to do

Hello! So I have Been experiencing so much pain the past couple of days, it’s painful to the touch...it’s painful without touching. I recently have started working a lot of pull ups and jogging for the first time. But if you read my story you will see I also suffer from bulimia. So I’m so worried! They are swollen and painful, and I feel like they look different but maybe it’s just me. Does anyone have experience with working out or anything? Could I have just irritated it, or maybe ruptured something!?

I am now since months out, if you have read my story you can see that things were very very rocky for me. But, quick update on that - right now I’m an in slow recovery for my eating disorder. My DR is making me wait until I am 100 percent well and a year out before he will do anything to my breasts (I just want a small nipple lift on the right side). And I respect him for that. Now for the update on how I feel about my breasts - I’m not 100 percent happy with how they look- but I also know natural breasts are not 100 percent perfect. After getting a second opinion and getting told my DR did amazing and there’s nothing that they (the new DR) would change, I began to stop looking at them so much. I used to stay in the mirror looking at my breasts, finding everything and anything I could wrong with them. Now i look at them when I get in the shower and think “I actually have boobs” lol. Although I think they could look better, I know with my body frame and the way they looked before (horrible)....I know that they turned out the best they could. when I finally get my DR to give me my nipple lift, I know I will be so much happier. But things have changed so much since I last reviewed. If I could go back, I would have done more research, and then i would have scared myself out of it. So, I’m happy i stayed with the positive reviews instead of the negative...also, surprisingly...i wish i could have gone bigger. But my DR said NO to that because if i did, things would look bad due to my body. But could change projections. Which i don’t really want to do because I’m not a fan of the high profile....anyways I am so happy I got this done. I’m not to the point where “it was the best decision I have ever made” but I’m finally to the point where I can say “I am happy with my decision”......and who knows....maybe one day I’ll change projection. I would still advise everyone to go to therapy before getting this surgery if you are struggling in anyway. It’s been a very long and hard 6 months. It feels like a decade. Make sure you are in the right mindset when going in for this! It’s so much harder mentally than anyone let’s on! But in the end it’s your body and your choice, make the choice that’s best for you. And PLEASE remember.....these are NOT a lasting lifetime thing. You do need to change them out (I see a lot of woman complain about that). So before going in, make sure you have the means for the surgery and the second surgery. And save that money until it’s needed! :)