Breast augmentation - I got totally botched forever.

More pics showing implants breaking thru the skin and my final pic is after my implant removal surgery when the surgeon told me how bad my surgery was because I was such a mess inside it was like hamburger meat and the silicone implants was ruptured. My right breast will forever be disfigured from tissue damage from the Shecktman surgeries And I’m not symmetrical as you can see. I am deformed and feel horrible about my body without clothes on to hide my body. I started this journey to feel better about myself and now my body dysmorphia is off the charts. After spending approx $40k from my original surgeries with Shecktman and the revisions he did to having to pay for consults with other surgeons to paying the final surgery of implant removal. The original implants were way too big for my body it stretched my skin to the point my skin is so thin it’s almost see thru together with the cortisone shots for the keloid nipples and the T breast scars and I can never get another breast surgery to fix this as my nipples will 99% die and the surgeon won’t take that risk. I know I’m not alone in being botched I hope t story helps at least one woman from being botched and disfigured forever.

I wanted a mommy makeover and started with a breast lift that came out good and was told I had to wait 3-6 months for breast implants. I did allot of research before I chose him. When he asked me what size I wanted I was at a B cup I said a full D you’re the Dr you know what would look right on my body. Well they weren’t anything what I expected they were so large they almost hit my belly button. They keloided under my breast and around my nipples which he used cortisone shots to make them go down but it made them worse you could see the outline of my aerola of both my nipples through my shirt and my breasts were horribly scarred on the bottoms and the incisions and those implants quickly bottomed out. I was reassured this happens sometimes and he would do the revision for free which isn’t free you pay the anesthesiologists.a year later I had another breast lift and augmentation. A day or two after surgery I popped a stitch and I called Dr Shecktman immediately asking if I should go to the hospital and he said no see me tomorrow. I had sent him pics I had a hole in my breast. I had a gf hold me together and I taped the hole closed the best I could and he said there’s nothing he can do it’s fine. My breasts were horribly scarred and where the stitch popped I had a circle scar and the implants soon bottomed out AGAIN. Somehow I was smaller but still a DDD than first implant surgery but had the same implants inside me. I needed ANOTHER surgery. This time Dr Shecktman said he can do a mesh shelf and that will reinforce the implants from bottoming out again. It was another $2k per breast for the mesh plus paying the anesthesiologist. I did the surgery my breasts looked perfect but they weren’t standing straight up when I lad down they were under my arm pits again. I rolled over in bed one night and I felt this HUGE TEAR inside my left breast. You could see deep purple puddling at the bottom of my breast as well as See and feel the mesh. Again I contacted Dr Shecktman immediately. When he saw me he said let me think about how to handle this. I got Botox and I left. The next time I went for my Botox I showed him my breasts again and the way he handled my breasts was a little uncomfortable and I stood there while he was just staring at my naked breasts. He felt my breasts ag at me and said these exact words “I GUESS I’M NOT SMART ENOUGH TO FIGURE THIS OUT YOU’RE JUST GOING TO HAVE TO LIVE WITH IT”. I replied don’t you watch botched? You need to rebuild and support the inside pocket. I actually wrote into botched but never heard back. Also my breasts were not the same size and they were going in 2 different directions. I didn’t have money to get another surgery from another surgeon I had to save up. Once I had money saved up I started researching cancer reconstruction surgeons as they handle all kinds of botched situations. I met with 5 drs who all said they couldn’t fix me. My urogynocologist referred me to a cancer reconstruction surgeon who only took on impossible cases. At the point when I finally met him he said he would take my case because my implants were literally falling out of my body and I was in critical condition. This was during COVID so my surgery kept getting put off and finally MGH hospital was able to let him operate on me. The day of my surgery he said if I didn’t get operated on that day the implants would have fallen out of t body within the next few days. After surgery he said he’s NEVER seen such a mess like this inside my breasts. The implants which were silicone ruptured and I looked like hamburger meat inside. There was so much physical damage and trauma to my breasts. I had a successful surgery but my skin is super thin because the implants were way too big for my body to handle and I have allot of missing tissue on my right breast which is deformed and my breasts aren’t the same size or symmetrical. But because my breasts have been through so much trauma it was recommended to not get implants again and also I can’t do another breast lift because my nipples will most likely necrosis and die and the fat graft they were thinking of doing would be too dangerous. The risks far outweigh any gains and I have to live with this deformity for the rest of my life. I lay down and my boobs are flat and under my arm pits. I’m so self conscious I won’t let my partner see my naked breasts only in bras. I already had body dysmorphia and this has added so much more anxiety and a lowered my self esteem to below zero. I literally can’t look at myself naked and I’m always self conscious. I’m deformed forever because of Dr Shecktman. DO NOT GO TO HIM. I will post some pics but the worst pics I deleted because I couldn’t have them accessible to me I mini had my antidepressant raised to see if that helps. I wanted to improve my body and instead I got totally botched forever.