SO HAPPY! 24 y/o , 1 child bf, 5’4”, 145lbs 520CC SRF

Hi everyone!

I have found so so much useful information on here, so I have decided to go ahead and post my own journey. I am 23 days out from surgery and I am so extremely nervous. I feel as though it's only going to get worse, so I thought maybe posting here will help calm my nerves a bit.

I am 24, 145lbs, 5' 4", mother of one beautiful 2-year old breastfed boy. Our breastfeeding journey ended in November, a month after his 2nd birthday. Within 72 hours after stopping nursing, my breasts *shriveled* up and I've been so so unhappy ever since. I hate that I feel this way because I love love my body and I love what my breasts were able to do for myself and my son. I feel as though now they have served their purpose and I can move on to doing this surgery for me. I've always wanted big boobs since I was a young girl.

While breastfeeding I probably got up to about a 32D, but my sons "favorite" side was always large and in charge. I am now left with a "droopier" breast on my right side which worries me, but my surgeon ensured me that he would use internal sutures on that side to "lift and tighten" it to be more even with the other, since they have the same amount of breast tissue, we won't need to use two different sized implants. I only went to two surgeons, one who told me I needed a lift and wouldn't be able to go larger than 330CC, and the other who told me that I could go big as I wanted without a lift, we discussed 500cc high profile. I expressed that I was ok with a lift I really needed it, but I really wanted to go big like DD, and I didn't particularly want the scars but would do it if it's what would get me where I wanted and the look I wanted. But he said it's not necessary and I wouldn't get the big look I want if I took skin out because I'll need the extra skin for the size I'm going.

Hoping my journey will help someone, and hopefully, you all can help me out with my nervousness! I've never had surgery before so I'm mainly afraid of the anesthesia making me feel bad!

Here’s a couple before pictures. As you can see, very deflated and pretty small. Also, one side is more “droopy” due to it being much larger when my son preferred that size to nurse from. Surgeon said that it has same amount of tissue, so different sizes implants wouldn’t be the best route, but he will add internal sutures to “support” the droopier side and “lift” it to match the other as best possible.
Not sure my cup size as after nursing I said “I’m not buying new bras I’m buying new boobs” but in a sports bra they are virtually flat. My surgeon assured me that I wouldn’t need a lift since I’m wanting to go D/DD. We discussed 500CC full profile to get me there, he thinks that would be my “sweet spot implant size”. Pre-op is on Wednesday of next week! SUPER excited!