Skinny Petite Asian, 5'2", 108 lbs, 32Yrs Old: My BBL Journey

Sorry ladies for not updating in a while... been busy lately. Anyways, i am at 7 weeks post op now. At 6 weeks post op, i immediately stop wearing the fajas. I also started sitting but if i dont have to, i try to stand often... still have that scared feeling of ruining my butt.
I started trying on some of my old jeans and stretchy underwears and got surprised that they fit!!! It is size 0 or XS... well, my butt is not very big. I felt like my butt is the same as before the surgery except it is a bit fuller coz the butt area of my old jeans are tighter but in general, i really cant tell the difference... i dont want to discourage anyone, but if i am being honest, i dont think my results is worth paying that much money plus all the suffering from the recovery. :-( :-( :-(
Anyways, i can still see my curves and butt but it is not as dramatic as the first few weeks. I still felt some lumps on my butt, belly and thighs. Dr Hazani said it could take up to 3 months for it to go away. Dont get me wrong, I dont hate my results... i still see changes from my old body... but i dont think the changes is worth the money or the suffering from the recovery... i dont know, maybe this is still part of the emotional journey... but im just going to have to enjoy what i got for now and will pray that the fats in my butt will stay in my butt for a while...

It's the weekend... so i'm trying on some of my few clothes that still fit... and so glad i found a few!!! :-)

Yay, i can't believe i made it to 4 weeks post op! Hahaha... this recovery is really intense than i expected. Too many ups and downs. It is really true that it is not the surgery day that you should be afraid off. It should be the days following surgery!

So two weeks ago, i was under the impression that i can finally sit down without restrictions after 4 weeks. I texted Dr. Hazani to make sure and he said to wait 5 to 6 weeks until my butt is completely soften. When i touch my butt, it is not completely soften. Only certain areas are... so just imagine my disappointment after receiving that text! The not being able to sit without a BBL pillow is really hard. It is manageable but there are so many times that i wanted to just throw the stupid pillow and sit my butt and suffer the consequences... but i didnt! I did try to sit down without a pillow few minutes at a time but still not enough. I cant wait to sleep on my back too, although i did try putting pillows underneath my lower back so if you lay down on your back and fold your knees, your butt wont touch the bed. I do it few minutes at a time.

Okay, so a few girls send me a private message asking if i have encountered some situations where i must sit and what did i do... and oh boy, yes i did have those moments... awkward but i think i handled it with flying colors. Lol.

a. At work - i have bought a standing desk at work so i dont have to sit. I normally sit 8-9 hours a day but with the standing desk, i stand 90% of the time and just sit with my BBL pillow from time to time. I have attended at least 4 meetings since i am back to work and when my boss asked me to "sit down"... i told him, i need to stand for personal reasons. He didnt complain on that and so glad coz if i sit, i wont be able to concentrate on my meeting coz all i will be thinking is my butt. Lol. During breaks when i get tired, i put my blanket on the carpet and lay down on my tummy. Good thing, i have my own office that i could close during my breaks but people can still see my lying down on the carpet but i didnt care. They are not the one who paid for this butt, i did... so i must protect it. Lol

2. Family Events - so my husband's family is 2 hours away and we have visited them at least 3 times since i get back. They didnt know i had my butt done but they know i went to California for a surgery. I have been wearing really lose clothes so you cant tell my butt is bigger. In their house, i kneel, lay down on the couch, stand while eating... and thankfully, no one dared to ask me why i cant sit when offered to sit. Lol.

3. Memorial Day weekend party - staying in the house every weekend is killing me... i am very outgoing and staying in the house is very boring so i told my husband we should go attend friends cookout. While attending the cookouts, i stand and kneel. I didnt bring my BBL pillow since i dont want to be too obvious to friends... but when i was offered to sit, i immediately said out of nowhere... i prefer to stand so i can keep an eye on my son. I was doing the babysitter excuse. Lol

4. Casino - so another friend invited us to Casino for his birthday and i said yes coz im so tired being in the house... while playing slot machines, a friend told me to sit and i said i win better if i stand... funny part is that i keep winning that night and i dont even gamble before that day! Lol

5. Restaurant - okay, this part was hard, the only places i went to eat out so far was the ones with bar so when we are sitting on the edge of the bar, my husband sits while i stand next to him... but one time, after the Casino, we got hungry and had to eat with the group. Well, i didnt care. I ate standing... thankfully it was fast self service restaurant so i offered i will get everybody's food so they wont think or remember that im actually standing while eating. I ate super fast and went back to slot machine. Lol

Now, that i think about it... i really dont know how others can go through with this again... but then, you will be surprised of the things your mind just do to protect your investment. You will get creative in so many ways possible. Maybe when im fully recovered, i wont remember all these sacrifices i had to do but this thing is super tough! I'm just glad i got 2 more weeks to go...

So far, my results is not that big anymore. I didnt measure coz i dont want to get upset. I can tell by just looking at the mirror how my butt volume have disappeared... but being skinny, i can still see the curves and everything but i really felt like my butt is going towards being flat... oh well, i didnt really want a super big butt, just wishing it is more bubbly. Right now, i have my curves, but my butt is slowly going back to its original shape... i think. :-( Or it could just be in my head... what you think ladies???