Disaster Round 2 BBL and Breast Lift with Implants

It's been a little over a year since I've had my surgery and I kept going back and forth with myself on whether or not I should write this review. The reason was that I respect and like Dr. Pantoja and his staff but it's time to now tell my story. This journey has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions and has been financially, physically, and emotionally disastrous to my life. I will start by giving a little backstory of everything leading up to the current situation I'm in right now. Back in 2017, I had my first BBL with Dr. Pantoja, and immediately after surgery there was a dramatic difference and I loved my results. Three years later I gained a bit of weight but still loved my shape. On top of that, all my incisions were practically invisible. My main area of concern was the back rolls I got after gaining weight. I did want more projection on my butt and to overall get back to how I looked like my first surgery. This is when I decided to reach out to Dr. Pantoja's staff about going in for a round two and also adding in a breast augmentation.
Day of surgery Dr. Pantoja marked me up and pointed out areas that he was going to lipo which were the same areas I had lipo done back in 2017. My arms, back, stomach, and inner thigh. For my breast augmentation, I already had boobs, to begin with. I wanted to go for a fake look so Dr. Pantoja recommended that he would need to do an anchor lift incision on me to achieve the look I wanted. I trusted that he knew what was best and because my incisions healed well the first time I automatically assumed that I would have no issues healing the second time around. Boy was I wrong.
The day after surgery before being discharged home Dr. Pantoja came to the room to examine and make sure everything looked good before I went home. After opening the breast and body garment I could see that my breast was sitting very high just the way I hoped and imagined it would, but upon seeing my incisions I just did not like the look of them on my breast. My stomach had an obvious horizontal crease in the middle and my back rolls were still there! I should've known right then and there I was not going to like my overall results because comparing it to my first and how I immediately saw a drastic difference I just saw so many imperfections this time around. That right there ladies should've been a dead giveaway. I carried on being hopeful and followed the post-op instructions to the T. Had massages done, limited exercise until given the okay to resume back to any physical activities, stayed away from foods that I was told not to eat, took care of my incisions, and wore my garments religiously.
Fast forward now and its been a little more than a year since I had my surgery. The horizontal crease that I saw on my stomach the day after surgery is still there and continues to look worse. The swelling has gone away but the back rolls I went in to get rid of never got taken out. Instead, I am left with horrible lipo scars on the lower part of my stomach and the back part of my upper arms. My anchor scars on my breast are horrible, I had complications with the healing process due to the stitches that did not dissolve properly and was left with an open wound for a month 1/2. I now have dark scars and excess areola pigmentation on my verticle scars. I get very sad even thinking about the fact that I have already spent thousands of dollars on scar treatments and even then those marks are still there on my body for me to be reminded of how much I regret going in for this surgery.
I have reached out to Dr. Pantoja's staff about possibly going back in and getting lipo on the areas that I feel like he did not do well the second time but I have not gone through with booking this appointment because of the fear of getting botched again. Even though writing this review won't make my problems go away I just wanted to finally open up and express my insecurities that I now have because of this second surgery.

Every time I look at my body, it's a reminder of how much I regret going into this second surgery. I've spent a lot of money trying to minimize the scars and the cost to fix the botched procedures will cost more than what I can even afford right now. It's an unfortunate thing to have to live with this body that I now hate so much. I have become extremely depressed because of it.

Don’t believe me? Look at the pictures. I live with this immense amount of sadness and regret everyday. I hate myself for going into this second surgery. I hate looking at my body. I’ve lost all of my self esteem.