Waiting

she is trying to convince my father to not pay for the surgery. I don't know anymore...I wanted to do this when in my early 20s..

So I asked my mother if she can help me with care taking after the surgery (she knows that I have been planning this for YEARS), and I am getting nothing but negativity from her!! I can't believe this! And it is not in a I am concerned for your health kind of way :/ She has just been making fun of me saying what the hell do you need an ass for, as long as it serves the functional purposes. And she said if I truly were an intelligent person, I would never even consider anything like this. And it is almost like taunting from her end cos she just asks things like so are you going to go and be Miss. Universe after this? Ergh. This is really getting me down, and I am doing this for myself so that I don't have to feel soo LOW all the time. Now that I don't have family or friends to back me up, I don't know how the heck I am going to go through with this. Maybe I will have save up even more for a caretaker. But it still hurts that family is doing this to me. I am sorry that my updates are negative, but I need to vent and I have NO ONE to turn to.

Thank you ladies for taking the time to lift my spirits and make me feel better! I can't believe that this kind of support is coming from people that don't even know me, but it really gives me faith in humanity!