Paid the Deposit. Here we go...

After much deliberation and research, today I took a leap of faith and put down my deposit for surgery with Dr. Palladino in Miami. Before I dropped the deposit, I was very anxious about doing this. But now that I've committed my money, there is no going back, and I want to get the pain of recovery over with.
I do not desire to look like an Instagram model or a reality TV star. I'm 36 and want to not feel ashamed when I look in the mirror. No boyfriend/husband, not seeking one, no kids, not planning on any lol. I'm pretty soggy/saggy everywhere, and my poor boobs have deflated and my butt has some shape but has lost its plumpness. In the past year, I've lost about 67 pounds and I'd like to suck out all this loose skin so I can enjoy my body again. I pray that I don't have a bad experience with Mia Aesthetics and the recovery house. So far, the staff have been great. I will find out my surgery date tomorrow. My stats: 5'3, 166. I am on Weight Watchers and exercising heavily as I hope to be at 150 by surgery time. I just pray I don't die on the table.
As you can see from my pics, I've had surgery before. Long story. My body has been through a lot of trauma.

I was hoping to get my surgery date pinned down today, but they didn't send me the contract to sign until the end of the day and the concierge had left. She may call this weekend I was told, but who knows. I've been checking out some before and after pics and have come to the conclusion that I have a decent frame for the right doctor to work some magic on. Hopefully this will be Dr. Palladino. My belly, though flabby, isn't huge and I've seen some thicker ladies come out of surgery with amazing results, so I am feeling more optimistic. I'm looking forward to locking in my date. I already have my money together so maybe that will expedite things. This was a rough, emotional week after I found out my friend killed himself, so I am looking forward to getting a sx date and eventually enjoying life more.

Today I booked my sx date: June 20, 2018. I am set on keeping this date and not pushing it back, so I'm going to head to the store to get the vitamins to start taking now. My blood work should be fine but no need taking any chances. I will be staying at Laly's Recovery House because I have heard nothing but positive reviews. I think 3 months is plenty of time for me to get my affairs in order and most importantly continue to lose weight. As of today I am 169.4 and think it can't hurt to lose 10-15lbs. A doctor has been giving me Phentermine which has helped me lose pounds easily, but Mia Aesthetics said I have to stop 30 days prior to surgery, which makes sense. Overall I'm feeling good about my decision, I just wish I could talk to someone about it. So I'm grateful for this site!