13 Years in the Waiting: The 26 Year Old With Droopy Breats.

I was 13 when I 'properly' started to sprout. Really early on I remember looking at myself naked and thinking I looked different; to all my friends, to my mum, to the Google results when I clicked the search button once I'd taken a deep breath after typing in 'boobies', '[RS bleep]' or 'wangers'.
I noticed my breasts were further apart, my nipples face downward and I always had room in the front of my bras but would spill out of the sides. I also appear to have loose skin, almost as though I gave lost half of my breast size already. The first time i shuddered at a braless me, I was 13. 13 years later it's very much the same.
I spent the next 4 years filling my pretty La Senza bras with tissues and stealing mum's chicken fillets in a desperate measure to creates some sort of cleavage. Every day the hatred grew and I thought about breast surgery all the time which for my age at the time felt extreme.
I was lucky enough to have an extremely supportive mum who I was able to confide in on numerous occasions. We'd been to see the GP who ensured everything was fine and I'd just been dealt a really crappy hand of cards that could be down to genetics.
By the age of 16 they were getting bigger - I was a 34dd. At 17 I was measuring at a 34e and by 18 I was at 34f. I stayed here until I gained weight a few years later pushing me right up to a 38HH at 23 years old.
Throughout my bra sizes, weight gain (and now weight loss), my breast have stayed the same shape
and gravity hates me as much now as when I was 13.
It wasn't until the age of 23 that anyone other than my mum & GP had seen me braless. No one had ever seen them naked before, ever. I had mastered the art of diversion in addition to hiding a multitude of sins and sag under sexy underwear which, by the way is an incredibly effective distraction mechanism!
At 26, I feel it's time. Its time to wear backless tops, triangle bras and not have my breasts my nipples are sat inbetween the creases of my toes! Its time to feel confident enough infront of my closest friends to not have to leave the room when I need to change my top and its certainly time I feel better within myself.
Its time to feel sexy!!!
By the beginning of this year (2017) and at 25 years old, I had comprehensively whittled tens of surgeon down to 4; it was time for an elimination process.
The more and more I researched, I was coming across news articles, academic papers written and success stories that in the end were secured and tied in a reassurance bow by my GP who recommended the same surgeon: Dr. Douglas Macmillan.
Douglas Macmillan is the lead breast surgeon at the internationally renowned Nottingham Breast Institute. He performs only breast surgery and has over 10 years’ experience as a consultant in breast cancer surgery, breast reconstructive surgery and cosmetic breast surgery. Prior to being appointed as Consultant Breast and Oncoplastic Surgeon at the Nottingham Breast Institute, he was Senior Lecturer in Breast Surgery at the University of Nottingham.
He has published over 60 articles and more than 10 book chapters in breast related topics and leads a team of researchers in oncoplastic breast surgery. He is co-president of the International Oncoplastic and Reconstructive Breast Surgery Conference and works for the NHS and Privately.
..... Why would I NOT go to see him?
I booked in my consultation via telephone for BMI Healthcare at The Park Hospital, Nottingham on Tuesday 25th July.
I was meeting Dr. Macmillan on Thursday 3rd at 4pm; scared, anxious, apprehensive.
The £200 compendious consultation lasted 45 minutes (it felt like 10!) He was honest but sensitive and his no-nonsense manner sat well with me. He wasn't interested in sugar coating anything to make me feel like I could have the moon on a stick, he was interested in the facts and realistic results and I respected that.
We discussed 2 different options of the Maxopexy - with and without the surgical mesh.
I went home and researched both of the methods. For me, there wasnt enough evidence to suggest that I would benefit any more should i opt to chose a procedure where there's more risk involved and is £3000 more!
I have accepted the quote for the maxopexy and will be going under the knife 4 weeks today! The countdown is on!
I have a second consultation tomorrow (although i have no idea what Im going to say - I went in with a page full of questions the first time and Dr. Macmillan answered them all within the first 20 minutes!), my pre-op assessment is on 28th September and my surgery is on 12th October.
Its all becoming very real and exciting. Id like to close a further few pounds to ensure Im in the best shape for when I have them done (around 8/9) - I dont want to have them done, then lose the weight and then have them feel empty again.
... and so there we have it! The countdown begins. I'll keep checking in with you all and let you know how everything is, how I'm feeling and how my pre-op meetings go as well as results and things, obviously. I promise the entries wont be as long either!
Let me know your thoughts or if any of you have any questions that I might be able to help with. I remember feeling alone through this entire thing despite me not being, just because no-one could relate so if anyone wants to talk/advice/anything else - I'm here!

Forgot to upload my before pictures. Here is what I currently look like. 3

Hi all,
I feel sick this morning - its finally hit me that the day is almost here.
Had my second lot of bloods yesterday and everything was fine from my previous urine sample and blood test.
I thought I would get more information yesterday (Im not sure what about), but I just thought that maybe the nurses would make sure everything was OK and I was clear about everything in addition to going over processes and protocols as we did last time meaning as Ive forgotten most of it. I dont know whether Im expecting too much or whether I want to be babied a little too much?
Going out for a celebratory pre-surgery dinner with the other half this evening as I wont be able to eat at all tomorrow and my op is scheduled for 11!
Im unsure whether I'll be writing a post tomorrow but I'lll certainly be updating as soon as a I can.
Thanks for everyones support!