Implant Removal with partial lift - after 4 years both ruptured

Just added new pics 5 and half weeks in, I'm loads more content now and although I'm still negative sometimes it's got a lot easier and I now actually have times when I like them! Also, the tethering If that's what it is has got a lot less so I'm not too worried about that now. I've got myself measured and I am a 32d now, with implants I was a 32f so big change but actually now I am a much more natural size.

Today I've had a good day thinking I'm happier about my boobs, it's helped putting this story on here with pics because as I was uploading them it sort of made me realise they arn't as bad as the image in my head if that makes sense? I know I will still have bad days because I'm really critical about myself but hopefully these will continue to become less and good days more with time. It will be nice to where a normal bra at 6 weeks I've only got a week and half to go!

Ive spent months reading reviews on here and looking at pics. I had implants in 2008 and in June 2012 found out both had ruptured due to capsular contracture. Up until that point I loved the way they looked although I was in discomfort with them. I was really upset to have to get them out but I knew I had no choice and i was told i was at high risk of capsular contracture again if i replaced them. I am not in a financial position to take any risks with it so decided not to get them replaced. I paid for an uplift which was done at the same time as removal. I had it done on 2nd January and am still coming to terms with it. It's been 4 weeks tomorrow and I have days where I hate them a d days when I think they are ok. In the end during surgery the surgeon decided not to do an anchor lift as he felt it wasn't needed so he just took a little excess skin from around the nipple on one and under the breast on both. My scars are still very red and bumpy but he said I can use oil/lotion to massage at 4 weeks so will start that tomorrow. I am a bit upset that I paid for an uplift but I am still saggy in myopinion but then I am glad I didn't need more scars. There is one problem which I need to talk to the surgeon about when I see him in 4 weeks, the nipple he cut and sewed back up (which is on my smaller emptier breast) has a funny crease on it, I will post pics, if anyone knows what this is I'd like to know?
Overall I don't think I've made my mind up yet with how I feel but that probably takes time.