Petite Build, 37, 5' 3", 110 lbs. A cup-full C cup :- ) Beverly Hills, CA

Hi ladies! Just a little background..I've been...

Hi ladies! Just a little background..I've been married to my high school sweetheart for almost 19 yrs, have 3 beautiful babies, ages 8, 11 and 18. (She may be a legal adult, but she's still my baby! : ) I have always wanted boobies, especially since I realized they weren't coming. Being lean & athletic, I never really filled out a bra well. After giving birth, I loved nursing & proudly did so for over 4.5 years combined! My nursing boobs were awesome- a perfect large C. Too bad I never had any real fun with them, but my milk filled boobies didn't enjoy bouncing, etc..haha! So here I am now, deflated & lopsided. Basically I was ready for an upgrade yesterday. It cannot come too soon!! My husband agreed to come with me to my consult with Dr. Kim on Feb. 4th! Yay! He hasn't been too excited about the whole thing, mainly because of the money. I'm pretty sure this year will bring enough extra for us to handle the expense. It is hard though because so many things always take precedence. I've reached a point where, if I don't just DO IT, I never will! I'm hoping to get silicone, mod + unders, around 350-400cc's. We'll see what he says at the consult..I'll report back soon!! XO

I can only imagine!

Here's a bunch of wish pics I've compiled: )
I have so many, it's hard to narrow it down! There's definitely a certain look that I love..full, natural & soft-looking.
I wonder if any of these are realistic given my current size & lack of breast tissue left?

All I know is that I get a feeling, like WHOA!!, or HOLY ****! ...when I see ones that I absolutely love. Given that I have never had boobs that made me feel that way, I am SO looking forward to feeling WHOA-worthy! : • )

Consult tomorrow!

Hello lovely ladies! : )

My consult with Dr. Kim is coming up tomorrow @ 3:30pm! Originally it was for Feb. 4, but I had to reschedule so hubby could come..the fact that he expressed interest in coming was a big step! He recently told me he'd be 'totally fine' if I decided not to get them done. I'm sure afterward he won't have any complaints, assuming all goes well! ( :

I have to be honest though, (and this is going to sound odd,) as excited as I am, I am actually nervous..not about the consult but about my husband sitting there, staring at me standing naked, from the waist up. Normally, I'm walking by, busy, or we are in bed, etc...but just to stand there and be observed? I know it sounds crazy but that's what's concerning me the most! I know, he's my husband, I should be okay with him of all people, but even I try not to look naked in a mirror for too long!
I know I'll get over it, but I just needed to let that out. ( :

I'm so curious to know what Dr. Kim will say in terms of profile and size for me.
I also want to remember to ask if he uses the Keller funnel? I hear it's a great way to reduce bacteria in the pocket, therefore, reducing the chances of CC forming.

I'm going to try to add a few pics of me in a tank to show how, even in a padded bra, I still look relatively flat.

I have been sized at a 32C..so strange.
My breast tissue is wide enough to where a B cup cuts it off & puts red marks on my boobs. Ouch: / So I tried a 34 B & it's a little big around the ribs. So basically I think I'm a 33, but that doesn't exist, so I use bra extenders on a 32C...but still have a gap at the top of the cup. Fun stuff :-P
Hoping to remedy that situation asap; )

Happy Thursday, everyone!! XO

Me in a padded bra & tank top..

Just got home from my consult!

Okay, I am really happy after meeting Dr. Kim: ) I got a very good vibe from him and everything felt 'right.' Yay!!

He was awesome and spent a very good amount of time with me. Although I waited about a half-hour after my 3:30pm appt. time and about another 20 min or so in the actual room, it was well worth it.

He was not at all dry or cold, like I was prepared for. He was relaxed, assured and totally friendly: ) It was sooo nice!
He spent a good half hour or more with me assessing my bod, showing me implants, his before/after pics and he looked at my wish pics..and 'wish to not look like' pics, haha! He understood exactly what I wanted.

He pointed out, almost immediately, that my 'bigger' boob isn't really bigger, it's my rib cage underneath that protrudes a little more, which gives the bigger boob illusion. He also noted my lower crease on my right boob & said it's not a big deal. That's good news: )

He asked what size I am currently and what size I want to be.
It was funny, as he was feeling me up... haha...this is so funny, mainly because I have the sense of humor of a 12 yr. old boy...but as he was checking out my breast tissue, he pulled my nipples away from my body to see how much stretch my boobs gave. For some reason, this made me want to laugh so hard! :-P
Thankfully I stayed composed and we carried on, whew! You'd think after 3 kids I'd grow up a little! :D

We talked some more and it turns out I CAN get moderate + which I am SO HAPPY about!!! YAAAYYY!!!! So happy! High profile was too narrow, which is fine with me. The mod + should help narrow my gap as well.
That was one of my major concerns: )
Holy hell, the whole drive home I was elated about this!! : ))))))
(Last consult I went to, the dr. said high profile only and no bigger than 300cc. So glad I kept looking!!)

I told him I'm hoping for a full C and he said it's definitely possible. I wanted to jump up and down & squeal with stupid delight, lol, but again, I had to reel in my emotions. But it was challenging.

He told me what sizes that would work for me. They ranged from 350-425cc's. That's right around what I expected...the 425cc's kind of scare me, but I trust him.
I'm definitely going with silicone. So soft: )
I really enjoyed playing with the implants...maybe too much! o.O

He also said he will be able to release the muscle in my sternum and create nice cleavage. I never thought it would be possible! (I wish emojis worked on this site...so many possibilities!)

He did say there still may be a small gap because of my anatomy, but I don't care. Anything is better than where I am now: )

All in all, it was a GREAT consult and it sounds like I will get everything I am hoping for! He was really, really cool. I felt very comfortable with him, especially considering he was a perfect stranger seeing me nakey for the first time!

Now I'm hoping to set my surgery date for the end of May. Depends on finances, but it could work..fingers crossed!!

Thanks for listening, happy weekend everyone!! XO

One thing I'm looking forward to..

It will be so incrediy nice to have boobs that extend out beyond my stomach! After having 3 kids, my stomach has a distended look to it & it is not pretty.
I am planning on a tummy-tuck in the future, but the boobies are coming first!
Maybe after I get them, I won't care as much about how my mid-section looks.
I wear a nipple-cover, (breast petals) over my belly-button now so I can somewhat camouflage how it pokes out.
Anyway, just thought if post a before pic of this lovely look. :-P

I'm starting to question..

I'm starting to question whether or not I should go through with a BA. I've been researching both sides, yes & no & all of the problems many women have with their implants is scary.
On the other hand, I know women who've had zero problems, love theirs & have had them for a long time.
I feel like with anything we do medically, there is risk. I just need to decide if the risk is worth the rewards.
I tried googling 'healthy women who have had implants long-term.' Nothing came up. I want to know that there are an equal amount of women that are healthy & happy with their choice to have a BA, as there are women who want them out or whom have had health issues.
I'm so, so bummed right now. : /

Alright, I'm back on track!

I was getting really anxious about getting my BA because of a friend of mine who recently had her implants taken out. She urged me to really look into the dangers, so I did. I suppose whatever you want to find on the Internet, you WILL find..in spades. Holy Moly! I got scared.
After talking to many friends/family with implants, my husband & Dr. Kim's office..Paulina...she's a GEM...I am feeling much better about everything.
A few people pointed out that those that have had many problems tend to talk about it a lot. Those that are happy and healthy, move on with their lives..Nothing to report. Even with silicone. That's why I wasn't finding loads of reports on long term happiness with implants.
I've always, always felt deeply secure with my decision to get a BA. I never doubted it- there was never even a tiny voice that said I might regret it. Until I did TOO much research. I AM however totally, above & beyond prepared & know what to look for, should there be any issues: )
So, with that, I've decided to listen to my own intuition and stay on track!
I believe it's going to happen at the end of May!! Just need to confirm the office has my preferred date(s) available.
Thanks for the support! XO
Happy Weekend!!

Just scheduled surgery!!! : D

Yesterday was a turning point for my husband & he decided to jump completely on-board with me...I'm so glad/relieved! He has not been opposed but also has not been really excited either...yet.
Right after my freak out session a week or two ago about not being sure about having a BA at all, he told me he will support me no matter what I decide: )

So I stopped talking about it altogether for a bit..during that time I made the solid decision to go forward, but hadn't told him quite yet.
Then yesterday, he initiated a conversation and asked if I still wanted to have my surgery. I was so happy it was him asking and not me bringing it up.
He said if I do still want to, we could pay today, and schedule it, because we'll definitely have the $ to cover it.
We decided to put it all on a credit card that gives up miles/points for travel. Then we'll pay it off in a couple months, as I've been saving for a long time: )

Soooo, I just called & made my pre-op & surgery appt.!!!

Pre-op- Wed. May 13, 3pm
Surgery-Thurs. May 28, 7:15am :))))))

I don't think my excitement is being properly expressed here but I am so damn excited!!!

When he brought it up yesterday I gave him a big hug & thanked him for his understanding.
He thanked me for being such a giving, supportive mom & wife and said I deserve to have this for myself.
This was the confirmation I needed. It would be so hard to just do this for myself without his support.

So I'm happy, very happy-now I need to start thinking that this is REALITY & get going with the supplies & things I'll need.
Seriously, one of my biggest dreams is in the process of coming true..it's been a very long time coming: )

Happy Easter weekend!! XO

Telling people isn't going as well as I hoped.

Well, I've discovered that there are some people out there that just will not ever understand why I want a BA.
Over the weekend I told a few people..2 sister-in-laws & 2 of my sisters.
The first two looked wide-eyed & acted kind of shocked..then sort of acted happy for me- slight smiles & such.
Both said "oh, don't go all big though, etc, etc..: / But not much was really said after. They kind of changed the subject really quick. Yep, awkward.
Then, two of my blood-related sisters reacted strangely. One just acted confused. The other shook her head & said "why, why, why, why, why"...(I don't even remember how many 'why's' she said)...with a straight face. Of course she gives me the whole, "you're perfect, stay natural," the whole bit.
Then she goes on to say that everyone she knows who has them looks so fake. I said it's not like that anymore- besides there is such thing as subtlety- it's not either natural boobs or porn star boobs. I also said thank you, but you've never seen me naked! O.o
She still was like "ugh, don't do it."
I know she meant well, but it was pretty disappointing.
...sigh....
This was NOT what I expected. I didn't think I'd get a grand parade, but I did hope for a little more positive support.
It's funny. Really, the only people truly happy/excited for me are my oldest daughter, husband, sister who has hers done, every friend whom already has hers done- and there are quite a few, and you guys! : )
I feel like they've/you've been there- know how I feel & why I'm doing it. It's such a deep, personal thing. So much more than, "hey, I think I want big boobs now!" But I feel like that's how they see it.
It's just no use trying to explain it to those who don't get it. Especially my husband's sisters who have humongous boobs already, naturally.
Oh well.
I know, now, to be much more cautious about whom I tell.
I don't think it will be a bad thing for some people to just figure it out on their own, after all is said & done.
Thanks for listening & for the honest support !! XO

Starting the countdown...6 weeks!

HOLY MOLY, 6 weeks 'till big boobies, woohoo!! That sounds so soon..I'll probably poop my pants when it's 6 days before!! :-P I have to seriously start thinking about everything I need to get & do now. So this is actually going to happen!
Did anyone else go crazy searching for the perfect pair before their BA?
I have so many pics but deciding on one look is so much harder than I thought it would be. I like smaller looks, larger, average sizes. I just love them all..sigh...
Dr. Kim asks what we want to look like. We bring pics and he goes off of that.
Shopping for boobs. That's funny. : )
I need a catalogue so I can see them all in one place!
I don't want to be too small and disappear under clothes, but I don't want to have my boobs enter a room before me.
Finding just the right size for me is daunting...but kinda fun; )

Would this work on my frame?

Calling all of Dr. Kim's girls!

Hi! Happy Moanday! :-P

A couple questions for you ladies:

Are we allowed to wear nail polish during surgery? I'm making a to-do list and I remember someone saying we may not be able to?

When does he clear us to drive again?

What about working out & sex?

I told my husband it could be a month before we can do it after surgery and he said, "Nooooo, c'mon, seriously!?" Haha!
I wonder how long we'll last! : D

Thank you for the insight! ?????XoxO

Boob vids : )

I was thinking, it would probably be helpful to show how my boobs squish & move now, pre-BA, for a point of reference for others. I think I'll also post some post-BA, as I heal, drop and fluff, so other women can get an idea of how firm they start off in relation to how they end up. I'll probably demonstrate the massage technique I use and show the degree to which they squish and jiggle, at different points in the healing process.
Thank you krubio for giving me the idea! Hopefully, I can help someone who might be gathering info and doing their research! XO

Video update

Pre-BA boob squish: )
0:42
I thought it would be helpful to actually show how I am not as tight as I appear!
I still can't make cleavage very easily right now though...hoping Dr. K can help me out with that! :-P

Pre-Op done and balance paid! :D

It took us a total of 2 hrs. and 20 min. from start to finish.
I started by filling out a nice little stack of paperwork, that took a while and made me a little nervous seeing the potential complications written out in black and white. I signed on with confidence anyway and then they sent me a little way down the hall where 3 viles of blood were taken. I saw they screened for Hep C and HIV among a few other things. She did a nice job- it hurt very little and was quick. So back to Dr. Kim's office we went. Jessica took us back to a room and took my blood pressure- it was high the first couple of times, I think because of nerves. The third try, it went down a lot but still above my baseline. She was fine with it though. She said usually the nerves cause it to rise. She talked to us about the post-op care and took down my allergies and addressed more of my questions. She was so nice and will be there on my surgery day: ) I'm happy about that!
Once she left, we waited in the room for Dr. Kim to come in and review some things with me, like any medical concerns I had, sizing, etc..because I'm afraid of narcotics and feeling dizzy, nauseous, etc..he told me to just take extra strength Tylenol after and it should help. He said I shouldn't be in a lot of pain after. Hope so!!
They didn't have me put a paper shirt thing on for when he came in, I was fully dressed. So when we got to talking and he said, "let me see your breasts again..." My husband and I glanced at eachother like, okaaY! :-P It was pretty funny. I wasn't feeling awkward, surprisingly, because of his matter-of-fact demeanor-but I did peel of my shirt and bra right there!
He was very pleasant and reiterated that he'd lower my left crease but not as low as the right is now because that would be too low. He said it will even out a lot but won't be perfectly symmetrical. I'm fine with that! Are you kidding, having boobs at all will be a miracle, I'm not going to be picky!
After I got dressed, he looked at my wish pics and said that, yes, he can give me the same look and do it in a way that will fit my body- still going for that full C. He liked what the 375cc mod + looked like when he held them up to me..he said I'd get nice cleavage with a little side boob but not too much. That was pretty exciting to hear!!
He left with telling me as he smiled, "okay, now, don't get sick or pregnant and I'll see you on the 28th!"
Shook my husband's hand and left.
Then, we went to the front, paid our...
G-U-L-P....balance...and were on our way.
No turning back now!
2 weeks, 1 day.
I need a nap: )

Okay, one week!

I'm trying not to feel overwhelmed with everything right now!
My daughters both have sore throats, (we hardly ever get sick at home!) and my son is playing in his championship game tonight in baseball. Very exciting!!
At work, we've been given two new kids to end the year with, but since it's a special needs class, it's like getting 4 more kids! Crazy! I know I can handle it though, for only a few more days!
I still have lots to do and I can't seem to shake a constant tension headache.
I feel the nerves kicking in and I kind of wish they'd have waited till the day before, not the week before, sheesh!
It stinks that I can't have a drink, haha!!
Sounds so good right now...
Anyway, I just needed to vent a little!
I am still very excited along with everything else...I just want to be done already and start the healing process!!

Last day with this body!

All day I've been looking down thinking, wow, life is really about to change! I am really excited, anxious, happy and quite frankly shocked that my day is tomorrow!! My call time is 6:15am, so I'll be there bright and early...actually dim and early because the sun will barely be up! I'm grateful to be going first so I don't have to get hungry, thirsty, etc...my body reacts negatively to these things (my heart in particular,) so they said I am first: ) yay!!
It's so weird to look at myself and feel my body how it is now and know it's the last day it will ever be this way.
Last night was my emotional wreck session with my husband, but he was calm and reassuring just like I needed him to be: ) Now that I got it out of my system, I'm mentally as ready as I'll ever be, to go!
Today I worked my last day for the summer and am STILL doing all kinds of things at home to get ready!
I already started my arnica tablets and will continue 2 weeks after surgery..hope they make a difference with bruising and swelling!
My husband's work is sending dinner tomorrow and I've had friends plan to come bring me food on other nights...I'm so grateful for everyone's support and kindness- especially here! Only you ladies know exactly what I'm going through and can completely relate..thank you, thank you!!!!

A few more pre-BA pics

On the road :D

Okay, omg, I'm on my way. I'm staying calm but super excited at the same time if that makes any sense!!?
I'm going to update as soon as I can..great luck & love to all the ladies in my same boat!! Woohoo, let's do this!!! :)))))) XO

Stacked

Ladies!! I'm so out of it and can't really hold my eyes open but I had to let you know it well WELL!!!
I'm in more pain than I thought I would be but when my husband took pics and described me as stacked it made it well worth it: ) actually, I love how I'm looking- wanna see them nakey...good news- no nauseousness! This bandage wrap is so tight though so that's contributing to my discomfort. Oh! I got 375cc and 400cc silicone unders...exactly what I thought I'd get: ) whoa...I keep falling asleep...love you girls, thank you for your love and sweetness! Can't wait to hear about everyone else's adventures in boobie land!!

Boobs!

New boobie pics: )

Damn swelling

Are there any tried and true methods for reducing swelling? Ouch!! They are so tight and huge! They are also uneven, which is how I was before, but he used two different sized implants to even me out. But now the other one looks a little bigger. I guess I have a long ways to go though and shouldn't worry too much..lots of changes ahead! : )

3 days post-op

I typed a whole long review of my surgery day and after and it cancelled out! Grrrr!!

So I'll just update with a few pics and say I almost, almost had an anxiety attack today after seeing my boobs.
They are huge! I hope and pray they get smaller...in clothes they are covered okay, but in a bathing suits there will be no hiding. I'm okay looking bigger when naked, but just for hubby, no one else.
Please tell me they will get smaller and sit more naturally. I know I'm only 3 days out and have many changes ahead- it's just so shocking to see myself so huge. (It looks like I got hp from the side.)

3 days post-op pics!

Okay, this must be the emotional period..

I'm feeling a bit better physically today, still tight and every time I stand, my chest clenches up...I got out a tiny bit and sat outside to breathe in some fresh air & rode with my husband to take my kids to school this morning...that was my big field trip! Yahoo!!! Haha!
But now, strangely, I find myself crying really easily over things. My nephew is graduating HS today and the thought just makes me emotional...I think it reminds me of my daughter' HS graduation last year & my 11 year old's upcoming 6th grade graduation...then I start thinking about other things that make me wanna cry! Jeez. Why do we do that!? I can't start thinking of uplifting things, it has to be more that feeds my emotions. I guess I'm not surprised..I heard it could happen. I'm not really sad though, just emotional over everything. I feel so post-partum! :-P
Anyways, just wanted to share what I'm going through here at 4 days post-op: )
On a happy note, my husband has been a complete angel through everything. I've been so helpless and he hasn't hesitated a second to help me..he makes me fall in love all over again. Oh great, now I'm going to cry again..so I laugh & cry at the same time! Ahhh! : )
Happy Monday, beautiful ladies!! XO

Scar progress, nipple sensitivity, tightness & massage! 5 days post-op

So, since I'm allergic to steri-strips, Dr. K left my incisions uncovered, except for some sort of temporary covering he took off the day he cut off my bandages. I saw it was yellow but had no idea what it was, I was so (O.O) at the sight of my new boobs that I didn't take note, haha( :
Now I just keep them covered with gauze that I fold and slide under my sports bra, with the help of my angel of a husband: )

Today, I've had sporadic morning boob throughout the day. It feels like Braxton Hicks contractions on my chest though, for those of you who remember those! It's literally hard to take a breath sometimes. I can't wait to be done with this part!
My nipples are becoming irritatingly sensitive today, whereas yesterday and the days prior, my left had the same full sensation and right was about 75% normal. Now they're starting to hurt though, darn! I was hoping to avoid that.
I did look up some stretches to help loosen me up a little because I'm so tense in my chest, shoulders and back, it's pretty uncomfortable at times.
So I started simply stretching my arms slowly up, extending upward until my elbows reached ear-level, then I grab a wrist and keep gently reaching up to get a good stretch. It feels really good. It seems to help give me some relief, at least for a little while. I'm going to keep doing it throughout the day and see if it makes any real difference.
On another note, 2 days ago, I took a nap and woke up to a lot of pain under my right side that wasn't there before my nap. I wonder if I jumped or did something in my sleep to pull a muscle or something weird!? So I've been extra tender on just that side, ever since. I called the doctor's office and one of the girls said to just leave it alone for a couple more days, but to start light massage on my other side if I am comfortable. So my husband it going to help me massage later tonight..I'm hoping it helps relieve some of my tension! ( :

Well, I made it to one week! :D

..and I feel like it's been a lot longer with all the sitting around I've been doing! :-P

I have been able to take a walk these last two days, with yesterday being about 20 min. or so:) It helped loosen me up a little.
Although I tend to guard myself by holding my arms close and scrunched up in front as I walk, eventually I relaxed my arms and felt okay walking straighter. I feel like I am tighter than the average woman is after her BA because of how small I started. Even with a sports bra on, I can feel each step in my boobs. They're pretty sensitive still!

Yesterday, I started trying to massage.
It wasn't too bad, but am I the only one who feels like it's challenging when your boobs are still pretty firm? I mean, they have a little give, but it's still pretty tender around the underside and I'm not sure I'm doing it right!?

My left is has more give than my right..it feels like it's healing/dropping nicely! I like squeezing that one, Woohoo! :D

Now for my righty- I need help with this! I'm feeling a little bummed about the fact that my right side feels injured, beyond what it should feel like, I think? There's more actual pain as opposed to the soreness I feel on my left. It is much more tender around the outside, cleavage area and underside..feels bruised..none visible but inside it sure feels like it! : /

It also was my smaller boob, my bigger implant & my dominant side. But I did wake up after a nap 3 days post-op to strong pain inside on the that boob. I wonder if I jumped or moved weird in my sleep!? I just know that if it didn't happen, I'd be feeling fairly good right now, so I'm a little discouraged at feeling like my progress is slower than it should be.

I'll post some pics in a little while so you can see the difference in each side.
Thanks ladies!! Hope you all are healing nicely and are having a great day!! XO

One week with boobies: )

Notice in the pics how my righty is kind of square-shaped on the outside, compared to the rounded left. It's also higher and waaaay more sore. I'm about to massage so I wanted to snap some pics for you ladies before I snuggle them back into safety; )

Just love this! xo

Just a little inspiration for the beautiful ladies here at Real Self!

trying again...

Changes in bruising

What do you a think about the increase in bruising around my incisions? I only used one to compare, but it's present on both. Is it normal for it to increase a little after a few days?

Water balloon boobs - 9 days post-op

Hi ladies, happy weekend!! : )
Question for you: Does anyone else feel like theirs, at this point, felt like water balloons? Like slightly squeezable, but still overall firm. I mean, when I massage they have a little give, but not that much. Is that normal for this stage in the game? I'm afraid my doctor is going to say they're too firm on Monday. My massages have been helping, but I don't have a point of reference on how much improvement I should see in softness, over time.
Any insight would be great!! XO

11 days post-op! Got my sutures out & my boobs squeezed to death! Ahhh!

I had another post-op appt. today! My lovely daughter drove me because I'm not totally comfortable driving for longer than 10-15 min. yet. (I'm about 45-60 min. away from my ps office.) It's a gorgeous day today, wow! : )
Anyways, Igot in there, got put in a room to wait and Dr. K came in within 5 minutes. (We were a little late after hitting traffic!)
He asked how I am doing and then said "let's see them!"
Haha! It still cracks me up how that happens.
No gown, no going out until I undress- nope, just pull the shirt and bra off right in front of him and he goes in for the kill! Man, this guy gives no warning.
He dove in with no inhibition and squeezed the motherFing life out of my boobs. o.O holy sh**. The only way I can truly express how it felt was to write out what I felt like saying at the time!!
I must be a huge baby because no one else has said anything about his man-claw grip! Ahhhh! Hahaha...I'm still in shock at how hard I'm supposed to squeeze these suckers. Crazy!!! My head was spinning so I had to ask my daughter, later, what he was talking about as he was doing it!
I told my husband he's going to HAVE to do this for me because I cannot do it to myself! He texted me back with lots of happy faces and something suggestive implying that he's happy to help! Such a perv! :D
Anyways, the doctor did say they look good and are pretty even, which is great news! No problem with that hurt righty either..at least nothing obvious. So that's good too. As he was 'massaging' them he was saying how they'll hurt less if I get deep in there & work it out. Whew...I was thinking they'd hurt less if he got his death grip off of them, but okay, ha! :-P
No, but really, he's right!
It hurts like a you-know-what, but I need to get it done! He also suggested that I lay on them on the floor or roll them on a countertop to help with the softening. My breasts were sensitive before implants- doing these things after surgery is a lot to take in. I KNOW I have to get over it & just do it if I want a good result though.
He said right was a little more firm because it's a bigger implant in a smaller breast..makes sense.
Then he pulled out my sutures.
The right side felt kind of burny and stingy as he pulled it out- one long string all at once.
Left side, that bitch kept getting stuck!! Ahh!! By the time he was done I had to ask if I was was bleeding! Yikes! Being the charismatic man that he is, he responded, with a "no."
He still makes me laugh...I did get him to smile a few times, so I felt accomplished.
: )
I now am supposed to take 1,000 mg. of vitamin E every day to help with the softening.
I can wear an underwire bra now too, but only if it keeps my boobs close together..but I actually am not ready for that yet. My under-boob is still firm and sensitive. I'll wait a while on bras in general. I am expecting lots of changes. He said they are still swollen and pressed firmly into my sternum, between my breasts & showed me that, once that goes down, my cleavage will come nicely together! I was really happy to see that. He literally pushed the swelling out for a few seconds and each boob fell slightly in to touch! So cool!
I asked if I can have a glass of wine now & he said sure, that's fine! Yay! That's good to know: ) However, as long as they don't feel completely healed, I'll probably wait on the alcohol. On the other hand, it may be just what I need to take the edge off of those damn massages! Haha!
Oh yeah, I tried on one of my favorite strapless dresses today! I really haven't wanted to try anything on until now...my boobs are still up there, but it's fun to see how different the dress looks on me now!
Have a great day ladies!! XOXO

15 days with hooters!!! ( • )( • )

Hey ladies, happy Friday, woohoo! :D
I've been pretty busy with my two younger kids this week- this was their last week of 3rd & 6th grade, so we had lots of festivities to enjoy, including my daughter's 6th grade graduation today! Yay! I was SO relieved to be able to participate and help with class parties, etc..about a week ago I wasn't too sure I'd be able to!
It was right at about 8 days post-op that I started to feel noticably better. My friend took me out to lunch and I was able to forget about my boobs for short periods as she and I talked, it was so nice..I was still feeling somewhat tight and had to remind myself to not hunch though.
Not being acutely aware of them every second was soooo refreshing! ( :
After the 8th day, each day got much better! On day 10, I drove for the first time & took my daughter to the movies..it was good, although, the driving hurt a little on one side..I have a huge car and jerry-rigging myself into a parking spot was a little tricky but I managed! Also, once in the theater, I felt winded and my heart was beating fast like I had just sprinted. It settled down once I got relaxed..whew!
I've been able to move around a lot better and have much better range of motion now. Still not fully normal yet. I'm still a little tight feeling and my sternum is still slightly swollen and feels tender and bruised inside. That feeling goes away a tiny bit each day though! Thank goodness! Also, I'm tender between my nipples and crease, on the inside, like when I push into them. Now on my left, when I massage, it feels bruised way inside. I figure it's just part of the wacky healing process. Oh & those electric shocky zaps!? Those are pretty fun. Especially when you're supposed to be sitting nicely at graduation and your boobs are spazzing out...trying to keep my cool was kind of hard! I do kind of like them though because it means my nerves are regenerating and hopefully that means all the weird feeling numb spots in my boobs will get less numb!
I have about 50% feeling on my sternum- up from 0%! On my right boob- the bigger implant- the inside of my cleavage is numb. It feels so odd. I try not to touch there too much because it freaks me out a little. My nips are feeling almost 100% normal, with the exception of some extra sensitivity.
In the evening, if I've had a busy day, I get tight and more sore and HAVE to rest.
I still need a nap pretty much daily if I've gone out and done anything. If I don't nap, I'm so tired by about 10pm..I'm a late bird so that's early for me!
So let me talk about massaging. I did some research of my own and found a great YouTube video of another surgeon's that demonstrated his method for massaging or as he calls it, implant displacement exercises.
I found that they were very doable for me & only are a little uncomfortable at moments as opposed to wanting to collapse in misery throughout the entire massage. It's great because now I actually DO them. Before I couldn't bring myself to. So my boobs are getting softer, but my right is still more firm, as it's the bigger implant in the smaller boob & my dominant side. I'm going to try to post that video in case anyone wants to check it out. I showed Dr. Kim and he approved of them, so it's my new method. I also shot a vid of me showing what kind of 'give' I have now. I kind of like squeezing my own boobs so it goes on for a little bit, haha...just so you can get a goooood idea of what I'm working with here, hehe :D
Also, I discovered that I can look really big & busty in certain things and I can look nice and conservative in others. I'm so happy about that! That versatility was very important to me. They still look like a nice size naked and I'm definitely thrilled with that..my husband still thinks their huge, I think because he's so not used to seeing me with anything up top!
I sometimes just do things I shouldn't yet, like push a heavy door closed in one hard push and then I stand there grimacing thinking wth was I thinking!?? I wasn't! Sometimes ibjust forgetful be careful now...or who loves it when you accidentally drop something and you jerk to grab it. o.O ouch. Can't wait to be able to move normally and do everything I could do before! Time, time, time...just need to be patient!
Enjoy your weekend ladies!! I'll be debuting these little ladies at my son's baseball tournament in a tank with sparkles across the boobs! Haha! I don't know how I'm going to camouflage THAT!
Sheesh. Oh well, they'll bound to figure it out at some point! Hope ALL is well and you all are happy and healing beautifully!!

More conservative clothing options: )

I'm so glad I can dress them up or down! Depending on what wear, I can look very sexy or very classy or nice & in between. That's exactly what I hoped for! :D

Degree of squish at 15 days post-op

Gaining a little more softness: )
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Fun pics: )

My husband is gone on business right now, so I thought I'd take the opportunity to be a dirty wife and send him some fun pics! I've done it before, but this time, my boobs get to star in them...which NEVER happened before, ha! ; )
I also have a few pics of me in more fitted tanks which show off my size more blatantly. Once I lose more upper pole fullness, l'll feel more comfortable wearing them in public. Right now, I still feel they look fake-ish at the tops and I'm not into that look. Soooo, trying to patiently wait for them to settle the heck down so I can look more normal, but with boobs!
Have a happy Tuesday, ladies! ;D

23 days post-op! Rippling, cleavage dent and flaky boob skin, oh joy!

Good Morning beauties!! : )

It's been just over 3 weeks since my surgery and although I still am still experiencing some swelling, mainly over my sternum, a lot of it has gone down.
The crappy part about that is now I can see AND feel rippling around 3/4 of my right boob. The first time I felt it, I literally got nauseous. It weirded me out so bad. I'm such a baby! :-P I lost color in my face, had to sit down, the whole dumb thing.
So, if I slouch you can see a couple ripples on the outside, near my arm. Also, there is one kind of visible on my inner cleavage when leaning forward...it is right along a vein though, so it's kind of hard to tell. If I stand with good posture it remedies the situation, but it still bugs me knowing that if I'm in a bathing suit or exposed at all, I'm going to be self-conscious of it
forever:(
I'm SO HOPING that as I soften more and drop & fluff, that it becomes less apparent. That may be wishful thinking. I knew going into this, that it was a real possibility considering how small I was to start.
Another weird thing is when I push them together, there's a flat spot on my cleavage on my other boob. I can tell it had something to do with my muscle attachment. I've read that other women had some relief from this as their implants settled so I'm hoping for the same!
Lastly, are anyone elses boobs flaking a lot? My skin is getting so dry & flaky..it doesn't bother me too much, just wondering how long it goes on for?
On the upside, they're getting a little softer and my right one is getting lower, little by little, yay!
Regardless of these annoyances, I'm staying optimistic about things because it's pretty early still and I'm sure things will keep moving & changing!
I'm still feeling a little tight, but massages help & so does resting. If I do too much, my boobs respond by resorting to tensing up and it kind of forces me to chill out a bit. I'm still sore on the undersides, like way inside, when I push into them..it's taking a while for that to ease up. I guess there is a lot of pressure in there, against healing tissues too. Considering I don't have much padding around it, it makes sense. My sternum and chest bone, especially on my right side, (bigger implant,) still feels bruised..not terribly, but I feel it...especially when I sneeze!
Just trying to be patient with this whole healing process!!
I cannot wait to start getting active again though! Holy moly, I'm getting so soft & mushy! Haha!
I see my ps in 2 days and he'll hopefully give me the go ahead to workout AND have sex! It's been waaaay harder to wait than I thought!
Poor hubby- he'll chime in every now and then with his countdown...10 days! 9 days!
He's so cute: )
I'll post some recent pics of my newest developments and how things are generally looking right now: )
Have a great weekend everyone!! XO

Well, it's been a month!! :D

I can't believe how slow time went the first week after surgery, then, it suddenly started picking up, and here I am at a month post-op! Yay!!
I saw Dr. Kim on Monday and his respond to my boobs was, "Yeah, the look great!"
Of course that made me happy knowing he was pleased with them: )
Inevitably he squeezed them good & thank goodness, this time my knees stayed strong! Only a little discomfort this time, whew! He said my left feels good, right though, still tighter. He said because there is more stretching that needs to be done on that side, it will take longer, like I thought. He mentioned there cooooould be more scar tissue building in that one but wasn't very concerned about that. Still, I'm rubbing these puppies down every chance I get! Meh wants me to take the 1,000 IU or mg or some measurement of Vitamin E twice a day.
He said they'll still drop more, soften more and the bottoms will fill out more over the next two months.
I'm still feeling a little touchy between my nipple and crease, deep inside. If I press into that are firmly, it's not comfortable.
Still healing in there! It weird too, sometime during massages, it feels like a muscle is pulling from around my back, like just behind my arm pit. Hope that goes away eventually!
I still feel a little tight & tingly when I get up in the mornings or if I stand up after sitting back for a while. Nothing major.
Nipples are sensitive & a tiny bit painful, but not bad either..except when shower water hits them! Ouch! :O
They're getting softer, little by little. I wish that part of the process was faster for me. Considering I started with so little, I, in particular, need to be flippin' patient. Bahhh...I hate patience! Haha! :-P
I DO feel a difference though, definitely softer and my left boob even gave a little bounce as I trotted down the stairs a couple days ago! My right tried to humor me with a jostle but it hasn't graduated to bouncing status...not yet anyways! ; )
My husband is so concerned with getting them soft- he wants me to massage all the time. I think he's a little frustrated right now because they aren't too terribly fun yet...a little but he can't do what he wants with them so he's trying to keep his cool & be...grrrr...patient!
I was massaging yesterday and they felt extra sensitive which kind of concerned me until I realized I'm starting my period in less than a week! That explains it..they usually get sensitive during PMS time, so it's no different now!
I really love them though. They're just fun!
I can imagine when they're completely 'open for business' how much MORE fun we'll have with them, hehe! ; )
I tried on my old bras. It was pretty funny. Now, I wore a 32 C, but did not fill the cup at all. However, I needed the wide underwire (C) to fit all the breast tissue I had left, into it. I looked like an A cup for sure. Any how, that 32C Was a definite no-go! Haha! I'll post pics..it was good to know I could bust out of my old bras! Just what I wanted!
So, although I'm only one month post-op, Dr. K said I could get underwire bras now to hold my cleavage close together, as I heal. Sooo, with VS having their semi-annual sale..(thanks Anna1989) for the heads-up! : ) ...I wound up buying some cute underwire bras for less than $30 each! I know I'll change over the next couple months so then I'll do my 'real' bra shopping. I can hear my husband now.."you mean this wasn't 'real'!?"
Haha! Sorry babe!
I measured at a 32DD!! Ha! Double Deeeees!?? Holy moly..so crazy!!
I feel like I could be in a rap-video or something now..don't they always throw that DD line in there somewhere!? lol!
But really, it was a WHOLE NEW WORLD shopping for bras. I was soooooo happy! I really wanted to take a picture of my goofy face just to show you guys how ridiculously happy it made me to look good in a bra, finally! But I didn't cuz it was too cheesy! :-P
Oh, also, my right boob is dropping a little more- finally! I've been encouraging that little bugger. Still a bit higher than the left but it's lower than it was!
I definitely have gotten lower and am progressing! I'll show a pic of that too: )
I have to say, now that the swelling is much less, I feel like they're not that big! Of course, right!? I am already missing how large they looked at first, but it's probably more that I'm just not in shock anymore over the change! I'm still very happy in clothes and out, so no complaints here!
In regards to my last post about some concerns I had- Dr. K did say my cleavage dent could remedy itself as they drop more and soften.
The rippling he said isn't suprising due to my lack of boobage before. It could change, but maybe not. He said it's very common.
Oh well. I still love them and thankfully, it doesn't affect me like it first did.
Okay, think that's it for now!
Thanks ladies! Have a happy day!! XO
Oh & to all the ladies with brand-new boobies, happy healing to you!
I love hearing everyone's stories and helping wherever I can! : )

Squishiness at 28 days: )

Massage at one month
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Here's a video, from today, approximately 2 weeks after my last video, to show progression in softness and squeezability

Still not as soft as I hope to eventually be, but there's time for that- there IS improvement though and I can press/squeeze harder without much discomfort. I can also make cleavage more easily now, yay!

(Oh- please excuse my spaziness, I was trying to hurry before one of my kids came in the room! :-P)

My girls are 5 weeks old today, awww: )

Hello lovely ladies!

Just want to give an update on how things are movin' and shakin' over here..

It's pretty cool because now I'm feeling like their about, oh, say, 85% 'my own,' as opposed to something heavy that's stuck to me. In fact they don't feel heavy to me really at all, even without a bra. Yay!

The first couple of weeks I couldn't wait to get my bra ON because of how heavy and unprotected they felt naked.

It actually occurred to me today that I don't notice them, (feeling wise,) that often anymore.

I DO still feel the tingly, crampiness of morning boob when I sit up out of bed, but it subsides after about 30 seconds.

I'm finding that I can sleep fine on my back, with one or two pillows, and I can roll on my side, (only if I have a sports bra on,) for a little while. I try to avoid that though, as the capsule is still forming and I don't want to end up permanently lopsided.
My doctor's rules are back-only sleeping for 3 months. He's very particular about his patients having a great outcome.

Considering his beautiful work, I trust that he's doing something right! So, I do try to stay on my back as much as possible...haha...my husband would enjoy hearing that!!! Lol!
(Sorry, jeez, I can't help myself! :-P)

As for softness, they are getting more squeezable every few days, my right being slightly behind my left in progress. Hey, they even bounce a little when I run here or there! I know that will increase so I'll wear my good, supportive Champion sports bra for actually running.
That thing squeezes these babies down so they go nowhere. It feels sooo good to take it off though! Ahhh...

Oh, I realized, over this past weekend that even though I didn't have on one of my extra-supportive bras, it didn't hurt when I was hurrying around! I haven't even started working out yet although I've been cleared to do light cardio already: ) I'm lazy right now- and it's been a trillion degrees outside so any little thing deters me. Oh well! I want to wait one more week anyway...I hear 6 weeks is the magic number for feeling good working out. I'll just wait for that, ha! ; )

My nipples are feeling mostly normal, which means good, with a bit of extra sensitivity.

I'm still numb on the inside of my right boob and the skin has that sunburnt feeling between the nipples and creases. Can't wait for all that to just get lost!

My cleavage dent seems to be lessening which is great news, but the rippling I can see on occasion and feel, I bet is here to stay. Poop.

They are still dropping and changing ever so slightly every few days. I'm still massaging randomly throughout the day & it's still uncomfortable in certain spots.

I do wish I could dive in the pool this weekend & have some fun in the pool, but I'll have to settle for standing, (and drinking:) and just watching everyone else this year! (I'm not cleared for it until 6 weeks.) I have yet to wear a bathing suit anywhere so I'm a little nervous, but mostly excited!

My incisions look a tiny bit lighter but I feel two little sharp spots on my left one. I bet they're suture spits. I wonder if that means my '6 weeks before I can go swimming' will be extended? I need to call them & ask!

Btw...I had some boob greed over the last few days, because they just don't look that big anymore! My daughter said, "Mom, you need to knock that off, because, on you, they're big!"

She's right, for me, they are big! I think they're perfect for me..I love how I'm only at 5 weeks and I can run around and they don't bug me.

My pec muscles were fairly strong so I'm thinking they're like an internal bra, holding them secure; ) idk...I'm just happy when I start really running, I shouldn't have a problem, which was a fear of mine.

Lastly, it feels weird reaching my arm out and making motion, like when I scrub the counter. Also, to cut a watermelon isn't that comfy. It doesn't hurt but it's just a freaky, weak feeling. I HOPE that goes away eventually!

Okay! That's about it for now! Hope you all have a blast this weekend with your families, friends and beautiful 'girls!'
Cheers!! XO

6 week milestone today!

Hi ladies!!

Hope everyone is doing really well & moving right along with healing! ( :

Today I reached my 6 week milestone and I am thankfully feeling pretty darn good!

I'm to the point where they feel about 90% 'mine' and like they've mostly integrated into my body, feeling pretty natural, like they are not add-ons; )

The times I notice them are when I massage, (they have some discomfort still at the bottoms,) when I feel the random sharp pains, and when I can palpate the rippling areas.
Most of the time though, I barely feel them in terms of being 'additions.'

My pec muscles are getting stronger all the time- still feels somewhat odd/weak to wipe a counter, cut food, pick up a large load of laundry off the floor, etc..but it's slowly getting less uncomfortable. You know, at this point, progress kind of slows down and strength is regained little by little..more to go!
Looking forward to that: )

Oh yeah- this is nuts- My doctor's office told me today that I have to wait until the 3 month mark before I can swim! This came from a girl at the front desk, so I emailed Dr. K in hopes he'll return my message with something I want to hear. Holy hell-3 months!?? That just seems like forever...I'll do it, no problem, because my health is more important, but I hope she was wrong!

On a good note, I can now steer and park my large, heavy SUV like a pro again and that makes me happy! Before now, I could drive fine (after 10 days,) but not normally- had to make adjustments...so hey, little bits of progress are definitely worth celebrating: )

My nipples are good! Lefty is totally normal in terms of sensation- righty has about 85% sensation. That boob is the one that has the numb patch on the inner cleavage too.
It's still weird to touch- it feels like rubber, haha..gross! :-P I'm alright with it though..just hanging out, waiting for the nerves to re-attach if they ever do!

My husband loves them- his eyes still bug out when he sees them naked: ) He was a little bummed last night because, although we have already slowly started including them in the bedroom, he's frustrated with how I am not totally physically comfortable with him handling them yet. I am too! Ugh- I just want to go at it!! Sorry if that's TMI! But does anyone relate!?

He's not rough, but the manipulation of them just isn't totally comfortable yet because of my sensitivity between my nipples and crease..inside each boob. It'll be going good and feeling awesome and then he hits a spot that isn't so great...like when they 'pull' a certain way, if that makes sense?
When does that go the heck away??
I cannot wait to have zero discomfort..

He's afraid to hurt me and isn't digging the fact that I'm like- "ahh, easy...a little lighter...okay, you can squeeze here, but not here, etc, etc...." Haha!
He understands & is a total gentleman but he's just wondering how long he has to be careful.

I'm still taking my Vitamin E-2000 IU per day- and I swear after I started that, I felt them getting softer, faster...maybe coincidental? I'm still massaging all the time- whenever I can and right through my clothes. I just don't have the time to take my shirt off many times a day; )
So, I'm feeling a little softer and squishier every few days! I love feeling how they change! My right is still a tad higher, but eventually will catch up, hopefully. Nothing too obvious.

I did notice my left crease, the one that was lowered in surgery, is more squared off than my rounder right crease. I hope that changes and rounds out!

My cleavage dent is lessening more and that is really cool- I'm very happy about that. I still notice it, but less than before- so that's promising as well!

My scars are getting a bit lighter pink and are pretty flat feeling. I do still feel what are probably small suture spits on my left incision..two of them. They cannot be seen, just felt. I'm just leaving them alone as they don't hurt or bother me. I'll have Dr. K check 'em out on the 24th at my next appt. I am using Derma e gel on them over night, off and on. I'm not the best at being consistent, but they seem to be improving anyway: )

One thing I was bummed about- I tried on my post-op sports bra and it was too big! Yikes! That was a bad feeling! I mean, intellectually, I knew I was swollen and they'd go down, but emotionally, feeling them get smaller AFTER my BA, threw me for a loop. I'm hoping that I don't lose anymore volume at this point! I'm happy right where I am at!

Speaking of that, being here, on RS, can (surprise, surprise) really give a girl some boob greed, or just make you feel unsure that your size is what you really wanted.

Don't get me wrong, I love being here! I've learned SO much extremely valuable information and hope to help others too!!

However, I realized that looking at so many pics of different BA's can be inspirational or detrimental, depending on your frame of mind. It's had me wondering if I should've gone bigger, then maybe I thought smaller, different shaped, etc...

If you're happy with your outcome, try not to let that joy become convoluted by the boob greed that can plague us!

I try to remember that every woman's body starts off differently and their surgery is unique...things like doctor technique varies, implant style, cc, placement, etc, all factor into an outcome.

It's so easy to get lost in comparing ourselves to eachother's looks and rate of healing. I think it's really important for us to remember that we are all uniquely special in how we heal and how our bodies look.

I guess what I'm saying is that I've learned, in order to keep my head on straight, it's really important for me to appreciate and honor everyone's unique beauty and at the same time, honor what is right for me and appreciate how far I've come...and to remember how happy I am with my personal outcome! My doctor is incredible and gave me literally exactly what I wished for...he's amazing!

Okay, I think that's all for now~ hope you all enjoy an awesome summer weekend!

I attached some new clothes pics and an updated nakey boob pic. Only change I notice in them is softness, as far as I can tell, maybe settling a tiny bit more too. XO

7 weeks and a day..

Hello beautiful ladies~

Just wanted to give an update on how things are going..

At this point, not much has changed since last week. I'm thinking that any noticable changes will take place about every few weeks now as opposed to weekly..it's really slowed down for me!

I'm feeling good as far as things I can do and feeling back to normal. Still if I reach out too far on the bed to scooch over it feels soo weird so I try not to exert myself with out-stretched arms. (Also when I pull my SUV hatch down, I have to be cautious...I can do it, just not rapidly!;)

I'm sleeping with two pillows again because I discovered that it helps my morning boob be not so MORNING BOOB-ish! :D

Softness is improving a tiny bit, nothing major. Still massaging randomly throughout the day...my left feels very nice and is getting a bit bouncy, yay!

Now for the not-so good part-

Sadly, I have to be honest and say I hate massaging my right one now. I only do it through clothes because I can feel the implant really well on that side. :(

It is very hard for me because now I am self-conscious, (once again,) with having my husband touch my breasts because it's embarrassing. Before my BA, I was really self-conscious because there was nothing there, now it's because it doesn't feel nice in a different way. It actually makes me pretty upset- it's embarrassing to even talk about. : /

If I am going to talk about it though, this has to be the best place to do it! Hopefully it'll make me feel better. I'm literally crying as I'm writing..I'm such a baby! I knew it would be a possibility for me to have this problem but I didn't think it would wind up bothering me so much. At first it didn't, but now, because we were intimate the other night...I felt compelled to keep my right arm pressed against my boob in a certain position to keep pressure on it to keep it from feeling 'ridgy' around the sides.
I was secretly hoping he'd only try to touch certain parts & not wrap his fingers around to the sides, etc..
(I'm also worried now about leaning forward openly because it's visible on the inside of my right breast. Fun times :-|

I SO wished I would just feel free to enjoy simple pleasures like that after my BA, without constant reservation.

Obviously he KNOWS there's something in there, but to FEEL it is just weird. He's never said anything about it, but probably because I haven't allowed him TO feel it. He doesn't even know it's a real concern of mine because I'm honestly really embarrassed about it.

I don't like it at all, but it's something I'm just going to HAVE to get over.

I'm sorry, I'm just feeling so down about this because my hope was to have this become one less thing to feel self-conscious about, but right now, I feel like I'm right back to where I started.

I CAN say I'm happy about how they look though, in general. I still feel my doctor did a wonderful job. He said there are things I could do, surgery-wise to remedy the situation, but it's certainly not in my budget right now.

Gaining weight is also an option. Only problem is that all my weight gained goes to my hips and thighs- nothing ever travels to my chest. That would be the ultimate solution though.

Another thing I'm kind of bummed about, while I'm on a roll here:-P.... Is the space between them. I hoped I'd have better cleavage than I do, but that's just me being picky.

I DO have a big improvement from what I had before so I need to look at it that way and be grateful.

I finally put on a bathing suit on for the first time the other day and it wasn't bad- I still have a 'self-conscious' mind from before my BA, so it will take some getting used to..not worrying about how flat I look.

I think I'm more self-conscious now of my extra padding around the bottom half from not working out for so long..once I get more consistently active, I'll feel better, I'm sure, physically and emotionally: )

It's such an oxymoron- I'm more confident yet more self-conscious at the same time. I don't know what to do with myself! Lol!
Hoping I figure this all out sooner rather than later!

I posted some pics above of me in a bathing suit..I don't wear a bikini because of the damage done to my stomach from my 3 kids, but I love the monokinis. Still pretty sexy, even if it's not a bikini...I did confirm that I am not permitted to swim in any body of water until 3 months post-op...so I have 5 weeks to go now. Counting down!

Thanks for enduring this whine-fest of a post. If I'm going to take the time to be here and share this experience, I think it's important for me to to show how things can really go down in the midst of the healing process. I wish it were all roses and happiness, but it's just not for me- there are definite bumps in the road, for sure! However, I know it's nothing serious and I'll get through it. : )

Love you ladies & hope you are all feeling well and enjoying yourselves! Let me know if you need anything!! XO

Unflattering pics

Here are a few pics of what I'm talking about with the rippling. I think it looks worse in person than in the pics though.

Unflattering pics, take two!

Trying this again..

Passed my 10 week post-op mark: )

Hi again, everyone!! : )

It's been a few weeks since I've had a chance to update. I'm at 10 weeks post-op (as of 2 days ago,) and I'm feeling good!
It's fun getting updated on everyone and seeing how you're all doing!

I just got back from an awesome trip to Tahoe and although I haven't officially started working out, but I did go zip-lining and paddle boarding and had a blast with no problems at all: )
I am cleared to do light cardio, no weights, but I haven't been that motivated..so bad, but oh well!

I'm STILL experiencing a touch of morning boob as I get out of bed, but it lasts about 5 seconds, if that. It's mostly at the bottom, underneath in the crease. Some mornings I don't even notice it. Still massaging throughout the day. It's SOOO much easier on soft boobs than new boobs. My gosh, it's enjoyable now instead of dreadful!
My sternum sometimes feels sore, but not very often and it's pretty mild.

The rippling on my right side continues to piss me off but my left is soft, bouncy and beautiful so that one kind of makes up for the other; )

I was changing out of my bathing suit in Tahoe, with my husband in the room and he came over to me so he could get his hands on me, hehe...he commented that he noticed how they are getting softer, which they are- it's pretty rad! :D

I stood naked in front of him, another time & pointed out to him how one boob is shaped a little differently than the other, is lower and how one nipple points outward a bit compared to the other...and how my scars are still pink as can be!
He was just staring. He was so cute sitting in his chair at his desk at home. He swiveled around as I was telling him what I saw and he just stopped and stared for a few seconds and says, "hmmm, I'm just mesmerized, sooooooo..... I don't really know what you're talking about."
Haha, that's the kind of stuff that gets me through my ultra-critical moments.
He loves them & helps me not feel too concerned over the rippling or unevenness or whatever. I mean, I started off uneven and didn't expect perfection post BA, so I'm pretty darn happy with what I have now, all in all!

The dent I pointed out a few weeks ago has pretty much settled so it's not a thing anymore, thank goodness!!! I can squish them together without seeing that and it looks so much better. I think with them dropping more and softening its made all the difference.

The rippling I have is noticable in my inner right cleavage which is a terrible spot for it, but it's not always noticable. I can still feel it around the sides of that right boob too.
It's also about 2 weeks behind in bounce and softness.
I wonder if it will ever get as soft as my left??

Dr. Kim said that if I chose a firmer implant, the rippling may be less, but they'd feel harder. I decided I'd rather have soft boobs with a few ripples instead of stiff ones with no rippling.

I want to post a video of them to demonstrate how they move at 10 weeks post-op. The doctor said, last week, that they look great and feel nice and soft. He said to wear a bra as much as possible to keep them from dropping too low. He's so cute...he then proceeds to say, "well, unless you want to be extra-sexy and go braless for a night, that's okay too, just wear one as often as possible." Ha! ; )

It's crazy that I can go braless and I feel totally fine..it feels good actually!
They aren't heavy at all...unless I try running around, then they move too much for my liking. I wear something most of the time though because I like where they are and don't want them much lower. I think they look the same as a few weeks ago too- softness is increasing, but to me, they look about the same. I can squeeze them together waaaay more easily now.

I am STILL sleeping (luckily, comfortably) on my back, not moving anything over 10 lbs. and not going into any bodies of water, except my own bath, oh and still not letting my husband's mouth touch the nips....ugh....it's been forever, or so it seems, BUT, it's worth the wait and I want to be safe.
August 28th is the magic date! (3 months post-op!)
I can't wait until then!!

I still feel that numbness on my inner right boob. It's weird, but I'm kind of used to it now. Hoping it returns to its normal
sensitive state at some point!

Oh I tried hanging on a jungle gym a couple days ago..couldn't do it. It stinks how much strength I've lost. I am usually very strong and can fly across the monkey bars with my kids, do gymnastics, yoga, loads of push-ups. It's tough, mentally, to not be able to do those things. I PRAY that my strength will return and I'll have my normal abilities back again. That's why I was so excited in Tahoe to get some adventure in- that's when I'm happiest and it felt so good!

Alright- signing off for now!
Love you ladies & hope all is well with you! xoxoxo

Softness at 10 weeks..

Trying again-softness at 10 weeks post-op

Will video work this time!?

Hallelujah! I made it to 3 months post-op!

Hi ladies!! : ) How is everyone!? Hope everyone is healing well and feeling happy!

I can't tell you how long these 3 months have felt solely because I had to have surgery at the very beginning of summer, because of my job.
That made it a real bummer because I have not been able to swim in any water- no pool, lake, ocean, nothing. Aside from that, it's been 3 months since my husband has been able to..ahem...do what husbands do with their wives nipples...haha! That's the longest ever that his mouth has stayed away since I was 15, when we started our relationship!
However, today, I am finally, finally permitted to live my life normally: ) Dr. Kim told me that at this point, I have no restrictions! Yahoooo!!
That's music to my ears: )

I, thankfully, no longer experience morning boob...that took a while, but I can get out of bed feeling normal now. My boobs can feel a a tiny bit stiff upon waking, but no pain. I just rub 'em out for a minute and they loosen up.
I can sleep any way I want now. He did say that if I sleep on one side one night, switch to the other side the next night, to stay even.

My right continues to feel about 2-3 weeks behind the left in softness. (My left looks and feels really good:) Since my right was the boob that had less tissue and had the larger implant placed, it naturally is taking longer. I do wonder if it will ever catch up?

I can still palpate the rippling around the outside of the right one too..in an entire U-shape. Only on the top is it adequately covered.
It still bugs the crap out of me. I've been looking into fat grafting which sounds like the most logical way to help cover it. Of course that's another large chunk of $ so it wouldn't happen for quite a while.
I'm hoping that, with time, things will change for the better. I guess 3 months isn't that long and things could possibly change. Maybe that's wishful thinking? We shall see!

I discovered that the bras I bought from VS at 3 weeks post-op might not be fitting so well anymore. My husband saw me in the mint green one and he commented on how it's barely covering my boobs now!
I noticed that he was right. As they've gotten softer, they sit in the bras differently.
I haven't gone yet, but will get sized again to see if my 32DD size has changed.
I hope not! I found it a bit hard finding THAT size. The 34D is a sister size, it just doesn't fit as nicely. I can't wait to go buy really pretty bras and possibly some sexy lingerie..something I have NEVER bought!
So that's kind of exciting; )

Today, I lugged the big 24-pack of Arrowhead water bottles from my cart to car and into the house. I haven't dared lift or carry anything heavy at all until now. Yay!! It felt pretty normal, no pain! I do notice that I can feel the implant move under my muscle when I flex as I lift things like the water or full laundry basket. It doesn't bother me though and luckily it's not that noticeable.
Same with when I pull my SUV hatch down- I am instinctively careful because it's heavy, but realized today that I can pull it down with no issues. So cool: )

My strength is getting more and more normal. I have more progress to make though. I can't support my body with my arms to jump up on my counter yet, but I did it facing away from my counter, so that was another step forward: )

I still have that numbness in a patch on my right boob in toward the cleavage. It gets sore at times, as in the skin feels sunburnt.
I'm hoping that's a normal part of the nerve regeneration process! I still get the random shooting pain here and there. Also, there is still some sensitivity inside, under the incision spots. The incisions themselves are feeling fine, still pretty pink but flat.. I haven't used anything on them so I don't expect a lot of change.

I can squish them together easily now and can make nice cleavage: ) Since they've gotten softer they move together even easier than before. I had a video to show but it wasn't uploading. If I can get it to work again, I'll post it. I really want to show the progression of how they move during different stages of the healing process! They bounce when I walk now too, it's crazy! :-P
Annnnd I can do a booby dance..if I flex each side independently, each boob moves up a little as I flex. It's pretty funny: )))) See, if I could post a darn video I could supply some good entertainment too! Ha! My husband thought I was quite talented; )

Yikes, this is long!! I just don't want to forget anything that might be helpful or useful! : )

: ) Thank ladies,

Happy Friday & happy weekend!!! XOXO







Hi ladies!! : ) How is everyone!? Hope everyone is healing well and feeling happy!

I can't tell you how long these 3 months have felt solely because I had to have surgery at the very beginning of summer, because of my job.
That made it a real bummer because I have not been able to swim in any water- no pool, lake, ocean, nothing. Aside from that, it's been 3 months since my husband has been able to..ahem...do what husbands do with their wives nipples...haha! That's the longest ever that his mouth has stayed away since I was 15, when we started our relationship!
However, today, I am finally, finally permitted to live my life normally: ) Dr. Kim told me that at this point, I have no restrictions! Yahoooo!!
That's music to my ears: )

I, thankfully, no longer experience morning boob...that took a while, but I can get out of bed feeling normal now. My boobs can feel a a tiny bit stiff upon waking, but no pain. I just rub 'em out for a minute and they loosen up.
I can sleep any way I want now. He did say that if I sleep on one side one night, switch to the other side the next night, to stay even.

My right continues to feel about 2-3 weeks behind the left in softness. (My left looks and feels really good:) Since my right was the boob that had less tissue and had the larger implant placed, it naturally is taking longer. I do wonder if it will ever catch up?

I can still palpate the rippling around the outside of the right one too..in an entire U-shape. Only on the top is it adequately covered.
It still bugs the crap out of me. I've been looking into fat grafting which sounds like the most logical way to help cover it. Of course that's another large chunk of $ so it wouldn't happen for quite a while.
I'm hoping that, with time, things will change for the better. I guess 3 months isn't that long and things could possibly change. Maybe that's wishful thinking? We shall see!

I discovered that the bras I bought from VS at 3 weeks post-op might not be fitting so well anymore. My husband saw me in the mint green one and he commented on how it's barely covering my boobs now!
I noticed that he was right. As they've gotten softer, they sit in the bras differently.
I haven't gone yet, but will get sized again to see if my 32DD size has changed.
I hope not! I found it a bit hard finding THAT size. The 34D is a sister size, it just doesn't fit as nicely. I can't wait to go buy really pretty bras and possibly some sexy lingerie..something I have NEVER bought!
So that's kind of exciting; )

Today, I lugged the big 24-pack of Arrowhead water bottles from my cart to car and into the house. I haven't dared lift or carry anything heavy at all until now. Yay!! It felt pretty normal, no pain! I do notice that I can feel the implant move under my muscle when I flex as I lift things like the water or full laundry basket. It doesn't bother me though and luckily it's not that noticeable.
Same with when I pull my SUV hatch down- I am instinctively careful because it's heavy, but realized today that I can pull it down with no issues. So cool: )

My strength is getting more and more normal. I have more progress to make though. I can't support my body with my arms to jump up on my counter yet, but I did it facing away from my counter, so that was another step forward: )

I still have that numbness in a patch on my right boob in toward the cleavage. It gets sore at times, as in the skin feels sunburnt.
I'm hoping that's a normal part of the nerve regeneration process! I still get the random shooting pain here and there. Also, there is still some sensitivity inside, under the incision spots. The incisions themselves are feeling fine, still pretty pink but flat.. I haven't used anything on them so I don't expect a lot of change.

I can squish them together easily now and can make nice cleavage: ) Since they've gotten softer they move together even easier than before. I had a video to show but it wasn't uploading. If I can get it to work again, I'll post it. I really want to show the progression of how they move during different stages of the healing process! They bounce when I walk now too, it's crazy! :-P
Annnnd I can do a booby dance..if I flex each side independently, each boob moves up a little as I flex. It's pretty funny: )))) See, if I could post a darn video I could supply some good entertainment too! Ha! My husband thought I was quite talented; )

Yikes, this is long!! I just don't want to forget anything that might be helpful or useful! : )

: ) Thank ladies,

Happy Friday & happy weekend!!! XOXO





















Hallelujah! I made it to 3 months post-op!

Hi ladies!! : ) How is everyone!? Hope everyone is healing well and feeling happy!

I can't tell you how long these 3 months have felt solely because I had to have surgery at the very beginning of summer, because of my job.
That made it a real bummer because I have not been able to swim in any water- no pool, lake, ocean, nothing. Aside from that, it's been 3 months since my husband has been able to..ahem...do what husbands do with their wives nipples...haha! That's the longest ever that his mouth has stayed away since I was 15, when we started our relationship!
However, today, I am finally, finally permitted to live my life normally: ) Dr. Kim told me that at this point, I have no restrictions! Yahoooo!!
That's music to my ears: )

I, thankfully, no longer experience morning boob...that took a while, but I can get out of bed feeling normal now. My boobs can feel a a tiny bit stiff upon waking, but no pain. I just rub 'em out for a minute and they loosen up.
I can sleep any way I want now. He did say that if I sleep on one side one night, switch to the other side the next night, to stay even.

My right continues to feel about 2-3 weeks behind the left in softness. (My left looks and feels really good:) Since my right was the boob that had less tissue and had the larger implant placed, it naturally is taking longer. I do wonder if it will ever catch up?

I can still palpate the rippling around the outside of the right one too..in an entire U-shape. Only on the top is it adequately covered.
It still bugs the crap out of me. I've been looking into fat grafting which sounds like the most logical way to help cover it. Of course that's another large chunk of $ so it wouldn't happen for quite a while.
I'm hoping that, with time, things will change for the better. I guess 3 months isn't that long and things could possibly change. Maybe that's wishful thinking? We shall see!

I discovered that the bras I bought from VS at 3 weeks post-op might not be fitting so well anymore. My husband saw me in the mint green one and he commented on how it's barely covering my boobs now!
I noticed that he was right. As they've gotten softer, they sit in the bras differently.
I haven't gone yet, but will get sized again to see if my 32DD size has changed.
I hope not! I found it a bit hard finding THAT size. The 34D is a sister size, it just doesn't fit as nicely. I can't wait to go buy really pretty bras and possibly some sexy lingerie..something I have NEVER bought!
So that's kind of exciting; )

Today, I lugged the big 24-pack of Arrowhead water bottles from my cart to car and into the house. I haven't dared lift or carry anything heavy at all until now. Yay!! It felt pretty normal, no pain! I do notice that I can feel the implant move under my muscle when I flex as I lift things like the water or full laundry basket. It doesn't bother me though and luckily it's not that noticeable.
Same with when I pull my SUV hatch down- I am instinctively careful because it's heavy, but realized today that I can pull it down with no issues. So cool: )

My strength is getting more and more normal. I have more progress to make though. I can't support my body with my arms to jump up on my counter yet, but I did it facing away from my counter, so that was another step forward: )

I still have that numbness in a patch on my right boob in toward the cleavage. It gets sore at times, as in the skin feels sunburnt.
I'm hoping that's a normal part of the nerve regeneration process! I still get the random shooting pain here and there. Also, there is still some sensitivity inside, under the incision spots. The incisions themselves are feeling fine, still pretty pink but flat.. I haven't used anything on them so I don't expect a lot of change.

I can squish them together easily now and can make nice cleavage: ) Since they've gotten softer they move together even easier than before. I had a video to show but it wasn't uploading. If I can get it to work again, I'll post it. I really want to show the progression of how they move during different stages of the healing process! They bounce when I walk now too, it's crazy! :-P
Annnnd I can do a booby dance..if I flex each side independently, each boob moves up a little as I flex. It's pretty funny: )))) See, if I could post a darn video I could supply some good entertainment too! Ha! My husband thought I was quite talented; )

Yikes, this is long!! I just don't want to forget anything that might be helpful or useful! : )

: ) Thank ladies,

Happy Friday & happy weekend!!! XOXO



















Hi ladies!! : ) How is everyone!? Hope everyone is healing well and feeling happy!

I can't tell you how long these 3 months have felt solely because I had to have surgery at the very beginning of summer, because of my job. That made it a real bummer because I have not been able to swim in any water- no pool, lake, ocean, nothing. Aside from that, it's been 3 months since my husband has been able to..ahem...do what husbands do with their wives nipples...haha! That's the longest ever that his mouth has stayed away since I was 15, when we started our relationship!

However, today, I am finally, finally permitted to live my life normally: ) Dr. Kim told me that at this point, I have no restrictions! Yahoooo!!
That's music to my ears: )

I, thankfully, no longer experience morning boob...that took a while, but I can get out of bed feeling normal now. My boobs can feel a a tiny bit stiff upon waking, but no pain. I just rub 'em out for a minute and they loosen up.
I can sleep any way I want now. He did say that if I sleep on one side one night, switch to the other side the next night, to stay even.

My right continues to feel about 2-3 weeks behind the left in softness. (My left looks and feels really good:) Since my right was the boob that had less tissue and had the larger implant placed, it naturally is taking longer. I do wonder if it will ever catch up?

I can still palpate the rippling around the outside of the right one...in an entire U-shape. Only on the top is it adequately covered. It isn't visible all the time, so that's good.
It still bugs the crap out of me. I've been looking into fat grafting which sounds like the most logical way to help cover it. Of course that's another large chunk of $ so it wouldn't happen for quite a while.
I'm hoping that, with time, things will change for the better. I guess 3 months isn't that long and things could possibly change. Maybe that's wishful thinking? We shall see!

I discovered that the bras I bought from VS at 3 weeks post-op might not be fitting so well anymore. My husband saw me in the mint green one and he commented on how it's barely covering my boobs now!
I noticed that he was right. As they've gotten softer, they sit in the bras differently.

I haven't gone yet, but will get sized again to see if my 32DD size has changed.
I hope not! I found it a bit hard finding THAT size. The 34D is a sister size, it just doesn't fit as nicely. I can't wait to go buy really pretty bras and possibly some sexy lingerie..something I have NEVER bought!
So that's kind of exciting; )

Today, I lugged the big 24-pack of Arrowhead water bottles from my cart to car and into the house. I haven't dared lift or carry anything heavy at all until now. Yay!! It felt pretty normal, no pain! I do notice that I can feel the implant move under my muscle when I flex as I lift things like the water or full laundry basket. It doesn't bother me though and luckily it's not that noticeable.
Same with when I pull my SUV hatch down- I am instinctively careful because it's heavy, but realized today that I can pull it down with no issues. So cool: )

My strength is getting more and more normal. I have more progress to make though. I can't support my body with my arms to jump up on my counter yet, but I did it facing away from my counter, so that was another step forward: )

I still have that numbness in a patch on my right boob in toward the cleavage. It gets sore at times, as in the skin feels sunburnt.
I'm hoping that's a normal part of the nerve regeneration process! I still get the random shooting pain here and there. Also, there is still some sensitivity inside, under the incision spots. The incisions themselves are feeling fine, still pretty pink but flat.. I haven't used anything on them so I don't expect a lot of change.

I can squish them together easily now and can make nice cleavage: ) Since they've gotten softer they move together even easier than before. I had a video to show but it wasn't uploading. If I can get it to work again, I'll post it. I really want to show the progression of how they move during different stages of the healing process! They bounce when I walk now too, it's crazy! :-P
Annnnd I can do a booby dance..if I flex each side independently, each boob moves up a little as I flex.
It's pretty funny: )))) See, if I could post a darn video I could supply some good entertainment too! Ha! My husband thought I was quite talented; )

Yikes, this is long!! I just don't want to forget anything that might be helpful or useful! : )

: ) Thank ladies,

Happy Friday & happy weekend!!! XOXO

What is happening to my account?

I think I've been hacked. That avatar is obviously not me! That would be some heavy duty cosmetic surgery!!
Also, I do not wish to receive PM's from men who come here to check us out.
It's very uncomfortable and not what this site is meant for. I REALLY, REALLY wish that RS would make more stringent prerequisites for those that want to view our photos. I have already had to let my concerns be known several times..because of several inappropriate PM's. Still nothi g has changed.
I do not understand why RS doesn't try harder to protect its honest users while at the same time, they're protecting the rights of creeps that come here to perv on us. It makes no logical sense. Anyone else have men PMing them or leaving inappropriate comments?? If so, send in the complaints because after being contacted by yet another man, I am really disenchanted by being here.
Come on Real Self, get your priorities straight.

*~All kinds of support~*

Hello again to my lovely RS friends, happy Labor Day weekend! :-D

First of all, I want to THANK all of the awesome women here whom reminded me of WHY I am here and that I should NOT allow the few bad seeds that infiltrate RS to cause me to run.
To be honest, it still bothers me knowing our pics may be seen by the wrong eyes. At the same time, I've realized that the good parts of RS outweigh the bad. I'm SO grateful for the many, many amazing women that have helped me, guided me and supported me through this (sometimes) emotional process!
I don't want to give up on having the chance to help others, just as I've been helped. So here I am: )

..and since we're on the subject of being supportive ; )...

I went to VS a few days ago and got sized again. I found out that I can now wear a 32DDD if I want more coverage, or I can continue to wear the 32DD, because that still fits: )
Yikes, DDD's...what!?
That's just nuts!
I can't believe the cup size- I think I've said this before but it's the size of my whole face. I can't believe one of my boobs fits into it! Whoa.
I notice that since I've softened more, they settle into bras now, filling them easier instead of the bra just fitting 'on top' of the boobs, if that makes sense.
In the end, I decided to stick with the 32DD's because I think they look better on me, and I think, less matronly.

This was the first time I tried on a padded, push up too!
It was the VS Very Sexy push-up 32DD and holy toledo...or maybe I should say holy TORPEDO!! Haha....no, they were too round for torpedos...anyway, I am not sure I'd ever wear one for anything because, to me, it screams," Heyyyyy people! Check out these jugs I've got over here!"
At least that's what I imagine. I just don't enjoy a lot of attention like that. A little is cool, but THAT kind of cleavage begs to be stared at.
That's not me. I mean, it looks hot, it really does. I'm not comfortable with that though.
Something I've learned throughout this process, is that, I really don't want much visible cleavage..in public at least. I thought, before I had them, that I'd want to wear things that flaunted them and showed lots of cleavage, but I just don't...at least not yet.
Maybe I'll warm up to it. If I found the perfect dress, for the right occasion, I might let more show.
Most likely, I'd just get a bra that created that much 'vavavoom' for fun in the bedroom. Even though hubby says, "Why bother, it's just coming off right away!" ....which is one of the reasons I've never been compelled to buy anything sexy for the bedroom!

Another thing about regular underwire bras...

Will they ever get more comfortable as I get farther along in the healing process?
I am okay for the day, but my boobs feel so uncomfortable and a little sore by the evening.
Once the bra comes off, I always massage them out until they feel better.
I'd MUCH prefer to wear a stretchy, no wire bra all day. I'm looking into getting a variety of the Coobie bras. I've heard they're awesome! : )

At VS I also tried on a s***load of sports bras because I hate most sports bras. I have not been able to find one that doesn't feel like stiff hardware strapped tightly to my chest.

I'd try each one on, and like a goofball,
jogged in circles around my dressing room to see if the bounce could be managed.
The only one that held them securely with very little movement was the Knockout Sports Bra, 32DD, zip-front with the underwire bra inside. It's double the
support: ) It was the most comfy too, although saying it is actually comfortable might be going too far. That's just me though. I wish I could be braless as much as possible because anything constricting bugs the hell out of me. Oh well!
If I'm EVER going to jog again or work out at all, these boobs need protection.
So, the Knockout won! Haha..the KO, not the TKO..(titty knockout, as my sweet husband affectionately refers to it..; )

Oh yes- I did buy a different one as well, but it's such a pain to get on and off, I'm taking it back. Knowing me, I'll get discouraged from working out AT ALL at the mere thought of trying to power my way into the damn thing..and then to peel it off later, all sweaty? Oooh. No. I don't even know why I bought it. Well, to be honest, there WERE cute workout shorts that went with it, haha, that's why! I'll post the pics. I'm keeping the shorts though! THEY are comfortable: ) I just have to roll the waist down one because they go a bit too high for me. Stretchy and cute though..and not toooo short but not long either! Just enough to cover what I want covered: )

Lastly, there were these pretty little lacy sleep bras that I tried on. Really cute and comfortable. I decided I needed one: )
I have been alternating between 2 different Hanes Bandini bras every night and that's just not enough.
I got a cute little matching pair of undies too!

Okay! I think that's it from my neck of the woods...have a WONDERFUL, long, 3 day weekend, my friends!
XoXoXo

More pics..

4 month post-op boob vid: )

Hello, to my sweet RS friends!
I had my 4 month post-op visit on Wed. and Dr. Kim was very pleased with my results! He noted that I have very little scar tissue built up inside so they are nice and soft. Because of that though, I have to keep them supported because I run the risk of them sagging if I'm not careful. Always pros with the cons; )
I still ripple and if this video posts, you'll see as I manipulate them, the ripple show up and disappear, on and off, depending on how they move.
Still getting zingers and random isolated sore spots here and there, but nothing serious.
I love sleeping with no bra at all because my boobies wake up so happy: ) Dr. K said I need to wear one at least sometime to bed, for support though. Oh okaaaay.
Anyway, all is well & as always, even through the annoyances, I am very happy I made this change. Boobs are pretty fun!:-P

Trying my darn video again!

BOOB VID!! 4 months post-op : )

4 month BOOB VID, dangit!! This better WORK!
0:44

5 months and getting brave enough to dress up!

Hello all! :D

Good to be here again and see how everyone is doing!
Just wanted to give a little update since I'm now just past 5 months post-op! Well, I always think it will be a little update, until it's not!

I'm feeling good, working out and lifting free weights again..finally! I waited a long time! Partially due to wanting to preserve my healing integrity and partially due to laziness. :D
I cannot wait to get back to rock climbing and yoga..two things that make me very clear-minded and happy! I think I'm apprehensive because I'm afraid my body won't be strong enough yet. We'll see..holding high hopes! : )

Boobies are feeling very much like my own. Squishy and jiggly..they're FUN!
Hubby is happier now because he gets to squeeze and knead them like a stress-ball and it makes him happy, haha!

Believe it or not, he used to get a hand full of my natural ones and squeeze away back then, so he was missing that a lot.
He was so concerned about hurting me that he couldn't relax and enjoy them. He can now though! It still feels weird and even a little irritating in the cleavage area on my righty where I haven't regained all feeling yet, but there's nothing painful. It's about a 3x3 area of skin. Scars are still pink but I do nothing for them. My c-section scars..3 on top of the other, are all white, so I'm just assuming my boob scars will fade too. They don't bother me much at all. One concern is that I feel they might have settled a bit low. My hubby tells me to stop thinking so much, that it sabotages my peace of mind. You know, he's right!!
I realized my nursing breasts sat a little low, too, so I'm figuring it's just how my body is. They haven't settled any more within the past month so let's hope they stay happy right where they are! : )

Back to feeling~ I do notice a bit more feeling developing in that numb-ish spot, so improvements are in the works! Yes!
Oh and that right side is STILL tighter- it makes me wonder if that implant is just too big for my natural tissue? I do wonder if in the future that one will stretch and accomodate the 400cc implant more than it has so far? Maybe a smaller implant will help with the rippling that's still there, too?

I bought some new bathing suits. I like how they fit and make me feel much less self conscious. I hardly got in a suit all summer.
I am a self-conscious kind of girl so getting suits that worked well on my bod was a bit of a challenge! I'll post some pics of them so you can see why I like the ones I got.

I am loving being able to lay on my side and tummy with no problem. I like to kind of bunch the sheets under me a little to help feel more comfortable but even if I don't, they squish down enough to finally NOT feel like big beach balls under me! Yay!

Oh and today, being the magical night of Halloween, I decided that I'd do a little dressing up of my own, but just for my
man; )
I've had this pretty, lacy corset for OVER A YEAR! Finally, I am going to get brave enough to wear it!! I have a thin, lacy black bra, crotchless panties and thigh highs...and of course some sexy little heels to go with it.
I've thought so much about this and had no idea how to pull this off- but since Halloween is 'dress-up' time, now's my chance!

LADIES!! How do you pull this off!!???
I am being honest, I need advice!
I've NEVER in my life dressed up for my husband for the sake of just being sexy..I'm actually nervous to! So sad, I know! We've only been together for 23 years! Haha!!

What do I do? Just put it on and walk out of the bathroom!? Haha!! I'm so awkward, I'll be like.."Hi! Soooo....here I am!!" :-P

Yikes, okay, I'll toss out some pics of the ensemble on me..good thing is I actually feel sexy in it. Is it weird that I turn myself on wearing it?
Hahaha!!
That's probably a good start, anyways : D
I just have no idea what to DO with myself or how to be, after it's on...

Thanks for listening!!
Have a Wonderful, Magical and SAFE night tonight!!! Happy Halloween!! XOXO

Another bathing suit: )

8.5 months post-op and thinking of removing my implants:/

Hi all! : )

Oh gosh, it's been quite a while since I've updated!

I've been enjoying reading everyone's stories/updates and hearing how we all are getting by in life with new boobies: )

As you can see in my title, things are not rolling along entirely smoothly for me, unfortunately.

Although I love how I look, aside from the continued rippling in my larger implant, I decided last night that I may have to have them removed. I cried my eyes out and accidentally woke my husband when he was supposed to be getting a goodnight's rest before a huge presentation. He woke up and asked what was wrong. I told him how I think I need to take my implants out:( and proceeded to cry like a baby for about a 1/2 hour.
(I can't believe I am writing this.)

Here's the reason:
At around 4 months post-op I started feeling little pangs of pain in my hands and feet. I didn't think much of it as we all experience random things like that on occasion.

Those feelings continued though and began getting more noticable and intense and also increased in frequency. Nothing like that had ever happened to me before- it was a totally new feeling..not a good one either.
Even still, I wrote them off and didn't really take them too seriously. I tend to not be a paranoid person and often look on the bright, positive side of things. I have my moments, but I have never worried about this happening.

In the back of my head, though, I was becoming a little more alert to these new sensations..still not dwelling though.
As weeks passed, I started feeling achiness in my legs near my knees and near my wrists and elbows.
Then for a week straight, sharp shooting pain in my head. That got my attention.
Those have passed but have given way to an every dayor every other day
occurance of achy muscles in my lower legs and/or arms-especially my left arm lately. 4 days in a row my left arm has ached pretty bad off and on. What is going on?? >

I have NEVER felt things like this until after my surgery. I am super healthy and rarely feel such consisent (on and off and on again) aches and burning and pains.
I can only assume it's the silicone:(

I admit I am the LAST person to think this would happen.

I am honestly so torn about this. My plan is to have some testing done, to see if anything shows up and can point to the silicone being the culprit.
Honestly though, I feel like, even if nothing shows up, I have a gut-feeling that the implants are affecting me negatively. Ugh.

I pretty much KNOW what I need to do, but handling it is something that I greatly fear.

I remember how frustrated and sad I'd get about my body before my boobs. Then finally, to be sooooo much happier with my reflection, only to have it disappear again, is a horrible feeling.

I am so afraid to go back to how I felt, emotionally, before my surgery. It was so hard..especially during bathing suit season and trying on bras...getting naked in front of my husband, etc. Actually, I never did that. I was way too self-conscious to be that vulnerable. I was so embarrassed about how I looked. I would hide or pull a towel over me quickly if he walked in:/

To think of having to go backward, back to that life, is beyond frightening and so depressing.

How bad is it that I think of that and worry about that when my health is potentially at risk. I am truly concerned that if I allow them to stay in though, that things will get worse.
From 4 months post-op to now, I do notice an increase in the frequency of symptoms. I might be lucky in that I haven't experienced anything more than aches and pains.
I honestly don't think I have a rupture as nothing has happened to lead me to believe that..but who knows. My body is sensitive to a lot of things. I guess this could be one of them.

My biggest fear next to my aches never going away, is that I will be severely depressed about how I look after an explant. If I am being totally honest, my true biggest fear is that my husband will regret my decision and feel stuck, being with someone that not only looks like crap but feels like crap about herself as well...(looks-wise.)

He has expressed that he's not worried about the outcome and that he wants me healthy, first and foremost. I know he's being honest and I appreciate his support so much! He genuinely isn't worried and was really surprised at how upset I got about the possibility of an explant. He says he's not worried and knows it will all be fine, telling me he never had a problem being turned on by me before surgery or after..
I feel like it's easy to say that now, but when I look like I have deflated balloons on my chest, how will he truly feel then?
I know that how I feel matters most, but I can't lie and say that his opinion doesn't matter much.
Regardless, I will certainly do what is right for my health.
I just worry about him being let down at the sight of me and secretly wishing for someone better to admire.

So that's what's happening from my neck of the woods. I WISH so much that I had a fun, happy update.
It's kind of blowing my mind that I even have to entertain the thought of surgery again, and the emotional aftermath that will surely follow. This sucks a lot.

Thank you for listening to me share and vent! I hope everyone is well and happy!! *~*~Much love to you all~*~*

Hi ladies!

Thank you ALL so much for checking in on me and for your entirely lovely and encouraging words! They mean so much and helped A LOT!
It's late now, but I will definitely be posting an update very soon. Stay tuned.
Much love to you all!! XO
Beverly Hills Plastic Surgeon

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