A BBL adventure, continued

Hey ladies:
I have been patient, followed every protocol for post-op that was provided to me, and even invested in more than the recommended number of massages...and my results are not good. The projection is fine but my stomach is bad...I have extra "loose" fat I never had before...I can't wear anything slightly form fitting without it sticking out. I used to have a flat tummy..what happened??! Dr. Fisher told me I could have "minimal loose skin" but not even enough to merit a tummy tuck, and yet here I am with a body I don't recognize! Not to mention I have a small "shelf" and if you read through all of my research and review updates, that is the LAST thing I wanted. I wanted natural and upsidedown heart shaped. I am literally crying as I type this. Everytime I would look in the mirror or try on clothes and find myself upset I would talk myself down by reassuring myself it was just swelling and my body is still healing....but it's been exactly six months and I would do anything to have my FORMER body back. I called Dr. Fisher's office (and learned that Vanity has changed hands, which hopefully is a good thing) and sent lots of updated photos for his review with all of my notes explaining why I am unhappy.
I am actually too embarrassed to even post photos right now ladies. And I was so confident in Dr. Fisher's abilities! Why am I the one patient with these awful results?
The new management team at his office told me I would possibly be up for a "revision" and "all I would have to pay for" was anesthesia fees and not Dr. Fisher's fees but I can't afford that...by the time you calculate in airfare again and a recovery house or an airbnb and a caretaker and all of the post op supplies it would probably end up being another $4,000 dollars...for the POSSIBILITY I would get what I was supposed to get the first round?
Does anyone else have suggestions on how to handle this? I have finally allowed myself to accept the reality that my results are not going to improve. I am stuck with this body unless I go through with some other procedure...
Dr. Fisher called me today and I missed his call because I was in a meeting at work, but he left a message saying he reviewed my photos and will discuss my options with me...of course he is going on vacation starting today and won't be back until sometime next week so now I have to wait until then to discuss my options. But I am over here freaking out because as far as I'm concerned my only option is somehow doing this again!
If I could somehow get the time and money together and agreed to take the health risks again (I cant even think about this without crying, ladies) should I trust him to do a revision considering how unhappy I am with my results?
I guess I just needed to vent.
I will try my best to build up enough courage to post the photos for you to see...in addition to the fat on my stomach, my waist is NO smaller than it was before (and I have been working out again for some time now) and my torso has no hourglass shape at all....and if you look back at my "before" photos, you will see I used to have a nice hourglass photo.
I should have left my body alone. I should have never gotten into this mess. If you are like I used to be, and you are pretty much happy with what God gave you but just want to tweak the booty....my suggestion is don't go through the risk of needing another major surgery. I should have accepted myself the way I was and saved a lot of money and stress.
My thoughts have been with you other dolls out there who shared their journeys with me along the way.
I apologize for not updating until now...I have been trying to come to terms with my results and what this means going forward. :(

Hey ladies I have survived week one, though the plane ride back from Miami was pretty miserable (I took my booty buddy pillow and did my best not to put pressure on my butt.) The pain hasn't been too much of an issue at all (thank God) but like many other women have said before me, the stiffness and soreness are huge factors. I've found it most important to keep moving. Get up and walk walk walk. Keeps the blood flowing and it's better than laying around on your stomach all the time anyway! I'm finding that sleeping in the faja may be the worst of it all. I get really chlostrophobic feeling when I try to lay down to sleep at night. Between compression socks and this faja, it can be suffocating. Everything went pretty much the way I had planned in Miami (full review on that later.) For now I'm just focusing on getting the post op swelling down enough that I can get back to work and update you ladies properly. Dr Fishers assistant did inform me that he put 1300 ccs in each side of my booty. I think my favorite part of the whole experience is that dr fisher took the time to talk with me and look at me thoroughly before sx, and after seeing some of my wish pics the man says, " oh I think I can give you better than THAT" I was like, "alright then what are we even doing looking at this junk for?? Let's get this party started!" He did a few shots of espresso while I was being wheeled into the OR and I woke up in a thick drugged haze where my caretaker Amy and her husband Jay were waiting to take me back to my rental home (they are amazing people and I feel grateful to them.)

Feeling pretty good ladies. Just trying to drink drink drink fluid and rest. Update later!